Never Gone (Health and Obsession)
Diaries
"Bah!" call the little girl to the father, he ran over with the dress he was wearing.
Those sparkling eyes as well as adorable faces ran towards her with a million smiles.
The man gasped, he knew his little daughter wanted him to come on her ninth birthday.
"I'm busy, don't bother" he said coldly while clasping a tiny hand that's not comparable to a burly hand.
"Bah! Try the cake, it's delicious!" he said while offering a piece of cake that he had placed on a small plate.
The little girl even thought that tasteless pastry was the tastiest food she had ever tried, because even though he lives in a rich family, everything that happens to him is still fully controlled by his mother.
"I'm busy, don't act!" michele was upset that the little girl kept getting closer to her.
Bruk!
The little girl fell down, she no longer dared to approach as a sharp and annoyed look pierced towards her.
The cake in his hand fell, even damaged because of his body that fell.
"Miss!" call the servants who come straight over and help the girl stand up.
"Sorry to disturb Papah." said her softly with teary eyes and tried to hold back her cries.
The eyes that look full will be scared and sad but still force his smile only because he is afraid that the father will scold him again.
The girl was cleaned and sat in front of her cake, neither parents nor friends came, only the servants sang the song and smiled at her.
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Items or pieces of body parts that are found are taken to the hospital for identification.
"You got any information?" michele asked her secretary.
"The victims of 270 including the flight crew and the victims who have been found and identified are still 7 people, but the goods are already found" secretary Josh told Michele.
"Ainsley's? Does he exist?" michele asked doubtful who still wanted to hope if the girl was still alive.
Secretary Josh was silent for a moment, he heavily said his name he should indeed say his.
"They found the rest of the burned purse and identity card, the body of the bell lady was found but some of the items she was carrying had been found" the man replied to his superior.
The deg!
Michele was aghast to hear him, he immediately asked his secretary to point the way so that he could immediately see what he had found.
"I-this.." he muttered in surprise.
His hands trembled, his petrified body and my tongue were unable to utter a word.
"My son won't die like this, will he?" muttered with a trembling voice.
Her half-burned identity card was damaged as well as other items that proved strongly if the beautiful girl was on the plane.
"Master? You okay?" secretary Josh asked Michele when he saw the man stagger.
"The boy is not dead yet, he must not die!" murmured Michele stared towards her secretary.
Secretary Josh was aghast for a moment when he saw the eyes that seemed to lose their mind when he saw the items of his daughter who was left behind while the body was not there.
The investigation process has also said that if most likely there will be some bodies that will not return because of the environment and place of fall that has great potential to make the victims disappear without remaining.
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Zinchanko Mansion.
Prangs!
The man was completely frustrated, lost without a trace and only the items were found and left from the accident.
"He's not dead! Not until I see the body!" his words with a sharp eye like an eagle that is ready to pounce.
Liam could not answer in the slightest, only this time he saw the cold-blooded man lose control, while the lady who before her expected to be present at her master had no chance of life if she was in the plane that was destroyed.
Let alone to have his body or corpse intact, finding body parts alone is very difficult to do because many other passengers have not been found because of the place that is very difficult to reach by the search team.
"Sir, calm down." Liam told Richard when he saw the man as if lost mind hearing if the girl's belongings had been found.
"Quiet down?! You told me to calm down?! He I want to see his carcass even if he's dead!" the man was frustrated.
Liam can only suppress his worry because his master is currently out of control.
"I will tell you more when there is news," said Liam and lowered his head and walked out of the room.
Argha!
Richard was completely confused and frustrated at the same time, he deeply regretted his foolish decision to release the girl, his decision which denied his subordinates to stop the girl's departure from the country.
"No! You can't leave me!" he said while holding and pressing the broken glass he used to drink his alcohol.
Why do you want to leave immediately?!
But can I treat you well?
His mind is chaotic, he never likes someone and of course his feelings of like really become his weakness.
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Hospitals.
The sound of monitoring tools rhymed all over the man's body, the father who continued to accompany his son, he knew that he was not a good father.
When his favorite son knew about the bad relationship between him and his mother certainly made the little boy avoid fear even though he had tried to get closer.
And at the peak when the woman he loved died making the relationship between father and son worse, he also could not show his affection so that his son was more protected, he said, therefore he still vacated the position of heir to this day.
"Wake up, you have to get up and take everything I've prepared for you...
Everything that should be yours is absolute." Daniel said as he looked at his son who was still full of wounds and all the medical devices attached to him.
"And I'm not going to let this go the way I used to" he continued, who also knew that his wife was involved in the death of the woman he loved.
Doctors have concluded that the man's condition fell into a coma after his critical period, but that does not mean there is no problem at all in the handsome man.
Sean still has to fight for his life at this time, still can not be sure when the eyes will open again, or maybe will never even open again for as long.
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8 Days later.
After finding 7 pieces of the victims, the number has now increased to 33 identified victims from 270 victims.
There is still no progress about the body of the beautiful girl, she disappeared and vanished with other victims who could not be found.
Some of the victims' families have been sowing flowers on the high seas where the plane crashed in memory of his family that may never be found even if only a piece of finger.
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Belen Residence.
Fanny was still shaken by the news that her husband brought, she did not know why her feelings were so broken.
The woman got off her bed and unknowingly into her daughter's room, a monotonous decoration because she was the one who made her like that even though her sweet princess really liked something cute like a doll.
He opened his daughter's study drawer and her eyes locked on the book that read the girl's name.
Like a diary that is written wholeheartedly and pours out her feelings when the girl grows up.
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15th May 2015.
They pulled my hair this time, I'm not wrong, but why do they hate me?
Mamma...
Ainsley's afraid, Ainsley's about to change schools, all of her evil...
But why did Mamah say Ainsley was wrong?
Mah...
Ainsley promises not to be naughty anymore, but Ainsley does not want to go to school there again Mah...
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The deg!
The woman's heart felt like it wanted to stop, she recalled the time the girl once said about the bullying that happened to her.
Plaque!
Don't make my business grow! If they're like that to you, then you're wrong!
He also vividly remembered what he had said to the beautiful girl, even his hands so lightly landed on the girl's cheeks.
His hands shook, but he turned the book over again.
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23rd June 2015.
Mama promised to go to the restaurant with me...
His taste is really happy, Papah also said he would go home quickly today!
But if Papah comes home, he will have a fight with Mamah...
But that's okay, 'cause Mamah promised her a restaurant this afternoon!
If Papah comes home late in the afternoon, I'll be at his bash tonight, so can still go with Mamah!
Ainsley dear Mamah...
Uh forget, Ainsley also loves Papah...
We ate at the restaurant three...
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The woman's hand shook open the sheet of paper, her chest felt tight to read every short piece of writing that clearly showed the sense of pleasure, fear and sadness in her.
He continued to open it until he read all the outpouring of the girl's heart.
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21st August 2017.
Today I went on a diet again, but Papah said he wanted to take me to a company meeting party.
Do I eat quietly there?
But if caught by Mamah, it will be hit again...
The bruises on the back are not lost, if later more and more of Mamah's marks will hate because my body gets dirty.
But why do you hate me Dad?
Is it because I'm bad?
What if I became a more obedient child, Mamah would love to? Like the other mama...
Ow hell!
My stomach is getting sicker, did I eat a little first huh? But I can't do anything today...
This is because I love you the same, right?
Maybe because I'm less obedient...
I'm still not good...
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The woman's tears began to fall soaking the sheet of paper that was in front of her, clearly visible if her daughter just wanted to be cared for.
Have a family like any other child, and build an empty trust if he will be in love.
Her chest grew increasingly overcrowded unbearably, her overflowing tears flooded her pretty face.
He turned again the sheet of paper full of the nicks of the feeling up to his last page.
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20th March 2018
Today we are new from the party, Mamah Papah also went together...
Continuing at the party I accidentally felled the drink I was holding...
But it's not my fault, he who comes hold me haphazardly...
Mama is furious...
Mom said I was wrong, but I didn't go near her!
Papah also looks angry, because his cooperation is not so because of me...
Am I really a fucking kid?
Why Papah Mamah hates me...
I just want to be in my darling...
Maybe I'm being too selfish, but why don't they ever look back at me?
Mah...
Pahs...
Don't hate Ainsley...
Ainsley doesn't want to be hated...
Ainsley dear Mamah Papah...
Ainsley promises to be a good boy just as bad...
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Fanny's getting vibrated, the ink that was written looks some faded tear marks and she knows if it's not her tears at the moment.
Tears that her daughter let out while pouring out her deep sadness.
"Hiks...
Excuse me...
Maafin Mamah.." his murmurs were filled with regret and tears that he could not stop.
Mah...
Sorry, Mah...
I'm sorry Ainsley's alive...
This time it was Mah...
Ainsley wants to do what Ainsley likes...
Mah if later for example Ainsley actually went mamah hugging Ainsley once aja well Mah...
Ainsley doesn't know why Mom hates Ainsley...
But Ainsley's sorry Mah...
I've made Mamah's life messy...
Judah! If you want to die, don't bother anyone!
Promise by Mah...
If later Ainsley who goes first someday Mamah will hug Ainsley once...
Aye! If you're really dead, I hug! Basic attention seekers!
Mama promised, right? Don't deny Mah...
Instantly a round of memory of the promise he made flashed in his mind, he remembered the first time the girl had attempted suicide.
He did not even ask his reasons but immediately blamed, cries and facial features of his daughter that he could not lose at this time.
The beautiful girl continuously apologized for her life, a life she could not even choose.
His spicy remarks that made the spirit of the girl's life collapse.
Her poor beautiful daughter just wants to get her hug, a warm hug she should be able to easily give a mother.
However he was reluctant and even the girl to ask for his embrace when he was no longer there. Although the words he uttered were like a curse of death, he remembered that the girl once again gave her smile in the midst of a sad look and tears.
The face that he could not feel to make his heart as if pierced by a hot spear.
"Where's ainsley? If Ainsley comes home, Mamah will hug...
Excuse me...
Huhuhu.." her crying became more and more.
Memory revolves, about the girl's childhood to adulthood.
Maafin Mamah's...
Mama should have hugged you...
Mama shouldn't have hit you at that time...
Excuse me...
Ainsley's home...
Ainsley's coming home, right?
Now even to hug the body of his sweet daughter alone he could not because even the pieces and fragments of his body were gone without a trace and the rest.
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Ainsley Setya Belen
