100 Days of Being a Widow

Losing Everything

Azka passed through every hallway of the Hospital with an uncertain emotional turmoil. Rania sees herself in Azka. He could not prevent his son from leaving. Even to pursue his steps alone is incapable. He knows how painful it is to accept reality.

Today should be a happy moment for him. However, today is precisely the moment behind the scenes of the disappearance of a father. The moment of the theatrical disassembly with the perfect scenario, written by people who were present in the past.

Pina Flashback.

At that time Pina felt defeated by the other women in Dani's arms. He felt knocked out and thrown away by Dani. Though, Pina felt that she had sacrificed a lot of time and feelings for Dani.

His return to Madiun was a moment of defeat for him then. A month passed after he tried to organize himself to become a better person in his hometown in Madiun, he instead had to accept the harsh reality. She is 3 months pregnant!

Pina tries to deny that she is pregnant with Dani's only child who touches her, even without marriage. Various ways he has tried to make the fetus that it contains was killed. But God said something else. Pina was still destined to give birth to the child. A beautiful baby. Skin color reddish white and dimple Pipit on the right. The baby is named Fika.

Various insults passed through him. Until he was fired from the company where he and the princess sustained his life. Until stumbling to be able to raise Fika alone.

Until that opportunity arises. When the child wants to meet his father. The opportunity Pina had for herself. There were no competitors at the time, because Dani was alone!

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Time keeps passing. It's been a week of that incident. During that time Fika no longer met with Azka. To be honest, Fika wanted to try contacting the man who was almost her husband. But, how could he possibly accept, that Azka was his mahram.

Fika tries to match her father's name on the Family Card, with Azka's family card, which she gets because she will take care of the wedding. He is eager to convince that they are blood, Sarah because their biological father is the same.

It's actually true. Dani Mahendra is the same person. Suppose Dani did not have a stroke that made almost all of his senses paralyzed, of course he would try to be a mediator for his son. But Dani lives like an undead figure perched on a wheelchair.

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"Well, I really want you to be able to help me. I want to meet Azka. At least, if he's my real brother, then I want us to be a whole family". Fika said in front of her father's wheelchair.

Dani certainly heard it. Just a tear gesture illustrating how much Dani wanted to help mediate what was going on.

"You should be able to stay away from Azka, not as a future husband, and not as a big brother. Until now, he will never acknowledge you as his real sister!"

Pekik Pina on Fika.

"Why do you talk that way. We are in the wrong position, ma'am. Mother who took father from them!"

Fika was able to deduce who was guilty in this case. Pina, his mother, is his father's mistress. Pina took Dani, not Rania.

"Fika!, how dare you now dispute mother. Remember Fika, I've been trying to live without your father. But, because of your whining for the father figure, then I ventured to snatch your father away from them!"

Fika's tongue was too thick to answer. It was unexpected that the mother even blamed herself. He bowed. Guilt mixed. If he knew that his mother seized the husband of people, of course he would not ask a father to be present in his life.

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This morning, for the first time after the failed engagement, Fika ventured back into work at the Azka-run New Latifa Bakery. He had no choice but to find a job.

"I'll apologize to you, ka". Mumbled Fika in the heart.

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In front of the New Latifa Bakery building, Fika's steps were restrained. How uncertain his feelings are. This time he was silent for a while. His eyes glared to the corner of the building. Just like the first time Rania came to Latifa Bakery. Now, as if Dejavu, Fika experienced something similar.

He ventured into the hallway of the employee locker. Some people kindly greeted him. They did not know that the proposal was void. Until some people regret it. Fika's heart is now a little relieved. Almost all the employees who passed him gave warm greetings and encouragement. Fika smiled slightly. Either you have to explain or just shut up?!

Some time Fika tried to find a locker that read his name. But he did not find his name written on the locker, where he used to change uniforms. He tried to search again, but there was a rolling area. But, nil. His heart began to worry.

Suddenly a man she knew as Azka came to her. Fika's heart was beating fast. Somehow he had to say hello. As an employee, lover, or ...

"Ficas. Your stuff has been moved. You can pick it up in the security front!"

Azka said with cold eyes, without a smile on her lips. His hand stuck out a piece of paper wrapped in a brown envelope.

Fika pulled the paper and started reading it. However, his hand shook violently, as his body suddenly disappeared.

"why are you doing this, Ka. What's my fault?!"

Said Fika with a trembling voice.

"Aren't we both unaware of this scenario. Didn't I also refuse to be in this position!!!"

Fika begins to attack Azka. Trying to defend yourself from the circumstances that cornered him. A letter of disrespectful dismissal was written in the paper Azka had given.

Azka was silent, cold and expressionless.

"Do you want to ruin my life too Ka?!"

"Answer Ka!!!!!!"

Azka passed away. Leaving Fika with her own inner wounds. No matter how hard Fika cried, Azka still passed away. Without caring.

Fika tried to support her own body. This pain was more than the fact that she was not considered a sister by Azka. More than that, he still loves Azka as his lover. If you have to separate, can not make peace in a good way. If you can't respect, at least Fika wants to be appreciated as a human.

Ambiguous. I don't know who is right or wrong in this story. Fika walked straight to her house. He lost everything, his girlfriend, his family and his job, all at once, at one time.

Seriate....