Black Pen

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I don't know what I'm feeling, things are making me go awry, I'm back in the face of two choices. Keep going or I stop, walk into a clear day on my own or forgive. Starting a new life together, living the day with the old habits I longed for.

Failure evokes excessive fear, what if it fails again? what will the next life be like ? I've been so comfortable with my life now, but can not be denied the loneliness that sometimes I feel, I was again swept away in a fairly deep dilemma.

True, no one gets divorced because the absence of a match everything goes because it follows the ego. The ego that has destroyed, even the many virtues can be destroyed by the ego.

At first glance imagined beauty and happiness that we have made together, he is so good at making me smile even though in a mounting anger, it feels like I miss it very much. However, at once my daydreams turned to anger and hatred when I remembered the betrayal he had given me.

The day I was still going through with worry, there were so many things I thought about. I want a whole family, a happy family that will strengthen each other. But, it was only in the tales that I heard the other day from my father, which he always chanted before I fell asleep.

Why is my life like this? the world hit me many times, knocking my body down and getting hurt very badly.

To whom should I complain if not to Him, He even hates a divorce. But why do I have to experience it ?

One year of living abroad does not make me give up on a very hard life, even until now no one knows how my status, only April Mom who knows how my past life, he said, he is also good at keeping my past tight.

My life was happy enough, the wisdom of my divorce I became closer to my family, I was disinclined and respected without them caring how dark my past was. It's like a new heaven for me, but on the other hand I feel so lonely I miss them too ', the voice of them, the people I love.

Every day Mama told me the development of my son, she grew up to be a great woman, smart and active.

Mama took care of it very well, I also did not want to make my son lose his mother's affection, I taught him some hadith and memorization prayers on the phone. He is very smart at the age that will soon step 2 years.

During the divorce I never allowed Doni to see my son, I let him suffer out there. I think it's a punishment he deserves.

After a year, I don't know what rumors are approaching the Doni family. Suddenly her mother came to the house to find me.

Of course Mama covered my being, she sat down in front of my Mama, crying and looking down to apologize to my family.

Karma is real, in the end God gave me a chance to see it. He who hates me so much doesn't even care about me, my son. Suddenly came to apologize to me.