Forced to endure

Chapter 10

"Excuse mother's words" Mas Adji said after he swallowed the medicine.

Obviously she heard everything her mother said to me because her mother scolded me right in front of her room.

I haven't been able to answer, my in-laws have followed into the room.

"Winda says you're sick from drinking a lot of booze. Is that true?"

Mas Adji was silent. Then he looked at me but I threw my face away.

"Tuh .. right? You're making another accusation, aren't you, Win? Yesterday you said Adji cheated, now you say Adji drinks?! What do you want Win? Tell me you don't want to be blamed for Adji's disease?!"

Now change me who turned to look at Mas Adji. I wonder how Mas Adji still did not want to admit his actions in front of his mother so I was again blamed and considered making accusations.

"It's Mom ... I'm not sick because of Vinda. He takes good care of me. I don't keep turning him on."

Mas Adji defended me but I was already upset.

"Take good care of you?! Look at your condition now! what kind of wife is she?!"

"Mom, please respect Vinda."

"Kok you're defending him instead of mom?"

"It's not so Mom ... "

"Better mommy's home! Long-long here, mom can be high blood!"

Hooray!!! heart cheering.

"That's on the table there's still a side dish I just brought. I'll be able to have Adji's dinner. That hurt Adji, so that's special for Adji" my in-laws said before leaving the room.

I returned to Mas Adji's room after driving my in-laws forward.

"You heard everything you said to me, didn't you?"

Mas Adji just nodded.

"Then why are you silent and not trying to explain the truth to your mother? You let me constantly blame me!"

Adji remained silent.

"If mom hates me so much, and you already have another woman, then why don't you grant my wish for divorce? What exactly do you want?!"

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It hasn't been nearly a month since Mas Adji got sick. Some doctors we have visited, various prescription drugs have also been given but the results are nil. I myself wonder why Mas Adji's legs are not healed even though from the outside it looks fine. Is this a doom like in the soap operas I often watch?

Doctors do not recommend hospitalization because the test results do not indicate other serious diseases. Uric acid levels in his body were normal but Mas Adji still often felt the pain even lately getting worse. He was in a lot of pain every time the soles of his feet touched something including the floor.

The last doctor we saw said that it was not just the effect of his gout, but there was a condition problem also in his leg. And a few more tests are needed to find out for sure.

Our savings are starting to run out. Plus it has been one month Mas Adji does not work, automatically this month we have no income, while the foot treatment Mas Adji continues to run. Although Mas Arya helped a lot in medical expenses, but I still worry about our financial condition, especially the cost of Mas Adji's treatment is not small.

"Win ... " Mas Adji called me from inside his room.

To this day I still sleep in Keisha's room.

"Please get me the potty, I want to pee" said Mas Adji after I entered his room.

I nodded and picked up the one Mas Adji mentioned. Lately he's done all his needs in bed.

"Win ... " Mas Adji called me back after I finished cleaning everything up.

"What Mas?" i approached.

"I'm sorry I've been troubling you" he said softly.

I'm silent. Honestly, I object to taking care of Mas Adji like this. Where's Eva the whore, where are her friends who used to get her drunk? Didn't Mas Adji spend more time with them? Turn he's sick none of it shows the trunk of his nose.

"You still mad at me?" ask again.

"I'll stay like this until you admit your guilt to me and be honest with your family about your foul behavior!" firmly answer.

Mas Adji was silent.

"And one more thing, I still want a divorce from you!"

"You can leave me when I'm like this, Win?"

I took a deep breath and thought. Right now I really want to separate from him, but not as passionate as that time. There's no heart if I have to leave him now.

"Let's just remember, I'll wait until you're healed while I find hard evidence of your actions with Eva. And until that happens, I'll take care of you as usual. I don't want people to think I dumped you after you got sick!"

"We're not getting a divorce Win!"

That's not really the answer I want to hear. I want Mas Adji to confess. I just want that honesty. I want to prove that I'm not making it up.

"Why Mas? Are you afraid that no one will take care of you?" I smiled wryly.

"Because I love you Vinda!"

Oh .... This sentence sounded like the first time he said it. Deep and meaningful. He said love, should I believe?

Mas Adji looked me in the eyes sharp and deep. He wanted to show that he wasn't lying.

"If you love me, there will definitely be no Eva among us!"

Mas Adji was silent. His eyes that were looking at me sharply now dimmed after hearing my reply.

"So silent, Mom? I need your honesty! How many times have you slept with that woman?!"

Mas Adji remained silent.

"Until when will you continue to deny? Are you going to continue to consider me a stupid wife that you can lie to as you please?! Answer me!!!"

"Win ... "

"I'm sick! I'm sick of always finding you home drunk! I'm sick of you doing what you want because you feel you've saved me! I feel humiliated when I find out you date that bitch a lot! I am tired of being blamed by your family every time something happens to you!!! I'm sick of everything!!!"

Finally all the wedge in my heart came out as well. I could cry after a month of emptiness and numbness.

"I'm sorry Win ... I'm sorry ..."

I kept crying to release the burden on my heart. The burden I carried alone in silence.

"Why are you that old man?" I cry in tears.

"What is my lack? Is it because of my body? Aren't you the one who wanted me like this?"

"Win ... Forgive Me ... I'm really sorry for you, "for the umpteenth time Mas Adji apologized.

I wipe my tears and then I lift my face to the man who is still my husband.

"Sorry for what?"

" I'm sorry I hurt you."

"That's it?"

Adji did not answer.

"Still not admitting your actions? You bravely came to that whore house as if you forgot you had a son and a wife at home. But you're afraid to admit it?!"

"Imagine his hand touching you I'm disgusted Mas!!!"

I left Mas Adji alone in his room and ran to my room. I gave up on this debate because it was so painful. Maybe some people think my problems are trivial, but this is huge for me.

I am a possessive and loyal wife. My husband is mine and I don't want any other woman to touch him. And vice versa. I belong to my husband, so I won't let another man touch me. That's my principle. I'm exaggerating? Might as well.