Never Gone (Health and Obsession)

You're my world

Ainsley was silent and pensive for a while, he had already returned to the apartment, somehow the man was persuaded and finally escorted him back.

The cold water that enveloped her and the sound of shower whirring that hit her body did not in the least make the girl feel her.

Her long hair was soaked, she soaked her body in a bathup and sat down by hugging her small knees.

His mind was empty, he did not know how to think clearly when he knew all of a sudden and his small head had to accept everything spontaneously.

Her small hand that had her well-groomed lightning nails was involuntarily starting to claw at her other wrist as a form of venting her shock and shock, and that's the strong reason why he's in full psychiatric observation.

Because he will be able to hurt himself even endanger himself without realizing it, not only that he can also hurt others when his emotional outbursts overflow and uncontrollable.

"I have to what? I was afraid.." murmured as he closed his eyes to calm down and drowned his face into the bath that had been filled with water.

He did not feel any pain at all in his wrist that had been injured due to his own scratches, he would not be aware of the pain until his healthy mind returned again.

Blup...

His breathing almost stopped, but he did not feel he could have died because he drowned himself unconsciously.

Ainsley?! Hold your hand big brother!

The deg!

His eyes opened and immediately wide open, he immediately got up and sat down and breathed as much as possible from his nose.

Huh.hah...

His still-sounding breath filled and mingled with the flaming shower as well as the sound of excess water spilling from his bath.

"Who is he?" he muttered as he heard another voice and saw the face of a 7 or 8 year old boy who was worried about him then pulled his hand out as his breathing would come to a halt.

"Auch!" her ringis as she begins to feel pain in her wrist due to a cut from her scratch.

He saw and scrunched his forehead, because he did not realize he was the one who hurt himself.

The girl let out a heavy sigh and covered her face with both of her small hands, yet round eyes, her gentle face and warm hands were pulling her out although her whole body was cooling so bothersome.

He did not know anything about it, but the thing he could never do was swim, there was a feeling of fear, tightness, and discomfort, while doing it.

Ainsley closed for a moment and finished his bath, he put on his clothes and went to his fridge to see what could fill his empty stomach.

"Nobody.." his murmur suddenly remembered with his ex-lover who always filled his fridge because he knew he could not cook.

Sean...

He remembered the man, but he did not have the confidence to be with him anymore, the feeling of dirty and inappropriate always enveloped him to make him uncomfortable.

Not to mention when his body and mind still remember the fear and trauma because the punishment he used to always receive from his ex-lover makes him more anxious and feel if the man can change when just throw it away anytime.

He went to take his wallet and to the minimarket not far from his apartment.

Ainsley also opened the door of his apartment until his steps stopped, his eyes locked for a moment on the iris of the man in front of him who had come terbesit on his small head.

"Sean?" his murmurs looked at the man.

"Here, your food must be over, right?" sean said while giving a bag of food that has always been a favorite of the girl.

"When did you come? Why not come in?" ainsley asked awkwardly as she closed the kiss-scattered reflex on her neck.

"You haven't changed the password yet?" sean asked while looking at the awkward and uncomfortable face in front of him

Ainsley kept quiet and threw away his gaze, he had not changed the apart password that the man had made for him.

"Can I come in?" sean said again and made the girl look back at him.

"Can," Ainsley replied involuntarily and let the man enter her apartment.

Sean remained silent, not saying what he meant, while Ainsley put what the man had brought to the table.

"Let's go back to dating" said the man who suddenly broke the silence.

Ainsley was aghast and immediately looked back at Sean, he did not know how to answer him but of course there would be a rejection that ejected from his lips.

"I can't.." he murmured softly.

"Why? You really don't like it anymore? Or do you no longer need me?" sean asked closer to the girl.

This time he could see the marks left on the girl's neck.

Ainsley followed in the footsteps of the man in front of her and knew where the direction of the man's concern was.

"Do you know the reason? Sorry yesterday pushed you.." said Ainsley softly while trying to release the hand that was holding his arm.

"With him? What have you done so far?" asked the man in a raucous voice looking at the bowed iris and looking at her.

Ainsley shook his head, he was also still shocked by all of her and he was also very heavy to say all the complete events he experienced besides claiming that he was dirty.

"Find the good woman Sean...

I can't anymore." replied the girl in a stifled voice and continued to bow.

"I can't! For me it's just you! Not the others!" sean replied in a high tone when his emotional outburst came.

"Sean! You don't understand?! I did it with him when we were in touch! And the other thing." cried Ainsley with a cry and continued with raucous in his last sentence.

"you mean? Is there something you're hiding from me?" sean asked as he pulled Ainsley's arm closer toward his face.

"of course...

If I tell you I won't be important, you'll throw me away, because it's not what you want, is it?" ainsley answered with another question.

Embedded a doubtful seed in his head long ago, and it was all because of the punishment he always received.

"Ainsley?" call Sean don't understand.

"You used to want to be with me because I'm still pure, right? You said it yourself, you forgot?" ainsley asked softly looking at the man.

Sean scrunched his forehead, remembering when he had said it until his memory was fixed on the moment he punished his girl.

You're...

Want to be with me because it's still pure?

Of course, that's your advantage. If someone else took it before me. Then what else will pull from you...

"I don't mean it that way." said Sean cirih, he used to deliberately say so so that his girl could be more at distance with other men and not used as predatory material because of his innocent nature.

"Seans...

I don't even know anything about you." Ainsley said softly, for three years in a relationship he didn't even know what problems were being handled even the problem of 'unlawful children' he knew it from Danny before.

"What do you want to know about me?" sean looked at the girl.

"All about you, your problems, anything...

You never said anything Sean, you just made me think for myself." replied Ainsley softly.

"My problem? How can I tell him?! You have other problems, I can't tell you, I don't want you to be burdened, so I told you to 'Wait'!" sean replied with a strong statement because he did not lie at all.

"That color you're using me? Or because you still need our relationship so you still want to date me again?" ainsley asked assuming he was because the man in front of him always kept all his own.

"What?" Sean was confused by Ainsley's words.

"I heard what your mother said when she went to the mansion, you were going out with me to reach the position of president right? You also said I'd be more helpful if I was heir to B'One university?" ask the girl.

His family does have a big influence on the world of education in his country, and even already has a name in his international level.

Sean shook his head, although he once wanted to use the girl but he could not do it when the feelings he had now were real.

"I want to destroy them, so I need that position, Ainsley...

Please please...

Now it's just you." replied the man in a raucous voice and restrained.

"I can help you get the position you want, but we can't go back to how we used to be." replied Ainsley with a cry, however, he still could not accept himself.

"Now I don't want any more! I just want you! I beg you." said the man in a desperate voice.

"Seans...

You know what I want? Freedom, happiness...

But I hurt Sean...

I'm sick, I really feel like I'm going crazy!" ainsley replied softly, the clear circles in his eyes continued to flow profusely to make his sad face more visible.

"Ainsley, please have one more chance, I'll change everything! I'll make you free and happy!" sean said enthusiastically while cupping the girl's tiny hand.

"I don't deserve Sean...

I can't, don't be like this." replied Ainsley who tried to let go of the man's hand.

"Do I have to sleep with other women? If I do that too you'll feel yourself worthy?" sean asked with a crazy idea in his head because he no longer knew what to say.

"The world isn't centered on me Sean...

You can still find the others." replied Ainsley softly.

In addition to feeling inappropriate, he also did not want the man in front of him to experience something bad because Richard had begun to target him.

"But my world is you...

You're not conscious? You're my world, where else should I look?" sean replied as he stared fixedly at the girl's iris.

Ainsley could feel confidence and honesty in the words he had just heard but there was no way for him to return.

Ainsleys...

Please please...

Don't make me do something you hate...

I don't want to hurt you anymore...