Forced to endure

Chapter 81

I went upstairs and asked Keisha to come down. I also carried Kirana in my arms.

"Who wants to see Keisha Ma?" ask her while going down the stairs.

"You see below" I replied. I deliberately didn't tell Keisha if it was her papa who wanted to meet her. I wanted to give him a little surprise because he hasn't seen his papa in months.

"Mama just makes me curious."

Getting to the bottom of Keisha was like a confused person. He looked around looking for who he wanted to meet. While Mas Adji stood up while continuing to look at Keisha who was still unaware of his presence.

"Where is Ma ... ? Who's Keisha's girlfriend?"

I pointed at Mas Adji who had remained standing in his waiting place since earlier. His eyes continued to pay attention to Keisha who looked puzzled.

Keisha looked at Mas Adji for a moment and realized that the man in front of her was his father.

"Papa ...!!!!" Keisha immediately rushed into Mas Adji's embrace as usual when they met. Mas Adji caught Keisha's body and stood up while lifting Keisha's body into his arms.

Keisha hugged her papa for a long time, channeling the longing she had endured for months.

Keisha let go of her embrace and then they looked up. Keisha continued to look at her papa face while rubbing her cheeks filled with fine fur.

"Papa's son is big, now very heavy," said Mas Adji while glazed.

"Why be a gini? Keisha did not recognize papa," Keisha said as she continued to look at his face

"Yes Dear ... Papa's busy working until no time to shave."

"Papa's body is also thin, is papa sick again like before?"

Mas Adji shook his head. "Papa is well" replied Mas Adji with a smile but his tears began to drip.

Keisha hugged her father again. I prefer to stay away because I can't see the interaction between the two. After a while I wiped my tears and I approached them both.

"Why don't you ever see Keisha and adek? Don't you think we're the same?" Keisha rested his chin on Mas Adji's shoulder.

"Sorry, dear ... Papa has been busy lately. Papa ignored you. Forgive Papa .. " said Mas Adji while kissing Keisha's head. Tears did not stop dripping on her cheeks. Mas Adji hugged Keisha even tighter.

"Ma ... Papa won't stay with us anymore?" said Keisha who was still in the arms of her father and head that kept leaning on her shoulder.

Mas Adji's tears flowed more and more to hear Keisha's question. He almost sobbed but he managed to hold it. Luckily, Keisha's head kept on Mas Adji's shoulder so she didn't see her papa crying.

The point of meeting Keisha is to say goodbye because of her move. But he got a request to stay.

"Keisha often misses if old papa does not come," continued Keisha.

Mas Adji wiped his tears with one hand while the other supported Keisha.

"Mr ... Papa wants a pity ... But papa can not, Not ... not papa can not, but circumstances that are not possible. Keisha knows how papa and mama are doing now?"

Keisha raised her head and turned to look at me. He was already close to third grade, of course he could already understand what a farewell was. I think he just felt like he lost the papa figure that was always there for him and granted all his wishes unconditionally.

Keisha rested his head on Mas Adji's shoulder. He looked very spoiled in his papa's arms. Mas Adji took Keisha down and invited her to sit in the long chair where we had previously sat.

"Listen darling ... Papa came here because he wanted to say goodbye to you, just as good as mom. Starting next week the Pyapa will move the task out of town. So maybe Papa won't be able to see Keisha for a long time."

Keisha's face turned very gloomy and continued to look down. There was no cheerful laughter like the time he met his papa before.

"Later if Keisha kangen can call or video call Papa."

"Keep if papa's sick in there like who's taken care of?" Keisha's question successfully made Mas Adji sculpt. He was silent for a moment. Maybe she realized that was one of the memories embedded in Keisha's brain, when she was sick me and Keisha took care of her.

"Papa won't hurt. Papa will take care of himself so that later he can go home to see Keisha and adek."

"And Mama too, right?"

"Yes, of course Mama too."

I repeatedly twisted my body as if I was swinging Kirana's body but I was actually hiding my cries. I can't see them like this.

"Sepent ... Papa wants a fat sling too" said Mas Adji as he walked up to me. He grabbed Kirana's body from my sling and then came back to Keisha. And I followed behind him.

"Keisha don't be sad ... Later if Papa comes home, papa take Keisha as well as play, wherever Keisha wants."

There was no change in the expression of Keisha's face. He remained moody and looked heavy enough to let go of his father. Then Mas Adji turned his gaze to Kirana.

"Unfortunately Papa ... " Mas Adji kissed Kirana's cheek and hugged her. "I'm sorry papa, son," she whispered in Kirana's ear. One more clear feather dripped down his cheek. "Papa was never a good father to you." With a choking voice Mas Adji continued to whisper in Kirana's ear.

I don't know why I feel so sad when I hear what Mas Adji whispered in Kirana's ear. Unlike Keisha who used to feel the affection of her Papa, Kirana did not feel that at all. He met his father only a few times at the age of one year.

Mas Adji stood up and handed Kirana back into my arms.

"I can't stay here much longer Win, I can't. I can't bear this guilt."

Mas Adji hugged Keisha once again.

"Jaga ya Kei health, studying diligently and according to what Mama said." Keisha nodded. "Papa must go now." Mas Adji started to step on his feet.

"Papa .. " cried Keisha accompanied by tears that began to break. I handed Kirana over to her nanny and then I hugged Keisha to calm her down. "Don't cry dear ..." While Mas Adji stopped his steps then turned around and glued to look at Keisha.

I asked the babysitter to take Keisha and Kirana upstairs and after that I approached Mas Adji.

"Titip children Win ... Again I want to apologize for everything I've done to you."

I just nodded.

"Win ... If I come back later and become someone better, will you accept me again?"

I can't answer Mas Adji's question. It's hard to decide.

Mas Adji smiled to see me stay silent. "I'll try. Wait for me Willa ... "