Black Pen

14

May 2012, the,

The accident on that day seemed to hypnotize me, his face was clearly plastered in my memory, I was not so sure he knew of my whereabouts, that the clear faint blood I saw from a distance still made me reluctant to contact him, especially for a few days now the number cannot be contacted.

I think it would be better for the two of us to give each other some distance, not to end it just that we both need time to improve the grades especially Akbar is now third grade, already, it is time to focus on learning.

As with other women in general, I also worry about Akbar's future, what will he be if the school is not finished until graduation.

I also feel I have to support him fully to learn, if I keep forcing myself to continue to meet maybe I am too selfish, although in fact it is not easy for me to stay away from him for a long time, but it has to be done, considering I also have to learn to improve grades from now on because if I don't have to repeat a year, of course I don't want to.

In school I was held a new eskul, the paskibra. Not so many students are interested in taking part in this essay. Only a few of them, even students who are active in organizations such as osis, scouts and pmr.

This Eskul is actually not included in the list of mandatory eskul that must be followed by students in my school, unlike osis, pmr and also scouts. Because this eskul is only held every one year to then perform at the anniversary of the Republic of Indonesia at the sub-district level.

Annisa invited me to join the eskul, honestly I was not very interested, other than because it had to be hot, heat, continuous physical exercise also seems to be of no use other than tired and dizzy because it must exercise in the hot sun with dust scattered everywhere.

I accepted Annisa's offer, not because I was curious, just that I needed activities that would later busy me, making me forget Akbar for a moment.

"Currently, must be exciting ! after all there will be a Tarman" A Tarman is Annisa's brother, as well as the grandson of Babe's best friend. I know him well, because he is like my brother.

I nodded in agreement. Physical exercise began in late May, at the beginning of Annisa so excited. Unfortunately the spirit was not long before he showed me, after a week of training he decided to come out, he had invited me to come out too, but then I refused, he said, because besides I started to like this activity, I also started to get to know a lot of people here, they were fun and pretty good.

I followed this post-cabra exercise with my two friends, my seniors to be exact. They had flown the flag in the district before that in August 2011. It was Ndah and Mirna, who eventually became my best friends after Annisa decided not to continue this grueling and fun activity.

The month of May has gone to change with June, slowly but surely I am getting used to it without Akbar, my life in busy with my new activities that are paskibra and also studying, he said, I almost never skipped again after we both got away. Though longing often lingers in the recesses of my heart, torturing my mind, forcing me to look for it.

As of August 2012, I had successfully flown the red and white flag at the sub-district level, although at that time I was placed in the 45th army . But I feel proud of it, at least I have become better than yesterday who just spend time to skip and play with my girlfriend Akbar.