Never Gone (Health and Obsession)

Just remember me...

3 Days later.

Sean looks happy because his girl already has some small changes though still not like before.

He brushed the long, silky hair gently so as not to hurt Ainsley.

"Sean.." said slowly and softly but the man could still hear it.

The man smiled and immediately flipped the girl's body to see her, she put down her comb and looked at her lover's iris deeply.

"I like it when you call me." said her happily as she kissed the girl's cheek.

Ainsley did not refuse or reply to any words, he just let his lover continue to kiss his gnarled cheek.

"You want to sleep? My Ainsley is going to bed?" he said while holding the girl like a child.

"I'm not a child" she said with an expressionless flat face to her lover as her body was raised like a toddler.

"You're so light, so eat more so you can grow bigger" Sean smiled and took the girl to his patient's bed.

He put the girl to sleep and covered her, her hands played the girl's hair by rolling her up and kissing her.

"I'm going out, I don't want to be here" she told the man playing with her hair.

Sean was silent for a moment, he was planning to get the girl out of the hospital and take care of her college move abroad.

...

Flashback.

"Ainsley?" call the man to stare at his crying lover.

He immediately approached her and hugged her, "Why? Hm? Is anyone sick again?" asked the man while removing the clear circles that fell in his girl's eyes.

"I no longer have a mother." she involuntarily smiled but continued to drop her clear circle.

The man gasped for a moment, knowing that the girl was starting to let go one by one which hurt him.

And that fear comes up again, afraid that if the girl really thinks clearly and chooses to let go of her as well.

"Pst...

Already, it's okay." her words calmed her girl in her arms.

Flashback.

...

"Of course, you can get out of here. Be patient in a moment, yeah." said the man stroked his lover's head gently.

The girl also brushed off the hand that was stroking her and woke up looking at the man in front of her.

"Sean doesn't have to come here anymore, I'm fine." she stared at the iris of the man in front of her.

"Why didn't I come? My boyfriend is here, I'm not calm about leaving you." said the man who tried to control his surprise.

"Then we just stop, after all I'm just a burden, right? Sean could have gotten a better da-"

"What did you say?! Try again!" sean said in a high tone that was unable to control himself.

"Sean often said that too, right? I'm just saying the same thing," the girl replied with her blank face emitting nothing.

The man was silent for a moment, he had indeed always used such a threat to make his girl obedient and at this moment he was getting the same.

"Only I can determine when our relationship ends!" said the man staring intently at his girl's iris.

"I'm dirty," Ainsley who immediately said this suddenly, "And now it feels really uncomfortable.." he continued.

"I don't care! You stay with me! You belong to me!" tympan Sean firmly.

"I've slept with another man! You don't understand?!" the girl screamed and began to close her ears tightly.

Whenever the memory of having such a deep relationship with another man appears, the fear and disgust of him returns.

"Then?" ask the man with a face like it's nothing.

"Sean hates her! You hate her! Because I'm dirty." said the girl while returning the lover's gaze.

He feels guilty every time, the man behaves well to him, all the attention given now becomes a burden and makes him uncomfortable.

"I'm dirty Sean! Stop being nice! I'm not comfortable at all!" cut the girl straight away.

"Then you want me to punish you?" asked the man staring at his lover.

The girl shook her head, she did not know what she wanted, she did not want to be punished but she also could not feel comfortable about the attention and good attitude given her lover.

"Then what do you want? I'll give it to you, but if you want to split up I don't want to! I don't agree!" Sean kept asking the girl.

While Ainsley started dropping the clear feathers in her eyes again, she was still in the stage of knowing herself.

Trying to sort out what is best for him, and it is not an easy thing at all.

"I...

I don't know.." replied her softly with a cry that sounded like that.

"Ainsley's? You're the victim, they forced you. If you do it on purpose then I'll just get angry." he said by trying to set the tone so as not to make the girl more afraid.

Controlling her anger and possessiveness is the hardest thing for her because her world is currently focused on the girl.

"Not.." said Ainsley shook his head, "Not forced.." he continued softly.

Although he does not remember much, but the time before him when doing this with the man he called uncle without any coercion and his body really reacted and wanted a deeper touch without he knew if he had been given drugs before his.

"You mean?" sean asked frowning, the girl admitted that there was no force at all but her entire body shook.

"Ainsley?!" snapped her and made the girl jerk and get even more scared.

"I-I don't know...

It all just happened...

I don't remember.." she cried with trembling and dropped her clear feathers.

He never opened his voice about what happened to him when he disappeared one week even on dr. Canly once though.

"I-I don't know...

But I've done it." she said again, for the girl the memory of her being stained is her biggest blow and her biggest trauma.

Although when he did it may not feel anything but when he realized his situation it was more terrible than the physical punishment he received from his mother or her lover.

"They gave you something?" asked the man staring intently at his lover.

The girl did not answer but increasingly dropped her clear circle, while Dean himself knew that such a relationship could not be forgotten if done in full consciousness.

"You remember the first time we did that?" ask Sean again and make the girl crouch.

Ainsley nodded because he was very conscious when his chastity was taken away and all the pain he felt at that time.

"Now do you know the difference?" sean asked the girl.

He himself is also not a good man or naive, before dating Ainsley he often fucked some women he dated or even do one night stand while drunk, he often sleeps, because for him he does not need to limit himself to anyone, he does not have the feelings and heart that he must take care of.

"Just like I'm Humph!" his words were cut off as the muttering of the man closed his voice.

Sean continued to hold the nape of the girl and put her back to sleep, the tiny and tiny hand trying to push the chest of her lover field.

"If you want to forget it, you have to override it with new memories and now you have to remember that I'm the only one who touches you." said the man softly.

He was confused about how to deal with his girl again, his anger peaked when the girl asked to separate but he did not want to destroy the girl who was like a thin glass and held his anger as much as possible.

His mind could not think clearly, he began to act impulsively and could no longer be rational, because not only Ainsley was depressed but he was just as depressed as the girl.

And what he is doing right now has two different outcomes with the same bet, the girl may be able to forget the trauma when he was stained before her and replace the memory of his lover's touch.

But he could also feel more afraid and depressed to the point of major depression.

"This time will not hurt, calm down." whispered her while lowering her kiss to the arch of the neck of the level.

His hands held tightly to the two trembling little hands, locking the movement until he could not carry out rebellion.

"Stop.." said her softly with a faint cry as she felt the suction on her neck.

"It's me, forget those who touched you and just remember me.." whispered her once again and peeked at the girl's wet cheeks.