Forced to endure

Chapter 55

I still went to work even though my morning was at the beginning of a fight with my mother. She insisted that she did not want Eva to stay at her house, while I could stay.

I don't know how you can think like that. Eva and I are married, so we should have stayed together. If I stay at mom's house but Eva has to leave then where will she live? He had no place to live because he had been expelled from his village. And that's also because of me.

"I'm going to work first, Mom. I'll take care of everything after work."

I went back to the room to see Eva, but she was still fast asleep.

Very upset to see it. In the past, although pregnant Vinda never like this. She continues to do her duty as a wife. Maybe if he was not well he was lazing around, the rest he still served me well. And Eva? Maybe it's true what mom said. He just sleeps and toys.

I paused my intention to wake Eva up. I don't want to add to the problem of fighting with him. I finally went to the office and got upset.

After work, I went around looking for a rented house. I need to find a home soon to live in today. I myself am bored every day having to listen to Eva and mom quarrels.

I accidentally passed in front of the stall. I stopped for a moment and saw Winda from a distance. This was the first time I saw her after we officially parted ways.

She's still beautiful, I admit she was pretty. And now after giving birth to two children she still looks beautiful. Her body was slim and her aura was classy. It is very far compared to Eva.

I only realized what Winda was like after I lost her. I felt dissatisfied just looking at him. I parked my bike and I went to him.

"Win ... "

He looked at me as soon as he heard my voice. There was no expression on his face when he saw me.

"What's it gonna take to get here?" tanyanya cold.

I can't find an answer to the question of Winda. Should I say I miss? Or how sorry I am for wasting her all this time? Or how messy my life is right now without her?

But I can't bring out what's on my mind. I'm so embarrassed. I could only look at him speechlessly.

"Mas ... ?" Winda furrowed his brows looking at me dumbly.

"How are the kids?" tanyaku.

"Good ... Good children" replied Winda, turning his face away.

"Did Keisha ask me? What about the little guy? Is he fussy?"

"They're fine. The little one's not fussy." The mind answered only as necessary.

"Can I see them?"

Winda didn't answer, which I mean he didn't want me to meet the kids. He rarely lets me meet them.

"Has the little one been named? WH-what's his name?"

I'm sorry I asked that. My time as his father didn't know what my son's name was?

"Win ... I've transferred the pocket money to the kids." I changed the subject to relieve my embarrassment.

"thank you. I'll check." The winda was silent.

But this conversation made me even more embarrassed. Because the money I transferred to Winda may be nothing compared to the current income of Vinda.

"Please let me know if you've allowed the kids to meet me. I'm sorry."

I was about to step away because it seemed like I came here just embarrassing myself in front of Vinda.

"Mas ... Tell mom to stop asking for gini treasures from me. You know for yourself, there are no common possessions that we can share." said Winda before I set foot out.

I was quite surprised to hear that.

Winda simply nodded without giving any explanation. But I already know what that means. I have memorized the nature of motherhood.

"alright. I'll tell mom. Sorry to bother you."

I came out of the stall carrying shame. I was quite aware, there was no longer any chance of being able to return with the Winda no matter how much regret I had. Vinda has moved on with her life, but I am still struggling with my memories with her.

I walked back to where my bike was parked. I'd better get back to my original destination, find a rented house. After a long while I finally found one that I thought fit.

I immediately contacted Eva and told her to pack our things so that we could move. I've also asked the homeowner to clean the house so we can stay tonight.

I went straight home after borrowing Mas Arya's car to transport my goods to the rented house.

When I got home I was back to being emotional. Eva hasn't done anything yet. He just packed his clothes and stuff. My clothes and stuff are still in my closet.

"Why don't you pack my things?"

I asked while holding back growled at Eva. I was tired of finding a place to live for both of us and I just told him to pack up but he didn't.

"I'm lazy Mas ... I'm not pregnant anymore."

I can't express how upset I am with Eva's attitude but I'm still trying to be patient.

I finally packed my own stuff. Then Eva and I got out of my house.

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Sinda

I began to feel comfort in my solitude. There is no need to worry about thinking about what our partner is doing with whom. I just need to think about myself and my kids.

I even made plans ahead. I'll buy a shophouse and enlarge my shop. And I've started saving for it.

I left my baby at home with a nanny. Sometimes I go home to see how things are going. While Keisha is older, she can play with her peers around the house. Or if he gets bored, he'll ask mom to take him to the stall to catch up with me.

Right now I just want to focus on living my life. It never occurred to me to find a replacement for Mas Adji, not yet.

"Win ... "

Suddenly I heard Mas Adji's voice behind me. Am I hallucinating?

I looked to make sure I didn't hear wrong. It turned out to be true, Mas Adji was already standing behind me. This was our meeting after we officially parted ways.

"What's it gonna take to get here?" I try to be normal.

But Mas Adji was silent. He looked dreamy as he kept looking at me. For a while Mas Adji's mind seemed to drift somewhere.

"Mas ... ?"

Mas Adji was shocked to hear my voice.

"How are the kids?"

"Good ... Good children" I answered briefly.

Furthermore Mas Adji only asked a short question about the children and I also answered as necessary. How else would you like? We are not husband and wife, we can not talk while making fun like before.

Mas Adji seems to be continuing his life with Eva, so I will also continue my life with my children.