Never Gone (Health and Obsession)
Appreciate and love yourself.
Sean stared at the sleeping girl at the moment, he rubbed his face violently and heavily exhaled.
The girl's parents have urged her to stop psychiatric therapy and send her home because they don't want to ruin the family name if the heir of a well-known music foundation and university has a mental disability.
While the problem of her mother's death is getting closer but other things continue to come to her.
"You why? Hm? Before it will be fine." his words softly looked at the girl's face.
He was told if his lover had a sudden sudden attack that made him have to be given a sedative again.
...
At 12:45 am.
The girl woke up from her sleep, no warm hands grasping her.
Her eyes were crouching in search of the man who had accompanied her for the past few days.
"You awake? Wh why? The nightmare? Hungry?" sean asked as he just walked into his lover's room.
He looked at the girl who was up and walking with a restless face, "Ainsley?" call her again staring at her girl.
Sean went out to buy some food for himself because he had not had dinner at all while he was in the company and bought some snacks that his girl liked.
"Would you eat with me?" his words while showing a snack that the girl likes in front of him.
Because there was no answer, the man just smiled and went to the sofa to put the food he just bought.
Greb!
His steps came to a halt as he felt a hand suddenly grabbing and hugging his strapping body from behind.
The small hand that was being coiled on his field chest looked frightened, even the body that when he was attached to it was also unable to hide the extremely agitated feeling.
"Ainsley's? Why?" call Sean gently while holding the hand that hugs him tighter.
"Se.an.." said her softly with almost no sound at all.
The man jolted he immediately released the circle of hands and flipped his body as fast as lightning upon hearing the shrill voice of his lover.
"So you spoke, right? Can you talk already? Try calling me again!" said the man excitedly as he cupped his lover's soft cheeks.
Tests....
One clear circle fell on the girl's cheek as her eyes stared blankly at her lover.
"Lohs?! You cried? Why?" asked the man who was astonished because his girl was crying suddenly.
There was no answer other than the clear circle of the golden-green-brown iris, but Ainsley who spontaneously re-embraced the man in front of her.
"You want to be hugged? Shhh...
Don't cry, I won't ask you any more." said the man as he returned his lover's embrace.
Crying, resisting even fear upon seeing her had already started to make the man accustomed to the sudden attitude patterns of his lover.
After starting to calm down the man tried to bring her back to sleep in the usual patient bed, but the girl did not want to at all.
"Like her you're starting to improve, now it's back to being stubborn.." seduced Sean while gently rubbing her lover's hair.
Because Ainsley who did not want to go to the patient's bed, the man took his lover to the sofa and put her to bed.
The girl made her man's thigh as a cushion on her head, she didn't want to be alone. Although it does not mean he is safe when with the lover, but for him this is better than alone.
"Have you slept?" muttered the man while staring at the face of his already calm girl.
......................
Skips.
7 Days later.
Counseling room.
The girl kept her head down or stared blankly and reluctantly answered all her talk to her psychiatrist.
"Miss, appreciating and loving others is a good thing. But the lady must also be able to appreciate and love herself" said dr. Canly with his friendly smile and gentle face.
The girl linked her fingers one by one with anxiety, she did not like this kind of talk to make her want to come out immediately.
"Nothing to let go of something that hurts us, it's okay to also reject something that will make us hurt" said dr. Canly herself.
The girl grumbled at the middle-aged woman in front of her who was smiling kindly by displaying a few wrinkles on the tip of her eyes that looked like a crescent moon.
"Me..let go?" his words were so slow that they were barely heard.
The girl felt she had nothing, but the woman in front of her said it was okay to let go of something that hurt her.
Dr. Canly smiled in the past week the girl had already spoken three times including calling her lover's name.
Although still very quiet, this has included great progress for his mental development.
"Yes...
The way to appreciate and love yourself starts with something like that" he said again, smiling at the girl.
...
His footsteps halted momentarily in front of the door which should be his easy entry. But the heart that was already as hard as the stone was brushed off all his feelings of pity.
Disappointment and resentment are upon her husband and make his little daughter as an outlet of her endless and unwarranted fury.
He opened his door slowly and saw the girl sitting quietly like a statue engraving with her calm face.
"When are you here? You want to keep going crazy like this? The media will know sooner or later, don't you think about your family's reputation?" tell her mother when she comes to her daughter.
There is no answer of any kind just empty eyes that look at the woman who used to be very eager for her affection.
"Answer! You mute?!" fanny said as she touched her daughter's shoulder.
Ainsley was still silent, he had begun to be able to communicate even though thanks to his psychiatrist's therapy, just saying a few words that he could get out of his lips.
It's okay to let go of something that hurts us, it's okay to also reject something that will hurt us.
The girl looked at her mother with my eyes, the words of the psychiatrist who diligently took care of her began to make memories in her head.
His hands began to reach for the bag that the woman was wearing standing in front of him. His lips began to try to speak and let out his voice as much as possible.
"A...
Am I really Mamah's daughter? Do you love Ainsley?" said the girl with all her might with her soft and weak voice.
In the past month, this was the longest sentence he had ever said.
Plaque!
Fanny immediately brushed off the girl's hand violently like avoiding the dirt she wanted to throw away.
"Hm, you're my daughter and that's what pisses me off!" he said with great emphasis.
The girl silently stared at her hand which was on the brute brim.
"My regret is giving birth to you! I never expected a princess like you!" add it again while pushing the little shoulder of the girl.
The girl looked at her mother with my eyes and was so sad as to ask her questions inside.
"You kind of want to ask 'Why was I born?' Hm?" fanny asked as she stared at the clear iris that began to water.
"You were just a one-night mistake, and I didn't even know that 'mistake' could come alive!" he said while looking at the girl.
Ainsley was silent, now he was completely aware that his presence had never been desired by his mother.
"Then don't be Mamah Ainsley again. From now on Mamah's daughter is no longer there," she said unconsciously looking at the mother with her eyes glazed.
Fanny frowned her eyes at the face of her daughter who spoke uncharacteristically.
"Do you remember the promise you made? Mom would hug me if I was really dead, wouldn't she?" said the girl again with a choked throat.
He began trying to 'Honor himself' starting from the thing that became a thorn in his heart.
"We just cancel the promise, now that Mamah is free, I will also assume not to have a mother anymore" he said unconsciously dropping a clear circle from his eyes.
Degs...
Fanny gasped at the words of her daughter she never thought, "You want to fight your parents?! Want to be a rebel?!" he said with annoyance while giving a sharp look.
"I've never had parents, I wonder how it feels, if I have I will know how it feels" he said with a clear circle that is increasingly falling.
The girl began to use formal language on her mother like talking to someone else with a higher rank.
"You-you!" fanny said surprised by the look of the girl who made her waver the first time, "Bas on the son of an unlucky bearer!" decak her with want to come out immediately.
"I hope the mistress can live happily, and I will do my best as Bellen's daughter." Ainsley who replied in a weak and faltering voice unconsciously her lips smiled amidst the melt of her tears that kept coming out.
His steps came to a halt and turned to look at his daughter's face once again crying with a clashing smile, disappointed eyes and sadness that looked fused but looked relieved at once.
Fanny still came out and slammed her door upset because of her suddenly chaotic mood.
BRAK!!!
Silent...
The girl was alone again, her broken cry immediately spilled out all the stifled tears, she closed her mouth tightly with her small hands so as not to hear the roaring sound.
Be ill...
I can't breathe...
Her chest felt tight, all her hopes had completely collapsed would be the one word 'Mother' she had always craved since childhood.
The barbed wire that was wrapped tightly in his heart tried to pull it out by force so as not to hurt him even more.
Although at this time he is more injured but the wound will be healed when his thorn has been removed and does not perch anymore.
I'll be fine...
His inner self while evaporating all his tightness and spilling clear circles in his eyes.
