Honeyed

Episode 49's

All the needs have been prepared very neatly and perfectly. More luxurious than the wedding reception I was at. I'm not angry, let it might have become commonplace in a big city like Jakarta if someone is married, then there will be a very luxurious reception to rent buildings at expensive prices.

The reception of Fatih's wedding with siska was held in one of the luxury buildings in Jakarta, Bajrama building name. The building is very spacious, today it is decorated with full of flowers and very beautiful wedding decorations. Today, I will see my husband remarry a second time with the woman of my Mother-in-law's choice. Don't ask me what my heart felt like back then, I can't even describe how I feel right now.

I saw my husband dressed up very handsomely in a black suit with a black watch given from me. I watched my husband's body which would soon belong to another woman besides me. It feels like my heart is really sliced, it hurts a lot.

"How is Dik?, is mas already handsome?,". Ask Fatih to me.

"Mas is very very handsome my husband. There is no man more handsome than you Fatih. The man who could make Aisyah fall in love so many times,". I said while holding back tears.

"Thank you, today you have to look good in front of your new wife. Mas must look perfect in the eyes of young wife mas,".

"Yes, Ayesha was sure, Siska would be fascinated to see Fatih's mas,". This time I wiped my tears.

"Why are you crying?,".

"Aisyah was only moved, this is the second time Aisyah saw mas dress up like this, exactly when two years ago in Solo, Aisyah felt like she was going to get married again,".

"Dad but the fact is today I married Siska dik, not you,".

"Dad, Aisha understood. I hope you can be happy with Siska yah mas,".

"Of course, Siska will be much happier than you. Just look at how he can attract the attention of the mas dazzlingly. Today must be very beautiful Siska, more beautiful than the first wife mas,".

I was devastated, many times Fatih ignored me, comparing myself to Siska. It feels really painful. It really hurt to my bones.

"Amalein,". My answer.

I delivered Fatih mas at the place will be done the wedding. I sat in the back row. Today I wore the robe that I used when I got married with Fatih mas first, the white robe which was the first shirt given by Fatih mas for me. I want, this dress to be a witness anyway, that I have lost half of my husband. That I have been crippled because my husband has been divided with another woman, that my husband today will do the marriage contract for the second time. Let this robe be a silent witness, the day of my happiness, and the day of my destruction today.

All the guards and witnesses are ready. Waiting for the bride to come. Very much different when married to me first, I was not allowed to stand together until Fatih actually did a marriage contract with Abi and was witnessed by several people and declared valid. I circulated my gaze, looking for the figure of a very cruel woman who had broken my heart and my life, my Mother-in-law.

I spread my eyes to the front door. Right, there Siska was walking in a carriage by two women who might be her mother and her one. The woman who so cruelly asked me to share my husband with another woman, the woman who threatened me to comply with her will, the woman who threatened me to make me a widow if she refused her request, and that woman who two years ago hugged me very warmly when I was lawfully the wife of her only son. I wiped my tears.

"Okay, everything's ready. Brides and grooms also exist. Witnesses were also complete, and female guardians were also present. Let us begin the procession of marriage between ananda Muhammad Fatih and ananda Siska Priatin,". Said one of the walimah committee.

I tried to prepare my mental. And from earlier my Mother-in-law did not look at me at all, even though the position of my seat was very easy for her to see. That's how I was in her eyes. Astaghfirullah.., I repeatedly said Istighfar.

"Bismillah, I marry, and control. My eldest daughter Siska Priatin bint Raharjo, with you ananda Muhammad Fatih bin Hartono Dwi Cahyo, with a mating gold of 60 grams and a set of prayer tools paid in cash,".

"I accepted the marriage and marriage of Siska Priatin bint Raharjo with the dowry paid in cash,".

"How's the witness?,".

"Well!. Validly!. Valid!,".

"Alhamdulillah, Barakallahu laka wa baraka ‘alaika wa jama’a bainakuma fiil Khairin (”Hopefully Allah blesses you in all things (the good ones) and unites you both in goodness”),".

I see, my husband is very handsome today. Better than the usual days. My heart is beating fast. O Allah, it is painful, Lord. It feels like the world is completely destroyed. I watched my husband remarry in front of me with another woman. I sat down, I cried seeing all this. I can't hold back my tears anymore, my heart is breaking, it's so painful to share a husband with this kind of compulsion. My veil is wet with tears. I don't care anymore. I glanced towards my Mother-in-law, still the same. Mother did not look at me at all. Mommy doesn't care about me crying as much as I can because I see this painful reality. My body is shaking violently.

I saw Siska kissing my husband's hand, and Fatih kissing Siska's forehead, my middle sister. I can't stand watching all this anymore. It really hurt me, I really did share Fatih mas with other women. I really have to share everything with Siska.

I retreated from my seat, and left the venue. I really can't see my husband making out with Siska anymore. Completely destroyed me. I ran away and chose to go home from the wedding hall. Aisha is not able, O Allah, I said.

When I got home, I screamed, I cried hard. I'm really broken, though,

"Umi.., please Aisyah Mi. Abi... Aisha hurt her heart. Why Aisyah could not get Bi's happiness, Aisyah did not have Bi please Aisyah Umi Abi,". I said in my broken cry.

Three Bi immediately hugged me tightly, they came crying with me, as if they felt what I was feeling at this moment. Destroyed is not left.