Honeyed

Honey Ep.35 (SEASON 2)

Marwah school is pretty crowded today. Today I left with Mas Fahmi and Marwah my daughter, to take care of the Wawa school move. I had no choice but to transfer Marwah to another school. The goal is that Marwah is no longer close to Ilham, who turns out to be the son of Mas Fatih. Someone who has lived in my heart. Someone who has suffered in the past. There will be many hearts scratched and wounded, if Mas Fatih comes back in my present life. Especially, I really don't want to hurt men as good as Mas Fahmi. During his time as his wife, Mas Fahmi never even said rudely to me. He was very patient for the size of a man. He really loves me. Abi did not choose the wrong life partner for his daughter. Mas Fahmi is the one Abi chose to wipe out my barrel, carving out a new and blissful love story. Mas Fahmi, the person Abi appointed to replace Fatih to Fahmi. The best man I ever had. Just like my Abi, Abi is a very kind, loving, patient, and never rude man to Umi. Grief, hardship, and running, my husband is the one who always put on the body. I don't want to hurt Mas Fahmi a second time. Past memories cannot and will not be allowed into my new life. Moreover, the person who once carved happiness into wounds, I will never allow him to be present in my new life story.

"Assalamu'alaikum Umi his Wawa".

I was shocked. Suddenly a boy greeted me. I immediately turned my body towards the voice of the child. Sure enough, a handsome boy, and his clean skin stood right behind me. His face was very sad, like there was a deep sadness in his heart.

"Wa - Wa'alaikumussalam nak Ilham".

Ah, this kid. He is the son of my ex-husband. Son of Mas Fatih. He who I had unknowingly turned out to be good friends with my own biological daughter Marwah. How can I let Wawa stay good friends with the son of her ex-husband Umi. There will be a lot of questions coming out of my daughter. I don't want to, Marwah to know the dark story of Umi first. My daughter should be happy, and just know. He was born and grew up in a harmonious family.

"The Umi Wawa. Why did Wawa suddenly change schools? ".

" Em. uh yes son. Wawa had to change schools. Because Wawa is going to go to a girls' school ".

" What about Ilham, Ilham will not have good friends here anymore".

"Son, son Ilham will have many good friends here. So don't be sad, Dad".

" But Ilham wanted to be friends with Wawa. Wawa is a very good friend of Inspiration. If Wawa changes schools, Ilham will lose friends. Umi Wawa, don't move Wawa from this school"

It was heartless to see and hear a little boy whining and begging me. If only Inspiration, you were not the son of my ex-husband. Surely son, Marwah I will never move her school. In fact fate would have helped me, if only I hadn't taken Wawa to school. I never would have known, that a little boy who was close friends with my daughter was a son of my ex-husband Mas Fatih. Mas Fahmi will also be very hurt, if he finds out that Ilham is the son of Fatih. The man who was once part of his wife's life. Selfish indeed, but this is for the happiness of many.

"I'm sorry, son. But Wawa still had to change schools. Wawa had to go to a girls' school".

" Umi nya Wawa, Ilham please. Don't move Wawa".

"Son Ilham".

I have not yet answered a teacher calling for Inspiration.

"Sorry for a moment, Mom. Son Ilham in search of his father. There was a book missing".

" Oh, yes please ".

I looked at Ilham's body away from me. My heart was beating again. Mas Fatih came again, do not let Fahmi see him here. Or even do not let Mas Fatih see myself with Mas Fahmi here. I'm so fucked up. Gradually retreat from the place where I had spoken to Inspiration. I chose to go into the office with Mas Fahmi and Marwah. Looks like they haven't finished taking care of the transfer files yet. Actually Mas Fahmi told me to wait outside. But I can't keep going outside. I was so scared to meet Mas Fatih. Now in fact, I've been sweating coldly. I don't know, every time I hear my ex-husband's name, it's like my heartbeat's beating so much. Is all this natural?. It's not that I still have feelings for her, but the breakup that happened between me and Mas Fatih that scares me of her past reoccurrence. A misunderstanding that ruined his marriage. Still vividly remembered when my ex-husband came with his Mother at my wedding with Mas Fahmi. It really hurts my heart. Who should be blamed?, I'm in a hurry to get married again?, my ex-in-law's mother who has been consumed by her own husband's words?, or Mas Fatih my ex-husband who can't take care of everything?. No, no one deserves to be wrong. Everything has happened, and it can never happen again. God has given me the most beautiful gift of my dark past. A husband as good as Mas Fahmi, a mother-in-law as good as Mother, and a solihah child like Marwah.

"Dad?".

"Loh?, what's up Umi?. Abi told me to wait outside. There's no seat here. You'll be tired".

"No papa. Outside confused about what to do".

" Umi, Umi just sit in Wawa's chair. Let Wawa sit on Abi's lap".

"Can".

I said as I sat on the chair that Wawa was sitting on.

" Abi?, isn't it done yet? ".

I whispered asking Abi Wawa.

" A little while. This is being written a school transfer certificate".

"Ohh".

Answer me mangosteen.

I looked around the room. There's a board with the name of a donor plastered there. There are twenty names of donors. And in the third place was a name that I was very familiar with. The name of someone who has ruined the happiness that ever existed. Mother Layla, my own former mother-in-law. Worth it, Inspiration at school. Her grandmother was only the third-ranked donor in the foundation. It feels like removing Wawa from this school was a very appropriate decision. Not only right but also right.

"Umi let's go home".

Whinek Wawa to me.

" Huh?. How home?. It's not finished yet, son".

"It's over from three minutes ago Umi".

This time it was Fahmi who explained it to me.

Ah, shame on me. I even daydreamed in front of one of the teachers at this school.

" Umi, don't daydream".

Tegur Wawa to me.

"Hehehe... ".

Just a little laugh I did.

Me, Mas Fahmi and Wawa walked towards the car park. After this, we plan to eat out together. It's been a while since I got sick, the three of us never went out to eat.

"Wawa wait! ".

I saw Ilham shouting for Marwah. The boy walked over to Mas Fahmi and Marwah. I don't know, did Mas Fatih leave here?. Hopefully, I'm not ready if I have to meet him. I don't want to hurt Mas Fahmi. No no, faster to get out of here is the best way.

"What is Inspiration?".

" Wawa, you don't want to say goodbye to my father?. My dad's in the bathroom first".

"But I have to go home soon Inspiration".

" Laughter, wait a minute. My dad's not gonna be out of the bathroom long ".

Me and Mas Fahmi who had entered the car were immediately confused, with what Ilham and Wawa were talking about in front of the car.

I saw Wawa get in the car, but why is son Ilham still standing in front of our car.

"Umi Abi, Ilham wanted me to say goodbye to his father first. Said her dad was in the bathroom for a while. We are told to wait ".

" Oh, so his father's son Ilham is here. Good son. All Abi wants to meet his father Ilham".

"Abi?!. Later do not rush his time. We want to eat together. Umi had a message. And just now in the news, if the food is ready. Not good, same with the restaurant. I think we will escape. Another time to meet his Father for his Inspiration".

I'm not going to let Mas Fahmi meet my ex-husband Mas Fatih. This moment should not happen, let alone this fast. It will destroy all the happiness that Mas Fahmi and I have worked so hard to build. Five years on, I never even had any kind of communication with my ex-husband or my ex-mother-in-law. I want to leave behind all the things that dragged me into the swirl of my own past.

"But pity son Ilham. She wanted Wawa to say goodbye to her father".

" Abi?!. Instead of later we thought of running away and not responsible for the restaurant, how?. Already let Umi who went down and talk to son Ilham huh? ".

" It's true too, yasudah. Please tell my son Ilham ya Umi".

Pinta Mas Fahmi to me.

"Laughter is here, son. Let Umi come down, baby".

" Yah Umi".

My daughter replied gently.

My car door opened, I got down and walked to the front of the car. I wanted to cry to see the expression on my son's face. She looks very sad at staying by Wawa. Why can this boy be as sad as this in living by his best friend. Was there a trauma in the past, but wasn't he born from a harmonious parent and family. Why does he feel so lonely like this.

"The Good Son of Inspiration. Umi Wawa wants to apologize. So sorry, son. We can't wait for his father to Ilham. Not that he did not want to meet and say goodbye to his father son Ilham. But we have to go, son. There's another show, and it's been waiting for".

" Just one second Umi Wawa".

"Other time, son. If there is another chance. No papa, son?. Inspiration understands, right? ".

" Alright, Ilham did not want to make it difficult for Wawa and his family Wawa. Hikkks... ".

My heart feels broken. This little guy is crying because of me. He was disappointed because the family of his good friend did not say goodbye to his father, when he was about to change schools. What can I do, I really had to do this to him. It is not because I am evil, but there are many hearts that I must guard and defend.

" Don't cry son of a bitch".

I wiped the tears that fell on the cheeks of Son Ilham. Right now, I don't see whose son he is. But I saw Inspiration as just a child, nothing more.

"Yes Umi Wawa. Ilham was just sad at living with Wawa to change schools".

" Someday I will see you again".

"Yes Umi Wawa's".

" Yasudah, Umi nya Wawa say goodbye son. I want to learn smart. Let's be a rich doctor grandma nak Ilham".

"Indeed her Grandma Ilham a doctor huh Umi his Wawa? ".

" Emm.. Umi means Wawa. Let Nak Ilham can be a doctor and can treat many people, including grandmothers".

My father, even to the point of calling his grandmother Ilham a doctor. Why can't I control myself. The atmosphere is getting worse. I was in a hurry, so afraid that the figure appeared again in front of me.

"Alright Umi Wawa. Assalamu'alaikum".

" Waalaikumsalam ".

Inspiration said goodbye and shook hands with me. Then I walked out of the car I was using. The child's body gradually moved away. I went right back in the car. Sure enough my feelings just now, as soon as Mas Fahmi turned the car. The figure appeared towards his son. Fortunately, Ilham was willing to understand and did not make me and Mas Fahmi too long to be in the parking lot of this school. Thankfully, Mas Fahmi didn't see the guy. It felt like the crush of the rope that had made my chest tight, suddenly just released, and made me breathe very easily. I took a deep breath while closing my eyes, and exhaled loudly.

"Why are you taking and breathing, baby? ".

Fahmi apparently noticed me.

" No papa Mas. It's just that actually was not the heart with son Ilham. It's a pity to see a child crying like that. Hmmmm.. ".

" Yes too. Yasudahlah. Hopefully sometime we can visit the home of parents to Ilham yah dear".

I was shocked to hear the words of Mas Fahmi. Hopefully, what Mas Fahmi said earlier hopefully did not happen. And don't let it happen.

"Darling?. How can you just shut up? ".

" Ohhh-ehh. Sorry, Mas Fahmi. Aisyah sleepy. So not focused. Heheh... ".

" Yes you're sleeping. Our daughter went straight to sleep. Later Mas wake up if it's up to the restaurant yah".

"Alhamdulillah. Thank you my dear husband. Be careful driving the car".

" Dear pretty".

Mas Fahmi teased me.

I leaned my body against the seat of the car that I accidentally swung. Tilting my head to the glass.

“And among His (greatness) signs is that He created pairs for you of your own kind, so that you tend to feel at ease with him. And He has made among you a feeling of love and affection. Verily, in this there are signs of the greatness of God for those who think.”(Qs Ar-Ruum :21). “And all things We created in pairs so that you may remember (the greatness of God).” (Qs Az-Zariyat :49).

O Allah, You made me and Mas Fahmi in pairs. So take care of our relationship. Aamiin".

I fell asleep after remembering the two verses in the Qur'an and then prayed to Him.