Black Pen

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Trying to always look okay is the hardest thing in life, when circumstances require us to always pretend, it is the saddest thing.

marriage is like climbing a mountain, when we see other people get to the top, what we think is to be up there so very beautiful and climb it looks very easy.

But in reality, to stand up straight up there is not an easy thing. Challenges and tough situations will make you think about giving up. Fatigue, depleted oxygen and cold, excuses

enough for anyone to give up. Anyone will realize that climbing is not

about conquering nature, but conquering yourself.

So too with marriage. Being great is not about conquering the world and

its contents, but conquers the ego of self and self-control. Then try to save the marriage from various kinds of exams.

I told all that Yulia told me today to Doni, Doni paid no heed to anything I said, he said I was very childish, exaggerated trivial things, I did not want to understand him, he said, unwilling to budge, he even defended his mother. Just because I know her mom doesn't like me Doni thinks I'm being too far-fetched.

Amidst the great debate, I tried to get my opinion out once again. After the previous days he ignored my wishes and opinions several times.

'' I want to come with you, wherever you go ! no matter how much debt you owe, even if I have to starve, it doesn't matter to me, but don't ever put me together with your mother again, please" I half screamed in a loud voice, accompanied by a great cry and tremble in my chest that had been tight enough to hold back anger.

"How come? I haven't even been able to rent a house for us to live in, and our son I can't possibly let him be miserable with me in that big city". Once again Doni rejected my greatest desire to leave Mama Doni's house.

"You can't possibly let me and my baby be miserable while all this time you've always got me in trouble, if you won't listen to me again, I'll file for divorce immediately" . Apparently my threat to Doni was quite successful, this obviously made Doni a little surprised, as I had never threatened him so far, and he just fell silent thinking about what I just said.

Yet, deep down in the depths of my heart, I do not want to lose it, as bad as it is in my eyes, as much as any debate between us, no matter how much trouble we face, he is still my husband, no matter how much, The father of my baby girl, my greatest man. No matter how much change he makes in my home life, he is still a part of me, he is half of my breath, he is my soul mate.

" Okay, if that's what you want. Tomorrow I'll try to find a little house for us to rent. Hopefully this can improve your relationship with Mama''.