Honeyed

Episode 70's

I was sweating so much, I even cried, my eyes closed, but I couldn't open my eyes. I just screamed, and cried. My condition is hard to explain.At about three o'clock in the night I just woke up from my terrible sleep. I rubbed my sweaty forehead, and my tears were actually wet, but all I had just had was a dream. I'm sure it was just a dream. Azaghfirullah O Allah. Why am I dreaming that bad ?. I'm still in Jakarta, because when I'm going to go solo I have to turn around because Bi Ijah gave me the news, that the existence of the mother is already known and the mother is currently being treated in the hospital because of the infection that occurred in the wound of the depraved male. I haven't been to Umi and Abi's house. It was all a dream, Iyah.I only dream that my Ayesha is gone. I rubbed my face many times, I still sat down and regulated my breathing which is still uncontrolled, I know, my heart is still beating so fast, this is the worst nightmare of my entire life. Until the morning I could not be closed, still imagined a very terrible dream. While the mother still often called the name Aisyah exactly as told by bi Ijah, even when the mother was still lying sick.

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After a day, I prayed repentance. My heart is truly sincere to release Fatih mas from my life.Let my love for him I bury in together with the disappointment and wounds that exist. I intend to tell umi everything, tell her how devastated their daughter is. I'm sure for divorce from Fatih. After losing my future fetus, I should be able to get up and organize my new life with a man who is more sincere than Fatih.

The flower arrangement that Umi made for me, I keep in the corner of my room. let the flower as a sign, that Aisyah has started her new life. My wedding photo with Fatih mas that I saw last night was on display in my room somehow since when, I put it down from the wall of my room. And the robe that I used yesterday to do the prayer at the mosque, I kept neatly in a box, all the stuff that reminds me of Fatih mas I had to get rid of from my life. Today at half-nine in the morning I told everything to Umi and Abi, including me who had run away to Cirebon and I who miscarried. Not much is released by the mouth of Umi and Abi other than the word istighfar and tears.

" Sister ? did Nak Fatih ever mentally you verbally and blatantly ?". Suddenly Abi asked me that question.

" No bi, Fatih has never been Aisyah's mentality.but Aisyah wants to divorce from Fatih Abi mas, Aisyah wants to be happy even though not with Fatih mas. Aisyah was tired bi ". I cried in the arms of Umi.

" So because today you want to tell everything to Umi and Abi ? that's why last night you were acting weird ? from asking for a bed of four, until made a wreath by umi?". this time umi asked me.

" no Umi, Aisyah needs strength, Aisyah needs positive things to dare to be honest and tell everything, and after praying repentance yesterday, Aisyah needs positive things to be honest and tell her everything, aisyah gained the calmness and confidence to leave behind all the memories of Aisyah with Fatih umi mas. Aisha is tired ".

" sister ? according to the opinion of Sheikh Abdul Aziz bin Abdullah bin Baz, one of the causes of talaq is the ugly character of the husband who likes to persecute and treat his wife unfairly, and Brother Aisyah got it all from the nak Fatih, and it is obligatory for the judge (KUA) to eliminate something that harms the wife. When it is understood that the judge may separate the husband and wife because the old husband disappears, while not giving a living including hurting and mendzlimi the wife, more painful than the disgrace of the husband, then the authority of the judge to separate husband and wife for not giving a living, is stronger. (Fiqh Sunah, 2/288), it is also in what Aisyah brother got ". abi explained about the law of talaq to me.

" then what does sister Aisyah want to do after officially divorcing from nak Fatih kak?".this time Umi asked me with tears dripping. I know Umi and Abi are very broken in heart, they must be angry, but they keep trying to be patient, it proved umi and Abi many times Istighfar.

" sister Aisyah wants to start a new life with other men umi, Aisyah sincerely married to any man as long as the man is good, please umi and Abi who are looking for Aisyah ". I said with a trembling body. I have to dare to start a new life.

" is sister Aisyah sure ? brother Aisyah did not want to be alone after this incident sister?". asked Abi to me.

" Aisha was convinced that Abi, Aisha had confided in Allah yesterday, Aisha was sure to start a new life with another man. after all until now Fatih mas also no good faith to find where Aisyah".

" yasudah sis, let Abi take care of the divorce issues with you, while you wait for the Iddah period to be finished. Aisyah calms down first, and prepare yourself to start a new life. Candidate issues leave it to Umi and Abi ".

" thank you Abi umi". I hugged Abi and Umi very tightly.

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Solo, October 21, 2015

Today two months passed, Mas Fatih never looked for me. I was really sincere. and my divorce lawsuit was declared official by the KUA board who took care of my marriage with Fatih mas first with some considerations and reasons. While Azizah is now living in Australia with her family, Azizah finally just say goodbye and say happy. I still don't know, happy for what ? maybe Azizah just encourages me to get up and be happy again with someone new.

Two days ago I was just proposed by one of the chosen men Umi and Abi. He was a handsome man, even more handsome than Fatih. He is a gentle and gentle man. He's a Jogja native, Fahmi Al Farizi by name. He accepted all my past. And one Sunday to come, I will have my second and last marriage with Fahmi.

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Jakarta, October 28, 2015.

I'm sorry Aisyah, today I can just head to the solo to meet you. I've been trying to get in touch with you, but your number and home number are not active, neither is Azizah, I can't call her number. I had to wait and take care of the mother who was still lying for months in the hospital. Don't you know Aisyah, almost every night I cry with my mother calling your name. We miss you Aisha. I can only pray that you will remain faithful to me. Every day I still have that terrible dream. Today I brought my mother who has begun to recover from her pain, mother misses you very much. Wait for us in solo, I said in my heart.

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My car reached the alley leading to Aisyah's house, but it turned out that the small alley was filled with several cars and motor vehicles. my mother and I were forced to go down and walk some distance to get to Aisyah's house. I'm confused why there are so many cars and motorcycles. Maybe there are neighbors who are struggling. I held my bund's hand tightly and my left hand carried a flower bucket for aisyah. I stopped my legs when I found Aisyah's house full of decorations similar to having a wedding party. No way ?! not Aisyah maybe her brother who hitchhiked in Aisyah's house. I patted my cheeks hard, this time I was not dreaming.

I hastened my steps and kept holding my mother's hand towards the mosque near the house that was crowded by several people.

" Fatih's ? what's up ? why does Aisyah's house look like it's holding a celebration ? who is married ? or her sister Aisyah who berkhitan?". mother asked me. which I myself can not answer the question mother.I myself still keep the same question.

" Fatih doesn't know Bun".I replied in a choked voice.

I continued walking into the mosque and penetrated several hordes of people who were sitting. Their faces were very happy, but not with me and my mother. Just when I entered the door of the mosque my mother and I heard the same words 2 years ago, just different in name.

" I'm married, and control. My first daughter Aisyah Fatimatul Salwa bint Muhammad Soleh, with you ananda Fahmi Al Farizi bin Hanggar Prayitno, with a mating gold of 25 grams and a set of prayer tools in cash paid "

" I Accept the Marriage and Marriage of Aisyah Fatimatul Salwa bint Muhammad Soleh with the dowry paid in cash "

" how about the witness ?"

" legitimate, Legal, Right "

" Alhamdulillah, Barakallahu laka wa baraka ‘alaika wa jama’a bainakuma fiil Khairin (”Hopefully Allah blesses you in all things (the good ones) and unites you both in goodness”).

I fell down and wept.weeping my broken heart, lamenting the pain of his heart. My life is over, everything is broken, God. My Ayesha now belongs to another man. Fatih lost. why ? Why is this so hard a test for me, Lord ? why do you not allow Aisha to belong to another man ? don't I deserve to have Aisha again ?. That dream turned out to be a sign from you Aisha. I dream you are praying, but the fact is that you are currently carrying out a contract, you are very beautiful in that dream, and now Aisha. In that dream you are dead, and the fact is that today you have indeed died from my heart, for you have lived happily in the heart of the man who has now become your husband in my place, in that dream I carry your stiff body home, and the reality today I will carry all the good memories with you home with me who has now been destroyed.

I saw my mother who suddenly fell unconscious after hearing Aisha's marriage contract with her new husband. I sat there crying and watching all this. I saw the situation become rowdy.The people helped my unconscious mother.

" What is Fatih ?!!! Mother?!". I heard my ex-wife yelling to call me and mother. She's very pretty, but now she's no longer mine.

" Alhamdulillah, Barakallahu laka wa baraka ‘alaika wa jama’a bainakuma fiil Khairin Aisyah and Fahmi" said I wail and tremble as Aisyah and her new husband approached me who was still sitting and crying.

My former father-in-law woke me from my position and hugged me tightly. I cried in the arms of my former Abi-in-law. while my mother-in-law was helped by my former mother-in-law.

When the show is over. And mother was conscious. Me, Mommy, my ex-wife Aisyah, my ex-umi and my in-law Abi are sitting inside the mosque. While Aisyah's new husband and her family understood our position, that there was something to be done. I was only able to cry and cry.I looked at Aisyah's face for the last time.

" Dik Aisyah.today you are very beautiful.at exactly the time two years ago when mas married you in the same mosque, today in the same mosque you officially became Fahmi's wife, and officially became Fatih's ex-wife "that's all that came out of my mouth. Aisha could only cry.

I told umi and Abi my ex-in-law and Aisyah who is now my ex-wife about what happened, about how I tried to look for Aisyah until I who had no news for taking care of my mother alone. I heard Aisyah's cry that was stirring and getting louder, until finally Aisyah fell unconscious. Don't ask me how I and my mother were doing at that time. I just cry, that's all. I've been ruined. Right now I only have one woman that I really have to take care of her mother, after I lost one woman that I love Aisyah Fatimatul Salwa so much. Goodbye Aisyah, thank you for being my bidadar. I will still love you, even though now your love is no longer for Fatih but for Fahmi. I will love you, even though my love will never be avenged. Let all the memories of you I bring home with me the destruction of my life.

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