Black Pen

62

The sincere smile that burst from her tiny mouth made me forget many things, my most beautiful little angel, she was the prettiest creature on earth after Mama, which makes me strong in living this mortal life.

"Aaaaa aaaaaaaaaaa wawawa" The beautiful melodious voice of creation-NYa dyed this cold morning.

His two tiny hands holding a mini blanket with a maroon-red Teddy Bear, he raised it up to cover his entire face and body, then opened the coils and lowered it to invite me to play peekbaa.

"Ciluuuk. Dear mom is awake, uluhh. Go to Iyaa's place". I carried him, the smile was getting bigger, he seemed to understand what his mother had just said.

O Lord, as this is the happiness of being a mother, be proud of those who throw away their babies, those who kill innocent little angels, they do not know how happy it is to have a baby. For a moment my burden disappeared, his sincere smile seemed to make me forget sorrow, wounds and tears.

Mama is busy preparing for our departure this morning, Babe takes care of her beloved pigeons, while I'm busy taking care of baby Bintang, she has to take a bath. As for Doni, he couldn't pick me up because he had to work this morning.

Train departure schedule at exactly 09.00 WIB. Once all is ready, Babe takes us all to the train station. The time has shown at 08.30 WIB. Station is quite crowded, many people passed by doing their activities this morning.

My carriage soon arrived, Mama and I were standing with both big bags in Mama's hands, while I was holding my baby with one large tote in my right hand. I kissed the back of Bab e's hand, the wave of the hand that started to wrinkle it as if saying good-bye.

He threw a smile of sadness, I knew he felt lost, Babe's character was hard and firm but I knew deep down he loved me more than himself. Since that incident, my relationship with Babe has been a little strained, we rarely talk to each other. Not like it used to be so close and warm. I felt so guilty about him, hurting him so deeply. Though he never asked for anything from me other than the hope he had hung, he prayed that his children would live successfully.

"Where's home? my shoulder almost broke, carrying it for hours made my body go limp"

"That's her house, just be patient a little more until"

"Oh yeah, I haven't told your mama we're moving. I'm not sure to tell him, whatever I do he won't like it".

"Why do you always think badly of my family?" Doni was offended, he raised his voice slightly.

"The reality is like that, ah shit we even debated them. And lower your voice, Mama will hear". My reply was getting a little upset.

"This is his house, small and narrow. Hopefully you can stay here. Doain I'll let us buy a house as soon as possible" Doni opened the door to the locked house.

A mini-sized house, consisting of one room, kitchen and bathroom. More precisely like koskosan, a little seedy, dusty and somewhat dark. Maybe this house has not been lived in for a long time by its owner.