Forced to endure

Chapter 15

Adji POVs

Finally, Vinda knew what I was doing. I don't know from where it's clear he knows everything. We had a big fight. I deny everything that Vinda accuses me when it is true.

I am a coward. Dare to do it but dare not admit it. I'm just afraid Winda won't forgive me. I denied that she wanted a divorce from me, especially if I admitted it. In a matter of days I will no longer be her husband.

Winda has even come to the house of RT sir to ask for a cover letter. I really can't lose him. I called my brother Mas Arya to help me convince Winda. And succeed.

Willa had to cancel or perhaps delay her intention to divorce from me. She was so angry that she would not sleep with me and chose to sleep in Keisha's room.

I try to be calm. Later I will take him for a walk to the mall and I tell him to shop everything he likes, must be lost his anger. I thought that was that easy.

I took Winda and Keisha to my mother's house. I rarely take them to visit my mother. I usually come alone.

Mom doesn't like Winda very much because she's already paired me with her best friend's son who is a nurse. I never told Winda this matter.

Mom's welcome wasn't so good when the three of us came. Mom was very indifferent to Winda. The treatment of Keisha's mother is also very different from the treatment of Vino, Maya's son. I could see it clearly but I pretended to be ordinary.

I was sitting next to my mother looking at the room we were sitting in digging up my childhood memories in this house. And somehow at first, I knew that my mother had lectured Vinda.

And it looks like mom's been talking long enough but I just realized it.

"What did you say?" as at that time.

But mom kept cornered Winda until I decided to take them home before the two women in my life threw each other glassware.

I don't know if Mas Arya has told mom about my problem with Winda. I don't think that far.

It's too much for me to treat Keisha, but what can I do? I dare not rebuke him. Later I will assume if Winda has made me dare to fight him, Willa will also be blamed. And I'm going to dislike Vinda even more.

But I also couldn't accept seeing mom being tough on Winda and Keisha. I'm in the wrong position. I can only separate them by taking Winda home.

Sure enough, arriving home, Winda was getting angry at me. His anger yesterday has not subsided now it is getting angry again because of my mother's attitude towards him.

He went back to talking about divorce. Even her desire to divorce from me was getting stronger because of the words of the mother earlier. Once again I told him, there will never be a divorce between us.

I'd rather avoid than fight with him again. I stayed in my room and thought about everything. I wonder why he so easily decided to divorce me. Did he not think long? Is it that easy he wants to end our household?

But it all came back to me. I made a mistake, I'm afraid. But can't he talk to me about this first? I want to fix everything, not suddenly want a divorce like this. The word "divorce" that Vinda used to say always made me feel guilty.

A few days have passed. I know Winda is still mad at me. He kept quieting me. But I still act ordinary to him. I kept flirting and teasing him. Usually he always melts with my seduction but this time it's a bit difficult.

Let it go, I'll make room for him. Maybe that's what he needs now. I think he was just carried away by emotions for a moment, it will be a long time too.

I don't know how the story is that Winda met Eva. I don't know what Eva told him, which obviously Winda is urging me to confess. I'm just as likely to die if I confess my actions.

Eva means nothing to me in my life. I still wonder how I can be tempted. He's just a mistake I'll never repeat. There will only be a Winda in my life.

I continued to deny everything he accused me, although the longer the guilt further undermined my feelings.

As long as I don't confess and Vinda doesn't have any proof, she won't be able to get a divorce from me. Obviously I don't want to be separated from my joy.

Suddenly one afternoon I felt an excruciating pain in my feet. I tried to hold on but I wasn't strong. I finally decided to go home early.

And this is where my downfall begins. It's like a normal pain. No sores, just sometimes swelling but don't know why it doesn't heal.

To this day he is still angry with me. Yeah, I can understand that. He talks to me as necessary. He just walked into my room to deliver medicine and food. I am thankful that he still takes care of me.

I honestly miss my old sister. Winda who retorted teased me when I I teased him. Winda who often serve my complaints with his guyonnya so that I do not become complaining but instead laugh.

I miss my Winda. I miss hugging her bohay body. I miss everything about Vinda. It's hard to touch him now.

Sometimes I feel like Winda is stroking my legs. I didn't know it was hallucinatory or real because Winda always showed up when I was in pain.

One morning I wanted to ask him but I said it. I'm sure it's just a hallucination of the pain I'm feeling and also because I miss him so much.

One day my mother came to see me at home. Winda is not at home. Mom brought me her cooking, my favorite food.

Mom's been at my house long enough, but Winda hasn't come home yet. I hope that Winda comes home after mom comes home, so that they don't have to meet all of you.

At the moment, there are people cleaning at home. I must have thought a no-no about Vinda. I'm so worried that the two women I love will see each other.

But my expectations are not in reality. The winda has come home. I heard the sound of his motorcycle. My mom heard it too.

Mom was waiting in my room but Winda didn't come into my room. Finally, I came to Winda.

And as I was worried, my mother immediately threw out a word-for-word piercing feeling. It was clear from where I was sitting how my mother scolded Winda, bestowing all the blame on her.

I can't imagine how Winda feels. I only hear the pain, especially Winda. And until now I still wonder how he can be patient to face the attitude of such a mother.