Forced to endure

Chapter 52

Adji POVs

I'm so confused how to deal with all this. I don't want to be separated from Vinda but I also can't possibly avoid marrying Eva. What if it's my son?

I am so lazy to go home. Mom used to nag because I was going to part with Winda. Do you not remember, he used to often insult Winda and even scolded her. He showed his dislike to Winda blatantly. Now when I'm going to part with him he gets angry.

After work I decided to stop by the nightlife I used to visit. I want to reduce fatigue in the head and also avoid mother.

I accidentally met my old workmates in my office, which was a coincidence. They invited me to join them for a drink. And because I was dizzy thinking about my problem I accepted their invitation. The liquor became my escape.

I feel lucky to meet them. At least I can forget about my problems for a while. I came home late so there was no need to see my mother. Until a few days I did that, coming home from work straight to the entertainment and getting drunk so over and over again, that I had no time to contact Winda or Eva. I look like a coward hiding from trouble.

Until one afternoon my mother called me and told me if there was a subpoena from the religious court. My heart is pounding not because of. Winda wasn't messing around, he really did.

The next day I went straight home, no desire to stop by first. I want to see Winda immediately and get him to withdraw his lawsuit.

I just came home to get the call and went to see Winda. I looked for him at home but no one. He must have been stuck at the kiosk. I told her to stop completely for her health and the baby. Apparently he won't listen to me.

With a huff I rode my motorcycle to the Vinda stall. I went in without caring who was there.

"Win ... You can't make a unilateral decision like this. I won't divorce you anytime!"

Winda turned his head to hear my voice, he stared at the paper in my hands with his sad eyes. There's something different about Vinda but I don't know what.

"Did you not want to ask me how I was?" Winda answered me flat. Then he turned his face away from me.

I don't know what he meant to ask that question. Is it possible that he meant why some days I didn't update him or ask him how he was? Is that so?

"I have given birth. Don't you want to know?" said Winda later.

It took me a few seconds to be able to digest what Winda just said. She gave birth? Did I not hear wrong?

Jesus ... !!!

So what I've seen different from Winda since is his stomach. How did I not realize that??? I want to punch myself in the face.

When's? How could? How is my son now? Where's she? There was so much I asked but Winda would not answer any of my questions.

I was so frustrated to know how my son was but Winda still wouldn't tell me. She even started discussing Eva's pregnancy. Yes .. of course he already knows because Eva met him first before meeting me.

And I can guess, every mention of Eva must have been our conversation circled around there was no end to the base. She started screaming hysterically. I knew it was an outpouring of resentment in his heart, I could understand it.

I approached and hugged him. Guilt gnaws at my heart. Am I a man who has no conscience? Looking for warmth from another woman when my wife was pregnant, then drunk when my wife gave birth? What kind of man am I?!!

"Go ... " The cry of Vinda began to subside, then she let go of my embrace. His decision is final and cannot be changed. He was ready to part with me.

I tore up the subpoenas in front of Vinda and I left. I won't take it for granted.

I drove my bike at high speed and then I stopped in a quiet place. I parked my bike and I lit a cigarette to get rid of my grief. But it turns out that it didn't help at all. This regret filled my heart.

How's this supposed to be? I don't have a chance anymore. Winda won't even let me see my son.

How's she? Is she healthy? What's his face like? What's like me? Or beautiful like your mother? Or just like Keisha? My tears were dripping because I could only imagine her face.

Then why isn't Vinda with him? There was nobody at home either. Why is she at the stall and not looking after the baby? Or ... lest my child be helped because it is not yet the time to be born?

The more I think about it the more frustrated I become. I pulled my hair harder but I felt no pain at all.

Dear willa ... I deserve to know. Why are you punishing me like this? I'm going crazy!!!

"Mother ... Yes ... I'd better go see my mother-in-law. He must know everything and want to tell me" I murmured. I finally found a bright spot.

I immediately gasped towards my in-laws' house. There's only my mother-in-law at home. While my father-in-law was accompanying Keisha out to buy snacks.

Kink ... My little girl. Forgive Papa for ignoring you for your selfishness. Papa should be with you.

"How are you, Adji?" greet my in-laws. He was not cynical but also did not welcome me as kindly as usual.

"I'm good Mom .. How is Mother's news?"

Why is the atmosphere so awkward? My mother-in-law used to think of me as her own child.

"Bus ... I came here to ask my mother about my son. Winda has given birth and I was not told. Do you know where my son is now? Can you tell me?"

"Why don't you ask Linda?"

"I've met Winda but she won't tell me ma'am ... "

"If Vinda doesn't want to tell you, neither will she dare. He's the more entitled."

"But I also deserve to know, Mom, she's my son."

"Do you feel you still have rights after what you did? Aren't you ashamed of Adji? After all that Vinda did for you? Seeing you come here I was surprised. And without sin you speak of rights?!!"

Not as I imagined. The mother-in-law who was usually friendly and gentle to me changed her attitude to be exactly the same as my mother.

"Mother wonder, where did the once polite and responsible Adji go? Where did Adji go whose life is straight and not neko-neko? Was it all this time it was just your mask in front of us?"

"Bus ... I'm sorry ... " I'm not done with my words suddenly Keisha comes in.

"sam ... Grandpa ngajak Keisha saw his sister Keisha Nek .." cried Keisha excited.

"Jin ... " I call him lirih. Keisha looked over and saw me.

"Papa .." he ran straight into my arms.