Never Gone (Health and Obsession)
Hallucination
The clinking sound of the rotating clock slowly woke the girl in her sleep.
The refreshing and gentle aroma that smelled in his sense of smell made him familiar, a warm embrace enveloped him.
Sean's? Am I still dreaming? If it's a dream I won't wake up...
His inner self when looking at the face of the man who fell asleep at the side while holding her tightly.
The man began to squirm and woke up from his sleep. His eyes instantly locked onto the iris that was staring at him.
"Morning, babe." said the man smiling gently as he kissed the top of the girl's head and clenched her again.
Those expressionless eyes and face were still unable to tell the difference between the dream and the reality he felt after all the nightmare-like journey for him.
The hand that swept and gently stroked her back made the girl again close her eyes while inhaling the scent of the body of the man she had already recognized so well.
Time passed and the girl went back to sleep quietly while the man who clenched her could no longer close his eyes other than thinking of a way for her to open his voice and say all when he was rightreally awake.
...
"Awake? Hm?" a crashing sound entered the girl's ears when she opened her eyes again.
He looked at the man sitting on the edge of the bed while stroking his face.
There was no answer at all just the blank stare of the greenish-brown iris that was continuously looking straight.
"Wake up, aren't you hungry? It's 10." said Sean as he pulled and woke the girl.
Ainsley was still silently staring without a word.
"Ainsley?" call Sean again while holding the girl's hand.
The man stared then turned his face away, for some reason he felt the girl's gaze was already 'Dead' nothing can be read from the eyes that used to be always able to show all the emotions he felt.
"We eat first" said Sean as he went out and took the food that his girl liked.
After all had been prepared and all kinds of food that the girl liked in front of her eyes.
"You like this, don't you? Eat ya?" said the man while giving a spoonful of food that he used to like the girl the most.
Ainsley looked down at the food that was thrust on him, he did not say anything but he still obeyed like a doll that had been given a battery.
After chewing and starting to swallow her tummy the girl churned, she felt disgusted and could not swallow the food.
Hoek!
The girl immediately ran to the bathroom and spewed out the food she had just swallowed.
Is.deg...
Her heart was racing, her stomach was feeling so nauseous, her face was starting to pale.
A flash of memory during his captivity flows like a video loop in his head, maybe as long as he was kidnapped who did this only one man but in his shadow he had slept with two men.
Uncle who he considers like a father and a masked man who continues to threaten him because he saw the massacre in the forest.
The liquid is still there! Disgust...
The girl's mind breathed heavily and her chest began to feel tight. For him every food that goes into his stomach will turn dirty until he vomits.
The life liquid that he had to swallow and the kiss that made his saliva gulp the man made him even feel dirty up inside his body.
"I-I'm where? I-this is still a dream, right?" his murmurs stared at the spacious and clean bathroom.
He is certainly very familiar with the design of his lover's mansion but the girl is starting to be unable to distinguish between hallucinations, dreams, and his real life.
"Ainsley?!" call Sean who immediately catches up with her because her girl suddenly goes spewing her food.
The girl flinched and immediately closed and tightly locked her door. His legs felt powerless and immediately fell onto the cold floor.
"Dreams...
I-I'm fine, I met her so I don't want to get up.." she muttered as she closed her ears trembling.
Be okay? You think a bad girl like you deserves to be okay?
A voice that sounded mocking in his ears.
"Who?" muttered Ainsley while crouching and staring at the room that no one was in.
While Sean continues to try to break down and call his name from the outside with a sense of worry that envelops him.
Bad boy! Damn bearers like you want to be okay?! You want to be happy?!
The hallucinations that made the girl continuously made her hear the sound that hurt her.
"Ma-mom? Where's mama?" his murmuring with a soft voice was almost inaudible.
Take it easy this isn't real...
You're forgot? we're just pretending...
The voice that was whispering back affected her within her small head.
"That-not real? I want to get up.." said her softly with a trembling voice and a shedding cry.
It's disgusting! I don't want to be with you anymore!
You're filthy!
The girl gasped this time she heard the voice of her lover who was throwing her away.
"Se-san? Ma-sorry.." his murmur grew more terrified shaking violently.
Bad girls should be punished, right?
You idiot! Why is it always so hard?! Fucking kid!
Stop making trouble, you know my job is a lot, right?
Hows it? I can satisfy you more, right? You don't want to be here? Hm?
"Be-stop! Ja-don't talk anymore." said his increasingly close his ears tightly but the voices he heard were getting fused in his ears.
The trembling legs also gradually woke up and stared at the reflection of himself from the mirror in front of the lavish bathroom sink.
Your body is so impressive, I want it again...
The girl's eyes are perfectly rounded when now her hallucinatory voice even has a form, masked man and the middle of kissing his nape from behind is clearly visible from the mirror reflection where he stands.
"Ja-don't." his murmurs were getting drowned in these painful hallucinations.
Cheapo! If you knew you were this woman I wouldn't be with you anymore! Even punishing you feels so disgusting!
"Se-san?" her words were softly seen the shadow of her lover.
Looking at it like dirt that must be removed with a disgusting and puffy look.
It's a fucking kid! Why don't you die too?! You living can only be another person's source of misery!
"Ma-mamah.." call her softly when the mother's voice is heard by her.
Those hateful eyes and ever-sharp gaze even hurt the girl deeply.
Why is princess Belen lacking so much? You're an heir! Disappointing!
"Pa-papah?" her words again are getting crying.
Highlight the eyes that are always cold and ignoring, the gaze that hurt her the most compared to the sharp gaze of the mother who so hated her.
The pain given by the closest person adds 100 times compared to people who are nobody.
"Stop! Stop over...
I beg you.." she cried while pulling the vase and smashing the mirror in front of her instantly.
!!!!
Mirror flakes that immediately fall scattered giving a reflection that
His head felt broken with tremendous pain he was really unable to make him want to go crazy right now.
You're a bad boy...
Must be legal...
Again the voice that came back was heard, not anyone's voice but the voice was able to affect him.
"Really...
I'm naughty." said the girl softly as she picked up the sharp pieces of mirror that fell scattered.
His hands clasped tightly to make cuts and a thick red liquid flowing between his grasp.
Now you're gonna have to be punished, 'cause you're being naughty...
A voice that was like a hug enveloped her and exerted an influence on the girl.
His body began to calm no longer shaking violently, his crying began to subside, his panic began to decline.
BRAK!!!
The door finally opened wide when the man managed to open it.
"Ainsley?" call her softly with worry that envelops her.
He looked at the girl who was standing with puffy eyes and gaze as well as an empty facial expression and a hand covered in blood as she held the mirror flakes so tightly.
Sean came closer and immediately wanted to reach the girl's hand to release the sharp glass shards.
"You're lulling"
CRASS!!
His speech was cut off, his steps halted instantly and the fresh blood instantly splashed onto his face.
He pecked for a moment because he was so surprised to see the girl cut the pulse on his neck suddenly even to make the fresh blood hit his face.
"Ainsley!" call Sean and instantly catch the body of the girl who fell in front of him after cutting her own neck pulse.
"What are you doing?!" asked the man in a trembling voice while capturing his girl body.
Fresh blood continued to drench the man's hand which flowed from his lover's neck. He trembled for a moment he was unable to process it because he was so shocked and returned the trauma of his childhood when he saw the death of his mother.
"Ja-don't." Her eyes began to water her hands increasingly trembling and head that can't think clearly.
The man's panic and trauma begin to return when he sees the woman he loves look like a shadow of the mother's tragic death.
Ainsley stared blankly at the man who was dropping tears in front of her, for her this was all just a dream in spring that had to be awakened.
The girl's trembling hands began to lift and rubbed the tears of the man who was staring and embracing her body.
His face was pale with blood that kept flowing out in his body but numbed all his pain. His eyes began to shut when his consciousness was exhausted.
The trembling little hand stopped wiping away her lover's tears and fell down instantly.
"Ainsley's...
Ja-don't." the man trembled even more.
He wants to get up and take her to the hospital but the trauma he has is holding her back and inhibiting her and just making her look like a fool who has to fight all those horrible memory pieces in order to be able to saving the girl he loved.
I'm naughty...
So law me...
I Want to escape...
This pain has shackled me...
But I don't deserve...
I'm a naughty, a pesky carrier, stupid, dirty and disgusting...
So I have to be punished...
