100 Days of Being a Widow

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The cold weather pierced Rania's body which was only wrapped in a thin and shabby negligee. Six days in the hospital to look after Zidan made him lose power. The money in his pocket was only fifty thousand left. Zidan will be allowed to go home tomorrow. As for administrative costs, Rania relies heavily on insurance from Dani's company. He has contacted Dani's secretary several times, Sinta his name, and Sinta promised to file a claim today. However, until evening, there was no news from Sinta. 

Rania tried to contact Sinta several times through her mobile phone. But I didn't get an answer. Rania is a desperate man. He was half dazed to face all these trials by himself. It felt like he contacted his parents and told them all about his economic burden. But, stop him from doing. Isn't Rania's father, Mr. Rido, also strongly disapproves of Rania's marriage. 

At the toughest times like this. Rania took ablution and spread out the prayer rug. He performs tahajud prayers and hajat prayers. Rania really has no way out for her problems. He only has a do'a that is the only hope that can save him tomorrow. Zidan had to go home, Rania had to go back to make a living, Azka had also missed him a lot.

Tomorrow…

"Rania.. Let me drive you home".

Rania was shocked to hear someone greeting her. The dawn Adhan has just gone. Rania who was asleep on the prayer mat was awakened by someone's voice.

"Mas Dani's…." Rania said while wiping her face.

"Prepare.I will finish the administration" said Dani coldly. However, for Rania this speech Dani is more this he needs right now than seduction. 

Praise be to Allah, who has softened Dani's heart. 

Dani takes Rania to the house, precisely the warehouse. Not to forget Dani picked up Azka at Rangga's house. He also bought some food and toys for his children. But this time, Dani didn't come in. He just escorted Rania and the children to the front gate of the house. 

"I'm sorry I have business, get down and rest". Dani said after helping to bring down luggage from the hospital. 

"Don't you want to accompany the kids for a little while. They miss you, man". 

"I'll pick up the kids this afternoon". Said Dani coldly as he drove his vehicle. 

Rania didn't think of anything. He focused on the kids again. He was absorbed in cleaning the house and preparing food for Azka and Zidan. 

Afternoon 

Dani keeps his promise to pick up Azka and Zidan. Not with Rania. Their goal is to go to the old house. There's no way Rania could have been involved. For the sake of Rania's children relented. Maybe this is Rania's opportunity to prepare the materials for her business needs. He had to go back to making a living. Although not yet separated legally, but in fact Dani has ignored the birth and inner living. 

He re-posted his merchandise, bento and laundry shuttle. Thankfully, the response was still very good. Some actually use the services of Rania because it needs. But many also use the services of Rania because they feel sorry. 

He was late in the busyness, until he did not realize that it was late at night. But Dani didn't drive the kids home. He tried to check his phone. There was a message from Dani. 

"The kids tonight are sleeping with me" Rania's feelings were mixed at the time. Between the happiness that the children still have a place in his father's heart, or the feeling of jealousy that he still desperately wants Dani. 

Rania tried to ignore her feelings. Either for the umpteenth time he always overcame his feelings. 

Loneliness.that's what Rania feels tonight. The fear that he managed to ignore, but replaced with a feeling of loneliness and helplessness. Sometimes he wants to go back to his youth. Pursue a career and make his parents happy. Become a teacher as his father aspired, and open a business in the field of tutoring. Why regrets always come too late. 

Time went very slow that night. Rania's feelings never subsided. A tired body does not bring him to sleep. He's still awake. His mind is still circulating. Until he was completely asleep at dawn. 

That morning, for the first time Rania back to selling bento. At seven o'clock in the morning, he delivered the bento to Azka school. He hopes to meet Azka at his school. 

"Ustadzah, I want to meet Azka for a while." Rania told Ustadzah Yuni, Azka's teacher.

"Oh sorry, Mom. Azka didn't come in today. He said get out of town". 

Rania. How could he not if Azka left the city. Did Dani take him out of town?!.

"Mas, Azka why not go to school?" Rania tries to contact Dani via her mobile.

"Oh yes sorry just got in touch. I take the kids to the Bimo children's wedding" Dani replied via a short message as well.

Rania's heart is sick again. Bimo is his sister-in-law. Is this. He began not to be included in family events. It's like everyone's away. Rania is in Jakarta. Without family. Fighting alone faces the bitterness of divorce. He was unable to share the destruction of his life with anyone.

"How many days in Bimo's house?" Rania is trying to find some certainty. He was very worried when he was away from his son. Especially Zidan who had just recovered from illness. And Azka who barely met for a week. Rania is still missing. If Dani asks her permission first. Of course Rania won't let Dani take the kids.

" May be 4 to 7 days" . Dani replies to each of Rania's messages briefly.

"Mas.kamu bring the children why not permission first, mas…." Rania's heart started to heat up. How could he not meet the children for a long time. 

Rania lunglai felt Dani did not appreciate her as a mother. Her struggles in the hospital, and the efforts that Rania has always made to provide for the children seems only to be seen as a normal effort from the mother to her child by Dani.  

"Mother Azka. Is mom okay?"

Bunda Rangga saw Rania tertudk tear in the school garden. The friendship between Rangga and Rania is not just a friendship between children. More than that. Mother Rangga like being an angel Rania. It helps both economically and psychologically.

Even the bento and laundry orders received by Rania, many of which came from the mother of Rangga. Rania's status is always captured screen by her and made status in wa story mother Rangga. Bunda Rangga, who is the wife of a council member, certainly has many friendships. 

"Mother Azka, I am very worried about you. I saw your suffering from being in the old house until it continues to this day" said Rangga mother while rubbing Rania's back.

"I can't understand my path of fate Bun. If it was just an economic problem, I could keep fighting. But now, it's like Dani's trying to keep me away with the kids. Suppressing economically and psychologically" Rania tries to express her feelings. He cannot bear the burden of his own problems. 

"Bun. I suggest that Azka think about herself first before thinking about the children. Suppose the children were taken by his father, let Bun, mother began a career again. I know my mother is a scholar. Must have skil untum working". Bunda Rangga tried to advise Rania. He cares a lot about Rania, because he himself was raised by parents who stopped by parents. 

"However separated, the children will still remember and return to the mother" said Azka mother like giving a glimmer of calm in the heart of Rania. At least, he still had hope, that during any parting the children would not forget him. 

After a conversation with Rangga's mother, Rania was excited again. Later that night he'll try to talk to the kids over Dani's phone. Yes Rania will contact Dani and talk to the children. 

That night, Rania tries to contact Dani many times. He was eager to hear the babbling of his children and reminded Dani to give extra vitamins to Zidan who is still recovering after illness. However, his attempt failed. Dani's phone is inactive. He tried to contact Bimo. Dear is cold.

Rania was again overwhelmed with worry. He decided to go to Bimo's house tomorrow morning. He just wanted to give vitamins to Zidan and hugged his children for a while to let go of the longing. He knows himself enough, can't be involved in family events. 

The next morning, Rania was preparing to go to Depok, Bimo's residence. Rania had visited the house several times to attend home security and family gathering. To get to Bimo's house, Rania orders an ojek online. The cost is not so expensive, only twenty thousand rupiah to go there. 

In less than an hour, Rania has reached Bimo's house. There are some vehicles parked there. From a distance he has seen Azka playing running around with two other cousins, Chika and Naura. They look very familiar. Azka looks cheerful. 

"Ashka….!" Rania called out with excitement. Missing can no longer be stopped. 

"Mama…." Azka runs to embrace Rania. Mother and son hugged for a long time. 

"Mba.mba did not come here anyway. I have an mba show!" Without being stale, Kartika Bimo's wife immediately threw words as if the presence of Rania would disrupt their event. 

" I just want to see my kids, Tika" replied Rania. 

"They're happy to be here, they're fine, no need to worry!" Kartika Seru. 

"What's the matter, Bun…?" Bimo appeared from behind.

"Here you go, Riana's coming, yeah!" Said Kartika while narrowing one eye and passed in.

Rania was still standing in front of the gate. As if there was not the slightest intention of them to let Rania in.

"Want to all the kids?" Sapa Bimo ketus's.

"Yes Bimo for a moment. Because Dani did not say goodbye when bringing the children here" Rania tried to give an alibi why he was desperate to come to Bimo's house.

"Gini ya mba. actually mas Dani forbid me to allow Azka and Zidan to meet mba. But I also have a heart. Let's meet the kids for a minute!" Bimo. 

Rania realizes that her presence is undesirable. He still will not be allowed to enter. Rati Rania hot. Tears can no longer be blocked. On the night, Rania can only fight Azka. Kiss and hug Azka.

"Azka, take good care of Zidan. This is vitamin Zidan. Remind papa to give Zidan vitamins yes son". Rania said as she continued to hug Azka. Azka was an adult before her time. I understand her mother's feelings. 

"Yes, ma. Mama take it easy. Azka will take care of Zidan". Azka said while kissing Rania's forehead. The two embrace.

Rania went home. When the rain starts to fall. He did not want Azka to rain and told the boy to come in. Still from behind the fence, Rania sees Bu Nani telling her grandchildren to enter the house. He also saw Dani's car parked in the garage of Bimo's house that was accidentally opened. 

Rania wasted ….

Rania removed ….