100 Days of Being a Widow

Section 90 Dinda: Aib

Every human being is tested by his own tests. After passing the economic test of his life. Dinda is then tested with the strangest of household life.

100 Days after the divorce. Dinda understood more and more that the more tested he will be stronger and stronger. She who since the girl does not know many men, because she lives in a boarding environment, where men and women are separated by towering walls. Now, he can judge the men who only come and go in his life. A man who sees only his side. Focus their attention on the beautiful and glowing skin that is guarded after a treasure glimmer.

Post-incident at hotel. Dinda no longer wants to call Haris. So did Haris, like just staying away. Disappearing there's no news. More painful, when a group of people come to Dinda to pick up Haris's car for Dinda's birthday. The car has not paid off. Payment is in arrears for two months. Until the third month, the car was pulled leasing.

Dinda was lucky. All about Haris is open when the yellow janur has not been unfurled. Haris, who easily justified adultery, did not deserve to be a priest. It is better to fail now, though fail again for the umpteenth time.

Dinda decided to be alone. He took time off from work and college. He wants to calm down, see himself and his life goals. Set the heart so that it is not wrong again.

"Rania. I came here on purpose"

Said Dinda who was suddenly present in Rania's office.

"I see you're not okay, tell me what happened to you".

Rania asked who was slightly surprised by Dinda's presence. She looks sluggish and without makeup. Even though since becoming MUA, Dinda almost never present without makeup in the public room.

"I've had my first 100 days as a widow. I have risen and metamorphosed as you have done, Rania. But, why did I fail to reach my happy point, why am I always falling apart in life?!"

Dinda bowed listlessly. His eyes seem empty. His soul looks fragile.

Rania breathed a moment. Then get Dinda a tissue located on her desk.

"Actually you've made it through all that easily. However, everyone's life journey is certainly different. You who easily rise economically, but may not easily rise psychically".

Rania said, while looking gently at Dinda's beautiful face.

"Be yourself so that those who seek you will love you. Not physically. Pursue love by being yourself. Because by being someone else, you will look perfect on the surface, but fragile inside. Now try to go back. Your life, your experience, your future, is your right to determine. You are beautiful when you are yourself. You are strong with your own feet. Find love with the heart".

Rania's words take time to digest and understand. Dinda who has been in Lumajang for a week, is more alone. Look at the mirror in his room, then compare it with a photo 4 years ago. Very different, much different.

"Who am I?"

Ask Dinda to herself. His face changed, his attitude changed. He during metamorphosis has become the new figure of Dinda. Superstar Dinda, tasteful Dinda. Naturally approaching him were those who were financially established, perfectly handsome in front of the mirror.

"Why did I just realize it?"

Mumbled Dinda.

***

The leave period is over. It's time for Dinda to get back to work and to her college.

All eyes looked differently at Dinda. Dinda's unusual appearance changes. The clothes are the same, the makeup is different. Simple, far from the impression of superstar Dinda before.

Yep. Dinda changed. Again. To be yourself. Discover who he really is. Not like yesterday. Preening to make all eyes on him. Successful career, but empty soul.it's me, Dinda. A simple figure from a long time ago. Because without makeup, Dinda is beautiful naturally.

Dinda is back. He realized that his soul had been sick yesterday. Sick from the grudges he had nurtured for so many years. He looked healthy yesterday. But his soul is sick. Revenge, want to look perfect in the eyes of man. Revenge wants to show success in front of an ex-husband. In front of those who have wasted it. He forgets that by living happily, he has lost those who hurt him.

"Din, aren't you in the wrong costume?!"

Ask Rita, her best friend on campus.

"No. Why why?"

Answer Dinda..

"I thought you were going to school. How shar'i!"

Ciraffi Rita .

"The person becomes himself. Like old times. Children graduate boarding school. Can you?"

Said Dinda as she walked towards the library.

"So seriously going to hijrah?"

Ask Rita who half-believes. Dinda is very ambitious in many aspects, including career and appearance.

Ledek Dinda's. Rita smiled wryly.

"You were asked instead of nanya..teu politely!"

Reply Rita with his Sundanese accent. Then Dinda's laughter was met.

***

An Aib

That afternoon, the atmosphere of the campus was different. Many people looked strangely at Dinda. A superstar tajir twisted, suddenly not greeted by some friends who used to ask for a tract on him.

Dinda breathed for a moment. He then decided to head to the library room while waiting for Rita who was buying cold drinks in the canteen.

"Eh..bengong wae...!"

Sapa Rita ya g has returned from the canteen.

Dinda surprised. He's still thinking about what happened when he decided the week he didn't go to college.

"Do you know anything?"

Dinda asked Rita, who was sipping her cold drink.

"Rita.I asked, donk answered!"

Said Dinda a little annoyed because dikeki by Rita.

"Partially you, another person drinks to chat. What if I choke?!"

Rita was upset.

"Yes sorry. Now answer me. There's nothing strange about the attitude of friends on campus?"

Tanya repeated.

"Heehhh you don't know, if your name is on the topic again?"

Dinda nodded inexplicably.

"I wanted to ask this question from earlier. But looking at your appearance, I've been focusing wrongly!"

Said Rita who then got rid of the drink yes.

"Dina. Someone has been spreading rumors that you've been married. Alias widow. Isn't it?"

Ask Rita. His eyes peeked into Dinda's eyeballs. Dinda was shocked and misbehaved. How can his friends know about Dinda's status.

Dinda...

"I've seen your ID fit between you a new card list. Are you still a girl?!"

Ask Rita back. It seems like Rita really wants her belief to be reinforced by Dinda.

Dinda still speaks a thousand languages. Her lips were confused to explain everything.

Where to start?

Do you need to be honest with people who are not interested?

If you have to be honest, do they really care or just want to find new gossip that is exciting to talk about?

Dinda bowed, she felt confused, depressed, increasingly depressed by the exam she was facing right now.

Seriate....