100 Days of Being a Widow

Part 5 out of the house

"Azka, you have to be strong, son, help mama get in the shirt, son. We're leaving tonight". Rania took with her makeshift bag. He was determined to get out of the house, even though he did not know whose house he was going to. 

In an instant the goods were finished Rania packed. There were 2 large suitcases and 1 bag containing a wallet and letters. He knew he would not be able to carry his entire bag. Finally he decided to only carry 1 suitcase containing his children's clothes and a little of his clothes. He peeked at the purse, O Allah there is only catering money, two hundred thousand.

Rania's feelings are uncertain, where maybe she dares to go out with money that is only enough to live one or two days. But they have no place to live. Yes, Rania girl of Acehnese descent. He moved to Jakarta to continue his education at one of the universities in Jakarta. This was the beginning of his meeting with Dani Mahendra. After completing her education, Rania decided to get married and settle in Jakarta.

Rania is ready to get out of the house. Zidan who fell asleep he carried. Azka seemed to be ready for this. Azka carrying her school backpack. He filled his backpack with milk, eucalyptus oil, and a little mineral water. Its small body has not been able to support the weight of the backpack. I push a suitcase through every room in this house. There is hope that Mas Dani and Mother-in-law will be kind enough to keep her away. However, he was very worried about his children later. Where to go, I don't know. 

Dani turned her face when she looked at Rania. While Bu Nani narrowed her eyes. 

"Don't know yourself!, but if you think and don't talk much, it won't be gini!". Mother-in-law said as she watched us prepare to get out of the house. 

"Azza. Follow papa, son.." Dani who had turned his face, suddenly called Azka. Azka is his flesh and blood. All this time, Azka was a submissive child. Never once did anything naughty or naughty. Even for a boy her age, Azka is submissive type. 

"Azka wants to come with Papa and Mama…" 

Azka answered softly. Eyes glazed. 

"Azka, your papa doesn't want to be with your mama!. You better be the same. Life with your mom is hard later!"

Instead of cooling the atmosphere. Mama often made the mood worse. Sharpen the problems, and keep our relationship warm. A nine-year household trip, almost always colored by conflicts arranged in-laws.

"Don't want to, Uti, Azka just want to come with mama!" Azka refused and gently pulled my hand. Strengthened my steps to get out of the house.

"Whatever!, remember, don't come back!" Shouted Bu Nani.

Dani, shut up.

Rania and Azka walk down the street of the Damai Lestari Housing complex. The place where Rania and Dani have been serving the household nosedives for nine years. There are not many sweet memories, but Rania is grateful to be given two children who always make it hard to live life. 

Rania was stunned, as she passed the carpenters wagon, Azka's fingers held tight. The scent of satay seemed to tempt Azka's instincts. Although this child does not whine, but the instinct of a mother is very sensitive. Satay is Azka's favorite food. 

"Azka wants to eat satay…?"

Azka shook her head. Slowly. Like doubt.

"We eat satay first yuk, Mama's hungry". Rania understands her son's body language. However the state of inner disintegration. But Rania is always able to smile cheerfully in front of her children. 

"I have to look strong". Rania Gumam. 

"Silver, one-serving chicken satay, one-serving rice, and one-serving warm tea" 

"Okay, neng!" Answer the satay man.

Rania only ordered one serving of satay, rice, and warm tea. One serving is enough for both of them. Besides Azka will not run out if you eat a portion of it yourself. This is also done to save money. Rania was still thinking of ways to get a place to stay. At least for tonight. 

Not long after, a serving of chicken satay complete with rice and warm tea is available at the table. Rania accidentally asks for additional plates and spoons so Azka can eat by herself. Since having a sister Azka used to be independent. Including eating by yourself. 

Finish eating …

"Who are we going to, ma?" Speak Azka with teary eyes. Azka ate longer than usual. Is this child able to understand his mother's feelings? And also think about where they are tonight. 

"Azka, maybe tonight we'll sleep in the mosque first, son?" Answer Rania accordingly.

"Then let's start the road again, ma" Azka said. 

Rania stunned. Azka was completely precocious. Rania cries and holds Azka. 

After paying, Rania and Azka continue on the journey. Yes, travel by foot and have no definite purpose. However, it seemed like Rania was going to follow her words earlier, to the nearest mosque. It's just a free and safe place for him and his kids.

"Mania…!" Rania was stunned, from behind, someone called her name. 

For a moment Rania was stunned. Apparently Dani called. A smile she gave to the man she truly loved. 

"Let's ride!" Said Dani coldly. But Rania was very confident, Dani still had good intentions. 

Azka hugged Dani for quite a while. It seems Azka did not want to be disappointed by her father. Rania knows, Dani is crying.

They're in Lexus' car. Dani's dream car was married from the beginning. Yep...Dani has an obsession with wealth and career success. No doubt he got it all at a very young age.

The car is slow. Not back home. Rania speaks a thousand languages. He was very traumatized by the quarrel, and was afraid that if he mispronounced, it would ignite again such a quarrel.

The car stopped at a house. Still in the same housing. This house is no stranger to Rania. Because this house is used as a storage area for computers and electronic devices inventory owned by IT Solution company. Dani lowers the suitcase, walks towards the house, then unlocks the door. I followed from behind with Azka. 

"Tonight you sleep here". Dani said briefly when putting down the suitcase and some luggage. I'm nodding. 

"I'm going to the minimarket for a second. Buy lights for the kitchen". Dani said, friendly, very friendly, as if nothing had happened. 

Rania replied with a nod. 

Dani returned with some groceries, snacks, a few bottles of mineral water, and milk for Azka and Zidan. This is the reason why Rania still maintains Dani. He was very attentive with the children. 

After installing the kitchen lights and checking the flow of water, Dani invited Azka to sleep. Rania loves to see this view. The way Dani put Azka to sleep in a way "ngeloni" while reading the story. Although not every night Dani does this. 

"I'm home, Rania". Dani said after Azka fell asleep, and Rania had tidied up the clothes in the small closet Dani had provided. 

"Alright." replied Dani while sitting at a distance with Rania. 

"What's this, pa?, what's papa doing and it's planning?!" Just opening the question, Rania's tears managed to spill. 

"Rania, do you know that my mother didn't like you?" Dani tried to parse the story.

"Mother is still vengeful because you broke off our engagement. It didn't disappear from my mother's memory!". 

"But that's because you cheated, mom!" 

Rania begins to heat up, her memory going back to 10 years ago, when she was officially engaged to Dani. Rania, who was then separated from the city by Dani, discovered that Dani was still dating Yanti, Dani's ex-lover, before establishing a relationship with Rania. Rania has proof of their relationship, one night, Rania intends to contact Dani, but when the phone is picked up, the one who receives the call is Yanti. 

Mobile fights ensued, until Rania cut their relationship for up to a year. But their relationship improves again, as Dani continues to persuade Rania to return to her. But apparently Nani's mother still harbors heartache. Because when the engagement was broken, Dani's father had a heart attack, and soon died.

"Rania, you should know, I've been trying to make you accept me, but the truth is I never could. You're not the daughter-in-law of mother's wishes!"

Dani's words were like a dagger that hurt Rania's feelings.

"Because you want a career woman?, a daughter-in-law who can always give material to replace the living from the father?!. Didn't I do everything mas, even though it doesn't work, I have the effort and I always try to give and make your mother happy, mas!" Rania tried to defend herself.

"I'm asking you to defend me in front of your mother once!, show me that I can be a good wife to you and our children!" 

This time Rania is holding Dani. He realizes that he is very afraid of losing Dani, losing his entire family. 

Dani is petrified ...

"I will also forgive your affair with a woman named Pina, ma!", Rania's words this time were replied with encouragement, immediately Rania was pushed until her body was blown to the wall. 

"Rania, don't you ever bother my friends!" Said Dani while clenching his hands.

The cornered Rania, was still trying to make a sound.

"Sleeping buddy?" Rania said softly while shedding tears.

"Be quiet, Rania!, If it wasn't for the children, Sudan I would have divorced you long ago!" Dani moved out of her seat. Then get out of the room while slamming the door. Before long, the sound of a speeding car sounded away.

The last words that Dani said, managed to make his heart crumble and meaningless. As if all this time he was just a burden to Dani. And tonight, he spent it crying in the corner of the room.

Rania was awakened by the cry of Zidan. it turns out the day has started to light.the clock on the phone has shown five o'clock in the morning. luckily it is Saturday, so Azka is off school.

soon Rania makes a bottle of milk and hands it to Zidan, then Rania rushes to dawn prayers.

This morning Rania can not cook to make breakfast. there is no cooking equipment here. There is only one stove, one pot, one cauldron and one spoon plate all this warehouse, this is a warehouse, there can be no cookware.But, because this is the same housing complex as where she used to live, so Rania knows where she can find breakfast menu.

After the children woke up, he decided to invite the two to look for breakfast around the housing complex. He decided to buy rice at Bu Jamil stalls, there selling various cooked side dishes, clean places, various kinds of menus.

"Bu order rice 2 packs, vegetable soup chicken and tempe 4" said Rania. he could not buy too many side dishes. Two hundred thousand rupiah in hand should be enough until he gets a job. Bento catering business that he lived threatened no longer be able to walk, because all cookware no one he could bring. If he wanted to go home, he couldn't have done it.

"mother Azka...., why buy rice wrap?" there was a Sari ma'am. Ms. Sari lived one block away from the house we occupied yesterday.

"oh yes Ma'am.yang patient yes ma'am earlier I heard from mama Radit, said Mother Azka was expelled with her in-laws from home.

Like being struck by lightning in the morning it feels. why as soon as the news of a household quarrel spread.

Rania blushed, but really it was to cover up her sadness.

"mama Radit knows who Mom is from...?"

ask Rania plain. During this time he did not know the nature of the mothers of the complex gossip team lambe turah aka village gossipers.

"Hem...Azka's mother, Radit's mother knows it directly from her mother-in-law. She said she was satisfied to have been able to get rid of Azka mother from the house.because Mother Azka all this time like a burden for her husband, so Mom"

ah.. It's like being pitting sheep, muddying the atmosphere, not to get a solution if Rania tries to defend herself.

"oh, I see Mom" said Rania briefly. Water droplets began to cover her eyelids.

"i was also surprised loh Bun, how can his mother-in-law mother Azka said that. His name is a wife is indeed a dependant of the husband, is it not bun?"

Ah..indeed gossip, the more it is responded to it will not finish the story.

" Where does Azka live now?"

asked Bu Sari who also seemed curious about the continuation of the gossip. Maybe they are preparing if there will be a reporter who will interview them.

" I live in block A Ma'am. Papa Azka's electronic warehouse" replied Rania still trying to calm down.

"Oh, thank goodness. I am very worried about loh Bun. afraid of Azka mother to sleep in the street. We both know that the mother is here with her husband. Away from the family.Patiently yes Bun". Said Ms. Sari ending the conversation.

Rania is increasingly aware that after getting out of the house any problems will remain. Especially the problems he had just faced. There will be many people who wonder at him, in-laws who live still one complex and society from the other hemisphere, who are curious about household stories.

But, Rania realized the real problem she had to face soon was the economic problem. He must start a new life. The possibility of returning to that house seems impossible. He must immediately get money to restart his catering business or work.