Honeyed

Episode.50 (SEASON 2)

"My son, like him you should give thanks".

Mother came suddenly to me who was busy sitting in the TV room with Ilham. Mother's face is very calm as usual. I don't know, maybe Mommy is getting the diamond that she's been waiting for.

"Whyme?! ".

" Yes, thank you. You should have my son's birthday".

"But on what basis?! ".

" How do you even ask on what basis? ".

" Yes people if holding a Thanksgiving event there is a reason, for example thanksgiving for opening a new office or something else. Lah this?. Fatih was told to give thanks for no reason".

"Clearly dong reason why you should hold a thanksgiving event".

" What is that?. Fatih did not run out of getting something or nothing that made Fatih to give thanks ".

" Daughter, you have to have a thanksgiving event. Because soon Aisha will be yours again".

"Huh?!. I-meaning Mother?! ".

" Yes my son. Aisha will be back in your arms again".

"That can't be Mother. Aisyah has now become the legal wife of her husband Fahmi".

" Why is it impossible. That's very likely Fatih!. It doesn't take long. Aisha will be back in your life! ".

" Why Mother can be so sure. That Aisyah will return to Fatih?! ".

" Yes it's just a feeling Mother. After all, it's usually a mother's premonition that's always close to right".

"That can't be Bun. And it won't happen!! ".

" You are, if you do not believe in your own Mother. Then who will you believe?! ".

" Yes that's not it. Mother did what. So sure, that Ayesha will return to Fatih in a short time?! ".

" Yes, Mommy didn't do anything. Only Mother is sure. That Aisha will be your wife again".

"Already Mother. Don't make Fatih expect too much from the uncertain. After all, Aisyah was now the legal wife of Fahmi!! ".

" Fatih?!. Mother can't possibly have her hunch wrong. This must be happening!! ".

" Mother, Fatih said. That's not possible. After all, Aisyah is pregnant with her second child from her marriage to Fahmi, Bun! ".

" What?!. So Aisyah is pregnant again?. Pregnant the second child of her current husband?! ".

" Dad Mother".

"So, if you marry Aisha again. You will have three children who are not your flesh and blood?!".

" Yes, like that".

"Ah, stop. That's not a problem. Anyway, you should have her Thanksgiving soon".

" Fatih doesn't want Mommy. After all, what would Fatih answer. If anyone asks for thanks for what?! ".

" Ribet is very. You can say, thanks for getting married soon".

"Oh my Mother!. That can't be Bun. Fatih doesn't even know when she's getting married again. How could Fatih speak so in front of so many people?! ".

"You're just living with the old man, it's very difficult. Never mind, let later Mother who will organize the Thanksgiving event!! ".

" Mother!!. Not Mother! ".

Mother just left me. I don't think about Mother. Why are you so sure, that Aisha will come back to me again. Even when I said that all that couldn't happen. Plus the condition of Aisyah who is also pregnant young, the fruit of her marriage with Fahmi who is now still her legal husband. The Thanksgiving cannot happen. I don't want to bear the shame and ruin the good name I've built all this time. Later on, people who know me call me crazy. Because I wish I would marry again. A hunch, what kind of hunch is Mother feeling. It was just a hallucination of the Mother, or just too much hope from the Mother. Aisyah will never be able to come back with me again. It was very clear at that meeting, he even dumped me mercilessly. In front of me, even Aisyah only loved me long ago. And not now. So what will Mother do this?. Wonder, why Mother is so very sure, that her former daughter-in-law will return again to be her legitimate daughter-in-law again. The real me who was sick and lost Ayesha very much, trying to stay patient and certainly self-conscious, that my present love will never be reciprocated by Ayesha again.

"Mother?! ".

I went and approached Mother who was busy using her mobile phone.

" Mother come on. Fatih please, don't hold the thanksgiving ceremony Bun".

Mother does not listen to me. Mother still continues to focus on her mobile phone. I don't know what Mother is doing with her cell phone.

"Mother, listen to Fatih dong Bun. What is your mother doing?!. Very busy with his cell phone. Until Fatih doesn't listen! ".

" Fatih, Mother is busy. Mother is ordering catering and all the necessities for your Thanksgiving day after tomorrow".

"What?!. Mommy come. This time Fatih please. Don't give this thanks".

" Already, if you talk to Mother just to whine so that Mother does not so hold the Thanksgiving event. It's good to just go to the office. Do not disturb Mother again, Mother is busy ".

It's hard to explain to Mother. I think I want to be angry. But again it must be put on hold, in order to keep the feelings of the woman who gave birth to me into the world.

" Mr, it is. What kind of a Thanksgiving?".

Suddenly my son Ilham, came from the direction of his room. Looks like this kid overheard my conversation with Mommy just now.

"Yes granddaughter of grandmother. Grandma wants to give thanks to your dad".

" Ilham, your father for a moment... ".

" Mother, enough!!. Don't say anything to Inspiration".

I'm trying to stop Mother's words. Inspiration cannot know this problem. I don't want Inspiration to know everything about the problems her father is facing.

"You why the hell?!. You should be happy. Because soon to be married again with Aisyah?! ".

" Yetoo!! ".

I can't help but feel angry with Mother. Mother has passed. I snapped at Mother. But like that it doesn't work. Mother still looks calm and fun with her cellphone.

" What's the name of your future wife, just like Umi Wawa? ". Ask plain Inspiration to her grandmother.

Children who are very innocent like Ilham do not know, if indeed Aisyah who her grandmother said just now is, Aisyah who is the same as her Umi Marwah, her close friend first.

" Yes, Ayesha, the grandmother I was referring to was A... ".

" Ilhaaammm!!!. Get in the room!! ".

I cut Mother's words. I was forced to yell at Ilham and tell him to go into his room. So that Inspiration no longer hears the words of his Grandmother. This will not happen, this is just a Mother's hallucination. Even I myself do not know, whether I can have Aisyah back or not at all. But Mother was so very confident, that Ayesha would belong to her son again, in a short span of time. Ilham immediately ran towards his room, as soon as I snapped loudly. Honestly, just this time I snapped so hard at Ilham. I was forced, even though my heart had to hurt. Inspiration must be sad and crying in his room.

"Trainer!!. What the fuck!!. Why are you yelling at Inspiration like that!! ".

"Mother is nothing. The stubborn mother. Fatih told me Bun. That's not all gonna happen".

" You have dared to fight Mother!! ".

" It's not so Bun. Fatih did not want to, Inspiration knows things that have not yet happened. Fatih did not. want to make a child as small as Inspiration must hope without certainty ".

" Later or later, Inspiration will also know. If Aisyah Umi from her friend, it is someone who has been married to her father in the past!! ".

" Fatih does not mind Mother, if indeed what Mother said to Fatih it is certain. This is only because it is uncertain and will never happen, so Fatih completely disagrees with all of Mother's plans about the thanksgiving".

"Here you go, Mother is tired of talking to you!! ".

"Mother come on, besides where the hell, Mother is very confident, that Aisyah will belong to Fatih again. What makes Mother so sure".

" Fatih, Mother is a woman. Mother also gave birth to you. Mother knows very well, how a mother's premonition for her child!! ".

" Mother, Fatih knows. But. like her it's not a hunch, but Mother's hallucination. Mother knows, a few days ago, Fatih accidentally met with Aisyah at the pregnancy clinic. There, Aisyah loudly said that she did not love Fatih Mother. There was no love in his heart for Fatih anymore. Even Aisyah had also clearly dumped Fatih, Aisyah told Fatih to quickly find a companion for life, so that Aisyah would no longer be disturbed by her household by us. Of all that, is Mother still hallucinating that Aisha will return to Fatih, especially in the near future?! ".

Mother was silent, as soon as I told her about me who accidentally met Aisyah. I intentionally told all to Mother. In order for Mother to wake up from her hallucinations that are increasingly not because of this. Hopefully, with me. tell it all. Mother will cancel her intention to make a thanksgiving event for me.

" Fatih, Aisyah said so because now she is still bound by her status as the legal wife of Fahmi. Just believe in Mother, this time Mother is sure Fahmi will succumb to you. And give Aisha back to being queen in your life, son".

"Mother, come. Don't keep going like this. Mother said, Fatih must be strong. But now even Mother who makes Fatih weaker".

" Yes, you must be strong and must seize what should be yours Fatih!!. Mother will continue to hold that thanksgiving. Without or with your consent. If you don't want to attend the Thanksgiving event. No problem, one day you will thank Mother. Because the feeling that Mother has will never miss".

"Aarrgghhh!!. Whatever!. Fatih has a headache. Mother does not want to hear Fatih though!!".

I just left, leaving Mother who was still sitting on her favorite sofa. My feet are fast moving towards my son Ilham's room. True to my guess, Ilham was crying in the corner of the room, while drowning his head between his legs folded. My heart aches, seeing my son like that. It's all because of Mother. Mother's silly idea of giving thanks, which makes me this kind of emotion in Inspiration.

" kids.. ".

" Dad, what's wrong Inspiration. Why Ilham in snapped the same father. Hikkkks... ".

" I'm sorry, son. I couldn't control my emotions. Honestly, I have no intention of yelling at you so loudly. Sorry, Daddy son".

I hugged the body of a frightened child in the corner of the room. I feel so sorry for yelling at this kid who doesn't know anything. I wiped my tears, I couldn't bear to see Ilham fear and cry like this. Inspiration doesn't even dare to look at me. He kept his head down, he wouldn't look me in the face. I didn't expect to lose control like that. But it all happened because I had no other choice. All this is also for the good of my son's inspiration.

"Ilham apologise Dad. If Ilham had the same fault with Dad. But don't snatch that rich inspiration again. Inspiration is very afraid".

" No, son, Inspiration is not wrong. The wrong father is my son. The wrong father for not being able to hold back your anger. I'm sorry son, I'm sorry. Father please. Hikk... ".

Destroyed was my defense, so as not to cry in front of Inspiration. It feels like my heart is sliced to hear all the words of a child who is still innocent like Inspiration. I shouldn't have shouted at Ilham so loudly. But everything has happened, my job now is, how to get Inspiration to apologize for me, also not afraid anymore. More than that, I was very afraid of Inspiration for severe trauma, my consequences.

"Hug Daddy, son. I'm sorry, I love Ilham very much. Don't cry anymore. I promise I won't repeat anything like that there's Inspiration".

Inspiration woke up and then hugged my body tightly. I also wiped her tears. Pecking his forehead. Things like that, I won't do to my son again.

" Ilama also loves Daddy".

"Right, I love you, Dad? ".

Inspiration does not answer my questions. He just nodded his head slowly as his hands wiped his tears.

"Try kissing Daddy's cheek, if Ilham really loves Daddy".

My son went straight with passion, kissing my cheek many times. I laughed with Inspiration. Inspiration wiped the tears from my cheeks. And then a big smile in front of me. It feels so relieved, at least this kid doesn't hate his dad. Inspiration is very mature, he even seemed to be able to understand my position.

"Son, can't you buy me some ice cream? ".

" Want Dad, Inspiration for ice cream".

"Choose off".

My body of Inspiration carried and then walked out of the room of Inspiration. I no longer see Mother in the living room. I don't know, for now I don't want to talk to Mommy. I must make the Inspiration happy first. Although to be honest, I am still very thoughtful of the Thanksgiving event that Mother is preparing for me. My head even ached to the point of imagining that the thanksgiving was happening. What should I say, if any citizen asks, where is his future wife?, which person?. And another question I couldn't possibly answer. Mother certainly did not think far to get there. Just this time, Mother felt very confident with the premonition that Mother had. To me, everything feels so strange and hard to accept. There was no wind and no rain, suddenly Mother was so sure that Aisha would again be my wife. I suspect, is Mommy planning something?. But what is the plan and for what?. I don't know, I'm so confused about everything.