100 Days of Being a Widow

Section 9 Continues Second Time

Rania moved out of Bimo's house. He came home with such deep disappointment. He was not allowed into Bimo's house. He just wants to meet his kids. But in fact, Rania only managed to meet Azka, while Zidan was confined. 

He got off an online motorcycle. How surprised when he found the fence of the house in a state of being padlocked. He also found his belongings outside the fence.

"Astaghfirullah..what else is this?" Mumbled. 

"Mom...Ma'am….Ms. Rania ..." Someone called Rania. Rupaya Pak Darsono, next door neighbor. 

"Sorry Mom, there were some people who took out my stuff. I thought it was a thief, it was Mr. Dani Bu's man". Said Mr. Darsono stammered. It seems that he is also not happy to convey this news to me. 

I was stunned in disbelief. Can't believe that Dani turned out to be that mean. Rania was sitting on the ground while shedding tears. He no longer knew where to live. Want to go anyway, what if his kids look for him. 

"Bu Rania, come with me, by chance behind this estate, there's a contract. I thought about this earlier, Mom". Said Mr. Darsono. It seems like Mr. Darsono is very worried about Rania's condition. Mr. Darsono is a retired TNI. His retirement income he invested to build a rented house in the back of a housing complex. 

Rania nodded in obedience to Mr. Darsono. He had no choice but to contract in a house outside this housing complex. However, the funds are not enough to rent a house in the complex area. 

This rented house is not so big. But quite decent if inhabited only Rania and her children. The money is paid for the month. Five hundred thousand dollars a month. Pretty big money for Rania at the moment. But life must continue. He could not find a contract far from the housing complex. He wanted Azka to be able to access the old house inhabited by his papa, and the kindergarten school. 

It has been more than seven days Rania has not received any news from Dani. His house is empty. One of the security guards at Dani's house said that her employer would be back in a few days. Rania saw that there was a maid in the house. During Rania's stay there, never once did her mother-in-law allow a maid in the house. Rania is the maid without pay, who has to clean the 2-storey house alone. 

"When can the children return to my house" . Rania tries to contact Dani through a short message.

"Do you have a home now?!" Rania was surprised by Dani's question. Apparently Dani was satisfied since he managed to get rid of Rania from the warehouse. 

During the first expulsion. Dani allows Rania to stay in her electronics warehouse just out of pity for the kids. But every day Nani's mother protested against Dani. Bu Nani does not accept if Rania is still comfortable living and being financed by Dani. Bu Nani realizes, if the children are still in the care of Rania, Dani will always give money to Rania and will always worry about children. So, he finally instigated Dani to separate Rania from her children and drove her from the barn house. Bu Nani hopes that Rania can be away from her children and Rania, can no longer take a living from Dani. 

"Mas, I know what this second expulsion means. You want to keep me away from the kids, don't you?!" Reply fiery Rania through a short message. 

"Rania, I don't want your children to take a hard life!, It's better for them to take care of my family, just take care of your own life, so that it's not hard!"

Dani's Saying. 

Although only through a short message, but the words from felt very piercing Rania's heart. He realized that he had not been married to a human. Except with the devil!

Rania lamented her life at this moment. He still has a husband, but is undeniable both inborn and inward. Now, he also had to bear the burden of longing because he began to be kept away from his children. 

Rania's days were heavy. Now he has to set aside money for two big things, namely paying the contract and also the installment of the Hospital DP debt. Heavy, the fight between the economy and Rania's psychological sanity. 

"Assalamualaikum, Miss Rania. Sorry when to pay your April installments. It's been five days!". A message from Bu Sari surprises Rania's daydream. 

"Sorry Mom, I only have two hundred grand. There's a laundry that hasn't been taken, Mom. Please wait two more days". Rania replied via a short message.

Degs….

Rania's heart almost stopped. Six hundred thousand rupiah installments every month for eight months. Rania's debt is three million with six hundred installments each month, then the total Rania must pay four million eight hundred thousand rupiah. The amount Bu Sari said the neighbor's price. Because in others, more than that. 

Rania is trying to make more money. No matter day or night, he continued to work. But unfortunately, the number does not also meet the installment this month.

Two days later …

The door of the house was knocked hard.

"Mrs Rania ….Bu Rania's…. Ma'am…."

Someone was screaming from behind the door.

"Astaghfirullah Bu Sari...What's up?" Answer Rania. He was very surprised that the one who knocked on the door was Bu Sari. 

"Mommy, I came here to collect the April installments!"

Said Bu Sari Ketus.

"Sorry Mom, I only have four hundred thousand, how about Mom?" Reply Rania mengiba.

"Loh.loh..loh...loh..can't donk Mom!. We've agreed that the installments are six hundred thousand!" Bu Sari is looking for Rania. 

"But I tried, Mom. And there are only four hundred thousand". Rania continues to wander.

"Bu Rania .. I've been very helpful to Ms. Rania. Minjem his money is begging. Pay's hard!, here's the money. Remember next month it pays eight hundred thousand rupiahs. Not less!". Bu Sari pulled the money that Rania was holding roughly. His heart was very sick to hear the insults of Bu Sari. Not that he refused to pay. Only, this month Rania got the expulsion disaster. So that the money that has been collected to pay the installment, he was forced to pay the contract. 

Rania's heart is getting sick. When he realized that since then, there were thousands of eyes of mothers looking cynically at the incidence of debt collection. Rania closed the door violently and cried out.

That night

Rania is barely able to control her mind. He was forced to retreat from a life that was not in fact on his side. Even God does not want it. It loses energy. This afternoon, since the debt collection incident, Rania spent a bitter cry behind the door. He has not eaten or drank since this morning. The lamp of the room he left dark. Rania was locked up in that dark room. Only the dim light from the light beam belongs to the neighbor.

Rania's running out of energy, dehydrated. He began to hallucinate. Thinking about things that are beyond the common sense of a healthy person. Rania's eyes were fixed on a rope that she used to dry laundry clothes. Many times he thought, and it seemed that he was ready for a decision of his life,

"Lord, I can't anymore." murmured Rania.