Black Pen

64

DEG

There was a broken feeling there, my heart was pounding very fast, anger and tears were churning into one. There is a deep sense of guilt, regret that is becoming more, a thousand questions I want to ask, but a very large prestige covers everything.

Tomorrow will be a big day for him, he will let go of his free time. The big tall body that I have held tightly, the sweet lips that I have touched, the soul and body that once fused, it will all belong to someone else.

Which broke me for the umpteenth time, even his body was no longer mine, but he left a very big heart, a heart that broke me to pieces.

My body was shaking so violently, there was a huge anger I wanted to express, a deep sadness even so deep that I was lulled in it, tears that flowed so profusely like an overflowing river were unceasingly dripping.

The happiness he felt was between my pain and my tears, how could he betray me? ah right, I betrayed him first, he left me first, then why don't I wait for him to come back? who's in the wrong? a time? a circumstance? I am angry at God, how can he bring us together in such a beautiful way, and then separate us by leaving behind a thousand questions and deep sorrow?

The biggest heartbreak of my life, seeing her happy in the arms with other people, who I never even knew was that woman?.

I cried, sitting behind the door with my legs held tight, I threw everything in front of me, I just wanted to die.

"Well, damn it, what kind of man are you?" My mind constantly curses, as if unable to give up their happiness.

4 Years does not really mean anything to him, a long time that we have been through along with various stories in it, likes, sorrows and tears. Ending today, this moment , this second all seemed to be destroyed along with the news he gave.

That's not really what I want to say, it really hurts me. I'm gonna come? has he? I will never be able to see his happiness with others.

I closed my social media accounts again, there was regret there, why should I know something I shouldn't?

"Tok tock" Someone knocked on the door, made me stop crying.

I saw the clock in my hand, the time has shown at 12.00 WIB. I sat too long, and I saw the Star still sleeping in its nap.

I opened the door, Doni looked at me questioningly.

"You why? you cry?" He swept away my tears that were flowing back very hard.

"Hik hik hik, aaaaaaaaaaaa" My voice grew louder, this tight chest as if it could not be held anymore, I hugged Doni very tightly. I hit Doni's body violently, sometimes I curse him.

"Hey, look at me ! you why? what's the problem?" Doni let go of my arms Both of his hands grabbed my face, he looked at me deeply filled with worry.

I went back to crying hysterically, ignoring the questions that Doni was asking. Until my head was heavy, my eyes began to twitch, everything looked dark and very dark, my body was limp, I could not remember anything else.