Forced to endure

Chapter 86

Adji POVs

What exactly is the relationship between Vinda and the man? It's been five years since I've seen them together, why haven't they formalized their relationship? Do I have to back off and give up on my hopes of getting back with him?Or should I fight for what I want?

I am happy to have met my children and Linda but I am also sad because I feel I am no longer a special person to them. There's that guy there. Perhaps he has replaced my position in their hearts.

"Dji, when are you coming home?" welcome my mother as soon as I get to her house. I went straight to my mother's house after Winda's house.

"Last noon, ma'am" I replied. Mom looked happy to see me.

"You bought me a gift?" Mom saw the parcel in both my hands. I nodded and handed the parcel to my mother.

"I also bought Maya and Vino."

"Yes, I'll leave it to Maya. He must be happy."

Then I sat down and talked to my mother. I feel alien in this house even though I used to live here.

"You look different, Adji. You're like a successful person." Mother kept looking at me with admiration. "You've got another car, you've got to pay a lot now."

I just kept quiet. I started talking about money. I know where it's headed.

"Did you often visit my children?" ask me to divert mother's conversation. It's not that I don't want to give mom any money, but I've already given her a monthly ration, and I also have plans for my own life. I don't want to tell mom if I have enough money to buy a house.

Mas Arya got a piece of inheritance from the father, and this house should have been inherited for me. But instead Maya and her nice husband will stay here while I have to pay if I want to stay. I don't want to make a fuss, especially with my own family. So I have to start thinking about myself.

"Yes ... Sometimes mom visits them."

"Do you know who the man who was close to Vinda was?" Maybe I can dig up information from mom.

"Mom doesn't know. But the man that I had met at that time still often visited Winda. Even your kids talk about that guy a lot when mom visits."

"Do you still want to go back to Vinda?!" hardik mom.

I'm speechless.

"Adji, now that you've been successful, can't you find another woman?"

"Didn't my insistent mother want me to go back to Vinda?"

"That was first ... Time is more successful than you. Now you are successful too. So better find another one."

Mom changed her mind quickly.

"You're now handsome Adji, still like a bachelor man. So if you want to get married again, mending you find a rich wife all together."

"Winda is successful, but you can know if you want more than him. You've failed, if repeated again surely the result will not be good."

I don't think about my mother's way of thinking. He used to want me back with Winda. Now mom forbids me just because she thinks I'm now more successful than Vinda.

"Why did Mom? Winda is still alone, I am still alone. I still want to go back to him if Winda wants to. For the sake of the children too."

"You know that I never used to obey Adji."

I better get back to the hotel. Mother has returned to being the one who feels the most right so I better give up.

"I'd better go. It's night, ma'am" I said standing up.

"Where are you staying? Why not just stay here?"

"Ngapain stay at the hotel, stay here only. The money you make at the hotel can be for you." Mother never changed. It was always money and money that he thought of.

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Sinda

Keisha looks happy after meeting her father. Actually she wanted to come with her Papa to stay at the hotel but I didn't allow it, maybe next time.

This afternoon Mas Adji took me to lunch, the two of them. I don't know what he wants but I agree. From the store I went straight to the restaurant he mentioned.

"It's been a while?"

"Mas Adji nodded. "Lumayan."

"Sorry."

"It's okay. I'm the one who came too early."

Mas Adji looks clean and handsome. I'm still amazed to see Mas Adji change. He became someone completely different from the old Mas Adji. He was handsome, dignified and his carrier was more calm. How many times do I have to repeat it, he looks handsome.

If I don't remember everything he's done to me maybe I'll fall in love again when I see him like he is today but not anymore, Mas Adji was enough to be a good father to my children not to be my husband anymore.

"Win ... You know my desire never changes. I still want to be with you. I want us back together." Mas Adji immediately expressed his thoughts.

I'm speechless. It's not easy. Not something I can answer right away.

"I've admitted all my mistakes, I'm sorry and I've changed. Tell me what do I have to do to get you to accept me again?" Mas Adji started to grab my hand and hold it. Of course this makes my heart flutter.

"I'll have to think about it first." I'm pulling my hand. I didn't want to get dissolved by Mas Adji's touch and made me agree to it without thinking.

"Are you sure, Mom?"

"You know I never stop loving you. Please think about it, at least for the sake of the children."

After that we were just talking about the kids. Mas Adji was eager to find out about the children's stories during these five years. And then I went back to the store.

"Win, can talk for a second." I was surprised to see my in-laws waiting in the shop.

"What's wrong, ma'am?"

"Did you know Adji's home?"

I'm nodding. "Yes, Mas Adji has gone home and met Keisha and Kirana. Why is it, Mom?"

"Hmmm ... Are you thinking of making up with Adji?"

"Why did you suddenly ask like that?"

"Yes ... Adji may be successful now."

I still don't understand my in-laws. My attitude changes sometimes good, sometimes pretending to be good.

"Look Win, maybe you should look for someone else to replace Adji. Let him also find someone else to be his new companion. So I just want to tell you you shouldn't be so hopeful, let alone until you ask her to come back to you."

"Didn't the mother ask us to make up?"

"That was. Now that I think about it, maybe you guys are better off living alone."