Honeyed

Honey Ep.7 (SEASON 2)

Today my decision is complete. I will write a letter to Aisha. I'm pretty sure if this step I took was right. Today, after preparing a meal and reminding my son Fatih to take his medicine, I will immediately write a letter to my former daughter-in-law Aisyah. I still remember very well, the address of Aisyah's house. After writing the letter, today also the letter should I send to Aisyah's home address by mail.

"Son, eat. After that you take medicine. It's ten o'clock by noon now. It's time for you to take your medicine,". I said to Fatih who was sitting at the dining table.

"Yes Mother. Bun?, when could Fatih meet Aisyah and eat together at one table?. Where did my wife Bun go?, why didn't she come home for so long?,". Fatih looked at me who was taking food for her.

"My son in a moment. Aisha will come to see you. Now you eat, son, and then take the medicine well,". I gave a plate of rice along with vegetables and side dishes.

I noticed my son was the only one who ate voraciously. At least my son's physique has improved. His appetite had returned, and his sleep was in order. His psychic remains who hopefully soon improve. Fatih followed her mother's orders, she took the medicines she had to drink. After that, he went back to the room. I cleaned up my son's food. And then walk to the room. Paper and bolpoint and an envelope I prepared to write Aisyah a letter.

Jakarta, December 31, 2015

**For my Daughter Aisha Fatimatul Salwa

Warahmatullahi wabarokatuh assalamualaikum.

Aisyah my daughter?, how are you doing in Solo?. May you, your husband, and your family be healthy all. Aamyn

Aisyah, Mother previously apologized if you had been presumptuous to send you this letter. Indeed, Mother had held him back so as not to disturb Aisha's life anymore. Forgive your mistakes, son. But Mommy there is no other choice, son, other than to give you this letter. Previously, Mother had tried to contact your home phone and mobile number. But apparently none of them are active. Mother understood, Aisha was just trying to get out of Aisha's past with Mother's son. And strengthen the heart and mind to continue to be able to continue the new life of Aisha.

Aisyah, Mother please son. For this time only, please Aisyah help Mother. Regardless of the bitter incident between Mother, Fatih the son of Mother, and you want Aisyah. Mother begs, and truly begs Aisyah son. Only Aisyah who In sheaAlloh can help the situation as before. Can Aisyah come to Jakarta to meet Fatih?. Just once, please, Mother. Come to Jakarta, son. Aisyah look from the side of humanity well son, do not look at anything else.

Mother is grateful and happy, Aisyah can continue to live Aisyah's life with Aisyah's new husband. Mommy hopes that Mother's son can be the same as Aisyah. Mother wants the only child of Mother to continue to live, strengthen her heart, and mengikhlaskan everything. But to achieve that, Mommy really needs Aisyah's help, come to Jakarta. Only once, even if it is only a matter of hours. Mother Please son, Help Mother. At the moment, Mother only has one son. Mother no longer has anyone Aisha. Mother does not want to lose the Son of Mother. Who would live with if Mother lost Fatih?.

Please think carefully, son. Mother has no other meaning, son. In addition to determining the fate of Fatih. Fatih needs you so much now, son. Not the intention of Mother trapping Aisha is in our problems, there is not even the slightest intention of Mother to damage the happiness of Aisha now. Indeed, Mother really desperately needs the presence of Aisyah to Jakarta to meet Putra Bunda who is not okay.

Mommy apologizes yes son, Mommy can not explain and tell in detail the condition and state of Fatih now to you. Because it will take a lot of pen and paper if Mother tells me everything. Come to Jakarta son, and you see for yourself how the condition of Aisyah's ex-husband is currently. Mother did not invent Aisyah. Please help Mommy and Fatih out of humanity and brotherhood.

Sorry son, if there is a wrong word in the letter you wrote. Mother wait for the presence of Aisyah to Jakarta yes son. Really very Mother waiting for Aisyah. Hopefully soon.

Hello kangen

Mother dr. Layla's.

Wassalamu'alaikum warahmatulli wabarokatuh**

I folded the paper and put it in an envelope. I walked out of the house to the nearest post office. I need to send this letter to Aisyah right now. I handed the letter to the postman, and then paid the fare. After the post office business is over. I'll be right back home. I didn't want to, when Fatih woke up she found herself alone with no one. I was afraid that it would further worsen the troubled psychic state after feeling lonely from losing Aisyah.

I saw my son still asleep. The effects of the drug prescribed by Heru doctor, does provide sedative effect (make drowsiness or win). I chose not to wake Fatih. And back to the room. It felt very relieved to have sent Aisyah a letter. May Aisyah quickly read the letter, and be moved to help and come to Jakarta to meet Fatih. Sometimes I feel scared, I am afraid of taking the wrong steps and decisions as before. But I hope that this time, I really made the right decision. I lay down my body, not feeling my tears crying. Why is it so hard to give in my life?. I lost everything, all I have now is a son whose heart and mind are trapped because he cannot accept the reality and circumstances. I looked up and looked at the ceiling of my room. Should I find a woman for my son if he is healed?, or should I let my son choose and determine his own life. That man, where is he now?. It's a pity, just because of his business he gave up and sacrificed everything. He destroyed me and his own son. Had he not been greedy, it would have been fine by now. Fatih will not be hit hard by the loss, and I certainly have a granddaughter from Aisyah who is very funny. But in fact, God predestined it another. Household storms are so great that decades of ships maintained and guarded were finally sunk. Now I'm just a former retired doctor, who is currently crying out for herself and her terrible fate.

"Mother?, Bun,". .

I heard my son's voice. He woke up from his sleep. I rushed towards the origin of Fatih's voice. I saw my son sitting on the front sofa of the television room.

"Yes son, what's my son?. You awake?,". I asked Fatih.

"Mother's not from anywhere, son. Mother is waiting for you to wake up. So Mother sleeps in Mother's room. What's the matter, dear?,". .

"Bun, how long will Fatih be alone?,". Fatih glanced at me sharply.

"Healthy exercise first, after that just think about the problem of the couple yes son,". I said slowly to my son.

"Healthy training Bun. Fatih ate a lot,".

"Son, what did Fatih do, if Aisha had a new husband?, meaning Mother if Aisha loved another man?,".

"What mother said?, Aisha is a good woman Bun, will not Aisyah fall in love with other men. Aisha is Fatih Bun's wife. He couldn't have done such a terrible thing. After all, why did Mother say that?,".

"Mother understands, Mother just asked you son. If Aisyah you love so much, it turns out to love other men. Can you give Aisha to someone else, son?,". I asked my son this, I only prepared his mental and emotional feelings if Aisyah wanted to come with her husband to Jakarta to see my son Fatih.

"But Bun, Aisha is Fatih's wife. Aisha could not have betrayed Fatih Bun. Mother why the si?, why Mother is so insistent that Aisyah will love other men besides Fatih Bun?,". Fatih's tone was like she didn't like all the questions I gave her.

As a mother, she gave birth and raised herself. I just want my only son to be aware that if Aisyah is just a part of his past, Aisyah is just his ex-wife. And I want my son to be strong enough to accept everything that exists. To this day, Fatih still considers that Aisyah is still her legal wife. I will continue to remind my son that Ayesha is no longer his right and his. Aisyah has had her own happiness with other men. And I want my son to be like Ayesha. Happy and move on with her life.

"Son, Fatih knows no?, that love is about sacrifice. That love is about how we can be patient, about how we can be sincere. And about how we can let go and let go?. And sometimes, son, not always the one we love, we have to have my dear son. When Fatih is able to let go and give away what Fatih loves, it is actually the highest level of love, son,". I gave my son an understanding of love and love.

I didn't get any response or response from Fatih. She just kept quiet and then shed her tears. I don't know what made him cry. Can he understand what his mother just said?. Hopefully, what I just explained to my son can have a positive effect on his psyche and heart. Hopefully he can little by little accept Aisyah's departure in her heart and life. I believe God has a wonderful plan behind all the trials that my son and I are going through. And God knows better what is best for Fatih and me. My prayers never cease to be poured out for my only son.

"Son?, why did Fatih cry?, was there anything wrong with what Mother said to you just now?. If there is, you apologize, son. Mother just reminds you, that one day people who love each other will and must be ready to lose. Just like Mother who loves you so much my son. When Mother loves Fatih, then Mother must also be ready to lose Fatih. Either it's lost forever or it's lost because of something else. So strengthen your heart, boy, be a strong man. If Fatih does love Aisha, then Fatih should be ready to let go and mengikhlaskan, if one day, Aisyah goes from your life, son,". I can't take it anymore, I wiped my tears. And then rubbed my son's cheek gently.

"Bun?, can Mommy hug Fatih?,". Said my son while shedding his tears. He glanced at me. His face is so sweet and so beautiful. I see, he's very lost and lonely.

"Here son, Mother hugged. You are strong, baby. Even though one day you lost Ayesha. But Fatih still has Mother son. Mother will not leave you in any condition. As much as Mother can, Mother will always be there for you. So don't worry my son. You are not alone, you still have a Mother who loves you very much son. Hix... hicks...,". I cried in my son's arms. Also Fatih my son who is also as unwilling to cry in his Mother's embrace.

These are my days with my only son Muhammad Fatih who is now in an unstable psychic condition. After that terrible incident, two families were instantly destroyed at one time. Yeah, two families. My own family and my son's family with his wife. We lost the people we loved. Our domestic assistants, who worked for me for decades, chose to resign and did not work after the bitter incident. I'm just trying hard for my son. It is inconceivable, if I am also in the same condition as my son. What a terrible fate for me and the fate of my son Fatih. Every day, I could only cry with my son. Every day, I never break up praying for everything. Including my son's health. The storm and the test of my life and that of my son are so terrible and so great. But I'm a mother, I can't lose. God has appointed me to accept this test from Him. I believe it is all because God knows that I am capable and that I am strong through this storm only with my son. Crying doesn't mean I'm weak, it's just one of the many representatives of the enormous burden I'm living. It's very human to cry, I'm an ordinary woman. But God made me stronger to face everything now.

Most importantly right now, my son is healing and as before. After that, I will arrange a new future and life with my children. I can't walk alone and leave my son. Let it be now, I am silent in the same zone, until Fatih is completely recovered and can be invited to work with her Mother to rise from all the difficulties and sorrows. I am sure that I will have much happiness with my son over this long patience, through the trials of life that God has given us. The wheel of life must be spinning, not forever in the same position.

"Bun, take Fatih ya Bun for a walk sometime,".

"Definitely son, as long as the conditions Fatih must be strong, must be healthy, and must be as brave as before well. We will go for a long walk, son,". I said to my son while smiling at him.

To be honest I was traumatized to bring Fatih out to go for a walk. If his psychological state has not recovered. The incident at that time was still rattling. I didn't want my son to get hurt in front of a lot of people like that. It was very painful for me as her Mother.

"Now take a shower, son, after that we have tea together. Mother prepare her tea first, while you take a bath, son,". I said as I kissed my son's forehead and passed into the kitchen.

I saw Fatih who was moving towards his room. I smiled, I was happy because God still gave me Fatih in my life. At least I have the reason and strength to face the trials of life.