Black Pen

32

After the last news of the day, he never came or just called me again, he disappeared like in the swallow of the earth.

My little heart tells me that we must end this relationship, just as she left, no longer do I expect earnestness or just wait for reassurance from her.

My new order of life, let yesterday be the dark history of my life, I change my cell phone number and close all my social media, even my heart. A new chapter in my life has begun. I think that starting a new life without her and learning to forget my dark days with her would be much better for both of us.

Removing all the memories of him, certainly not an easy thing, I felt the fall awake when trying hard to forget it. How not 4 years we were together, knitting love with various kinds of conflicts that we faced together, now it must end just like that .

No, it's not him that I miss, it's just that so many memories he gave me, that it's hard to open my heart to others.

Like that day, the day we were still wearing white ash uniforms. We skipped school together because it was just a killer teacher's schedule that filled the class. We sat together in a long chair that was quite shaded along a row of trees with dense leaves just above our heads blocking the heat of the sun .

"If I get married later, I want to wear a dark purple dress with some decorations on the head and high heels that match the dress" I rest my head on his right shoulder.

"Who's the groom?" The question made me a little upset, I raised my head and started to look at his face with a frown.

"Who do you think? Yes you are ! I don't want to marry any man but you, unless that man looks like you" I turned my head away and put my head on his shoulder.

"Hahaha, then?" He laughed at my expression that had already put on an annoyed face.

"Keep, I want our kids to be twins. Men and women ! If it's a girl I'll give her the name of Star, yes Star ! A pretty name just like me"

"You boys? Jojon's? Hahaha" He laughed again, I don't know what he was thinking at the time. I just glared at him, then I pinched his stomach.

"Aws.  Sick tau ! Okay if men let me guess ?! Light !" He grimaced in pain, but then his face looked serious.

"Just like a Star, if the Star shines at night. So the Light is one of the sources of human needs, I just want my son to be like a candle that gives light to anyone around him" Akbar replied steadily.

"Splash the candle can die?" My answer is not to lose.

"You have to die to enlighten others, why not?"

This time I was silent unable to argue with him anymore apparently. He looks indifferent and unconcerned, but behind his indifferent nature he has one side where sometimes every sentence he speaks is out of expectations.

"Alright, Light and Star one more Jojon hahaha" We laughed together.

Huft

I took a deep breath, I missed him, I missed him a lot. But, time goes on and we already have our own way of life.

My day was broken, my heart and my mind were on it.

I knew it was wrong when I suddenly decided to walk away from her, didn't I. I mean he left me or maybe rather we both avoided each other.

I am so stupid or he who is as stupid as I am, letting me go with guilt, not trying to pursue or maintain the relationship that we have lived for more than three years.

What does our relationship mean so far? Why is it so easy for her to forget everything that has happened so far? .