100 Days of Being a Widow

77 Households That...

Dani stared intently at Rania. Makes Rania feel uncomfortable linger facing her ex-husband.

"Mas, you are indeed the biological father of my children. Until anytime. But that doesn't mean we can take away my future forever. Enough with me to forgive you. Don't demand too much of your right to be appreciated. I feel like I appreciate you a lot if you feel unappreciated. Then try to understand, maybe God wants you to feel, what I used to feel. Begging on your feet. But, you have no pity!"

Rania turned her body. Passing by from Dani who keeps looking at Rania. He doesn't even know how to get out of Rania's life, and tries to rediscover Delita's whereabouts.

***

Ask your heart

Where lies that taste

The taste that once existed but was forced to stop just like that.

I've gone through all the torment of taste.

Which eventually shaped me into apathy towards pity.

I no longer even recognize the cry of sorrow.

Already common

Because every day is sad.

You present demands that I feel appreciated

I have to learn more about that.

Because you taught me not to care about you.

How painful it is to see the one we love, loved by others.

You complain to me.

Do not deceive the heart.

Didn't you give me that feeling?

How should I behave in front of you,

When you are with him. Repeatedly, repeatedly,

I almost died because of it.

Now I choose to live my new life.

Oh yes, I want to say happy news, please,

That I have managed to love Jean, my husband.

From the heart of my life I learned,

To get married, you don't always need love

We just need people who want to commit to a marriage

And realize that the couple is trustworthy

So we have to take care of it, we have to take care of it,

Guide him,

Mellow

and love will grow with time ...

I'm grateful, I'm grateful,

God gave me a chance to do that.

Rania writes a letter that she tucked in a gift box that she will give to Dani and her mother.

***

Rania was still struggling to close her eyes.

In Jean's arms,

Rania is still angry.

There was a sense of regret he had been too rude to Dani.

Didn't Jean have taught her to be kind to everyone. It doesn't matter if that person has hurt us. However, the reality is, learning to forgive is expensive, forgetting is impossible, accepting it is conditional.

Yes, in fact, the wounds given by others were like glass cracks. As perfect as any glue that glued it back together, it would still be an impossible mark lost in the blink of an eye.

Rania has accepted her destiny.

Dani is not his soul mate.

Three years passed, making him focus a lot on his new family.

However, Dani's presence, he is able to accept, because of his children.

"Well.dad..."

Rania tries to wake Jean up. But it didn't work. Jean looks so good. Rania understood very well.

He decided to wake up that night. Enjoy a cup of coffee that he made himself.

That night, he decides to start writing down his feelings and life experiences in a laptop owned by Jean. Jean has a special workspace in her room. But Jean never restricts anyone who wants to enter his room, even children often make it a place to do schoolwork. Usually Rania would only enter when cleaning the room, but this time, she went in to pour the burden of her mind. He hoped that in that way he could vent all the emotions of his soul. Muffled anger. Seeing the problem from a different side.

Rania also hopes to share her life experiences with women out there, to rise up and fight for her life. Learn to respect himself and act according to the impulse of his conscience, certainly without having to do evil to others.

At first he only made two paragraphs, then continued until several paragraphs. The night left its anchor, the dawn prayer soon reverberated. Jean, who awakens from her sleep, finds Rania asleep next to Jean's desk, with her laptop turned on. Jean, who was about to go to the mosque, was suddenly interested in reading his wife's writing.

Jean was so shocked to read it. He realized that the writing was describing his deepest feelings, which he probably had been deep, just to look happy. Jean realized that this writing would be a cathartic medium for Rania. He had the idea that Rania's writing not only stopped on the laptop, but could be read by many people as inspiration.

After reading, Jean felt a little jealous. So much did Rania feel for Dani, so that her separation gave a tremendous impact, which was able to ravage Rania's soul.

Rania is still asleep in the chair. Jean felt pity when he had to wake her, however, he would be more compassionate if his wife did not carry out her obligations to religion. Is not Allah the Examiner and the Examiner provided the antidote, and the wisdom that we can take after the matter is clear.

"Rania...Rania get up, it's almost past dawn..."

Jean tried to wake Rania up several times when she woke up.

"Well, I'm sorry I just got some sleep".

"Wake up, pray first. I can continue to sleep".

Jean answered while wiping Rania's face with her palm.

Jean is not a romantic flower-bearer.

He is not a poet who can always seduce Rania. Even the poems he had made, only he lived in his goat stable. He couldn't give it to Rania, and that's how it was.

But in the hands of Jean, Rania transformed into the wife of Shalihah. She is also a woman with a mature personality. In acting Rania becomes not rash and able to express what he wants. What's best for him. Jean never forced her to be a perfect mother, a special wife. Jean only wanted Rania to carry out her duties as a mother and wife, according to religious knowledge, and that was enough for Jean.

For Jean, the household needed faith. Faith is the pillar of a house. Love is the binding foundation, and our obedience to the creator is the walls that make the building solid.

The test of life that comes in turn, consider it a renovation, that we must always change. Turned into a better one.

After Rania Sholah, Jean gave Rania a Qur'an.

"Watch my wife. Your heart is broken because you are being overrun by your lust. You are so ambitious to be perfectly happy. I can't get Rania. Let's just say that problems are the color of our lives. Remember always God in the power of destiny to guide!"

Said Jean while giving a Qur'an to Rania who was still wearing a mukena.

Jean so perfect 😘

Seriate.

Dear readers sorry more molor aja nulisnya and several times must be absent. Karen ahead of the holiday and office work is still overload so it must be overtime until morning continue🙏 see you at the next part 😍🙏