Black Pen

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"The number you're going to is off, try a few more moments.. Tut tut"

The woman's voice was so echoing in my ears, after many times I tried to push the green button with the phone handle, many times also my voice heard in the distance there.

Whether the call to how many, which has clearly been two days ago Akbar disappeared, he did not give me any news, even from all his social media accounts none of which were active.

I had been desperate for her, the worry I felt was too much like her.But, I had lost her once, that's what made me so worried about her, I was afraid that if she went again, I was afraid, leaving me alone and making me hurt for the umpteenth time.

Cringe

One call came in, a number I had not recognized before.

"Hallo"

A familiar voice I heard from a distance there, simultaneously made my smile again expand, for a moment I forgot my worries.

"Where are you going anyway? I'm worried about tau !" I answered his greeting with a slight snarl, evaporating my emotions that I held for these 2 days.

"Where areyou? I'd like to see you" He didn't answer my question. However, from his tone he looked so serious.

Shortly afterwards came a large tall man with several tattoos around his hands, his face looking somewhat sangar with earrings adorning the left ear, and, his clothes look fantastic wearing torn jeans and a bright blue denim jacket. The man looked more like a thug who was ready to stalk me at any moment. Worse yet, both of his eyes look flushed like he is not really conscious.

"Farid, why are you here?" It was Farid Hartanto, I knew him since he was in the MA class X, Akbar introduced him to me, he was one of his best friends, in the past, when we sat in Akbar High School almost every day brought me to his house, to just hang out or spend the time that should be used to study at school.

Farid's house is like a basecamp, where every day everyone gathers, including Akbar and I who deliberately choose to skip school to spend time together.

"Let's go up, he's been waiting !" Farid allowed me to get on his motorcycle. I immediately picked up the bag and went on a ride on Farid's motorbike parked in the front yard of the house . It did not take long, because the distance was close enough only takes 30 minutes to reach Farid's house we also arrived in front of his house.

I immediately got off the sport bike, he also swiftly parked his favorite motorbike, before he walked into his house I followed him from behind.

Farid's house was very quiet, I saw Akbar sleeping on the sofa. I walked up to him, I rubbed his head slowly, long I looked at his tired face before he finally opened his eyes.

"Well, are you sorry? Why didn't you wake me up?" Akbar asked, he rubbed his eyes and immediately sat down beside me .

"I just came, you are so good sleep I can't help waking up"

"Sorry, I told Farid to pick you up, because I'm tired ! I haven't been home yet, last night I saw a Burgerkill concert"

Akbar loved gotic-rock music, and at the time Burgerkill was very popular, all the young people loved it. Especially Akbar, he was very fanatical with the band, even in his room plastered stickers and also posters with the band's picture. His clothes did not escape the picture of the band either in the form of writing or photos.

Instantly the look on my worried face turned to anger, not without reason. If he wanders around to have fun with his friends, it means he's been drinking, and he knows for sure I really don't like him.

"Drink, again? You deliberately make me angry, how many times do I say I don't like you to drink, you know not?"

Ever since I was a child growing up in a religious environment, my family has been so fanatic when it comes to religion. That's why I don't like men who drink alcohol.

"Yes, I promise it's the last one" His eyes glanced at me, I knew it wasn't seriousness, proof that I'd banned him from drinking for a long time but he kept doing it.

"Then, why don't you try to contact me? Are you planning to leave me again?" Half yelling, it feels like I can no longer withstand the overflow of my emotions that I have endured since.

"My phone's gone, I don't remember dropping her where" she lowered her head, trying to remember where she last held her phone.

"Bar, sorry I want to pick up my ade first huh, you guys I live first gapapa?".

Farid wore his leather jacket, he was getting ready to go, where he was going, which I knew he had a younger sister and if it was not wrong his sister was still in 3rd grade Junior High school at that time.

"Stop who's here, isn't there a problem?".

Ask Akbar, it turns out his mind is the same as mine, what people will say if in a house this big we are left by the owner of the house with just two alone. What if the RT sir comes and thinks we're doing something no-no?

" Come on, calm down. Aman hehe's". Winked and left us. I don't know what the blink of an eye meant, which I obviously didn't care about.

Stay the two of us in the house, Farid already has his own house no wonder if his friends like to linger long hanging out in his house.

Akbar looked at me, his gaze quite sharp as if he was about to eat me alive, feeling terrible.

"Do you love me ?".

"Of course" . I returned the look in his eyes, as soon as the annoyance disappeared, the atmosphere turned silent.

He brought his face closer to mine, slowly closed his eyes and gently kissed my lips, feeling warm. He started playing with g*nas. He really took control of me today.

My heart was pounding so hard, I don't know what strange feeling I was feeling.

Long silent let him play his way slowly I reply to his ci*man very carefully.

"Would you try something else?" He smiled at me savagely, like a tiger ready to pounce on its prey.

I was silent for a while, before he finally opened everything without waiting for my approval. His hands began to touch the most important part of my body.

"A.. Me" My heart and my mind are flogging, there are many doubts I keep, but just as she enjoys me so much and lies if I say I don't want her.

For almost an hour we talked**ta before finally reaching the peak of pleasure and ending up hugging each other. The sound of breath hunting each other unpretentiously releases all doubts stored in the mind.

Today I let her do whatever she wanted to do along with the fall of my faith to fully trust her.

I gave up the only treasure I have, the one I shouldn't give today.

Yes I did, the biggest mistake I will never forget in my entire life. It was the beginning of my destruction. I cursed myself, I am sorry and deeply sorry.

"God, why did I do it". My inner.

I cried in her arms, enduring the pain I had felt since.

"I promise I won't leave you". He wiped my tears.

I was silent thinking about many things, what if we didn't get married? what if something happens to me? if he leaves who will accept my situation now? what's gonna happen next? I was still silent with tears flowing down my cheeks.

After that incident, I almost never slept, everything was reflected day and night.

I feel anxious and frightened, how could I let this happen so quickly, I regret it so much.