Black Pen

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Doni approached me with an anxious face, his pace quickened, while I sat in my seat holding back the turbulent anger. The woman noticed me every now and then she scratched her non-itchy head.

PLAAAC

One loud slap floated on his cheek, everyone turned to look at me, I didn't care about them, I vented anger, I was angry, kicking a chair made of plastic and hitting the storefront in front of me with the Star baby I was holding tightly. I don't know where I came from like I had superpowers that were hard to control.

I scream like a man of disobedience. Doni immediately took me away while holding his cheek that was flushed from my slap.

"What the hell is it.. What the hell is it.. Uh why tuh. perggok cheating anyway.. Duh kasian well his wife" I heard a voice in the crowd, they whispered to each other.

"Why did you come here? why get angry in a public place?" Doni's question got me on a blackboard.

"You, I swear to God, I don't make it in the least. I pray day and night to ask Him that all that we experience will soon pass, and this is the reward that you give me? I'm really sorry, I swear you're going to fall" I didn't realize I was doing an oath that turned out to be true. I cried so much, I immediately went home to Mama's house with the Stars who were crying. I left Doni standing where he stood.

"You're fine, son, we'll be living together from now on. Don't ask me anything about Dad" he seemed to understand what was going on with his parents. I kiss my star and shake his head so that he calms down.

**

"Haaaah Resign? what's so sudden? you can't dong. You have to teach the new one can not casually come out without a substitute" A middle-aged woman read the letter I gave her, sometimes her eyes look at my eyes that are filled with disappointment.

"Well, now that you're back at work, let me consider this first, hopefully you'll be allowed to resign without waiting for a replacement"

"Good Mom, thank you in advance" I immediately walked out of the HRD room with a chest that still felt tight.

It didn't take long for someone to get out of the HRD room to follow me to provide a work contract file that must be signed and the rest of the salary, without further ado I immediately took it, immediately signed and then left.

With the leftover money I had I survived without Doni, I chose to end it. Whether this is a sacrifice or a clear selfishness, Doni's behavior makes me careless and choose to leave with all the success he has achieved.

I was determined to go to the capital city of Jakarta where my Papa was born to calm my heart and mind, while avoiding Doni . I know it's not gonna be that easy to let go of me. The star I put with Mama with all her needs , I went back in with some clothes I had in my right hand and an application file with an MA degree that I held in my left hand hoping there to meet good people who would accept me to work without any skills I have .

I live with a large family of Babe , they received me very well even though I met them almost 3 years because of the distance that is not possible to visit.

For months I lived in my uncle's house, apparently living in the Capital City was very hard. Finding a job is not as easy as I imagined.

I walked miles and miles, I walked every place hoping to get a job. From the store to the housing, it's okay to be a washing worker as long as you get a job.