Forced to endure

Chapter 25

"It's okay, I won't hurt. I just want to hear from your own mouth, not from someone else."

"You sure?" Winda nodded.

I finally told her everything, how I got to be with Eva. This time I spoke truthfully with nothing to hide. Just out of curiosity, not because I'm in love with her. My love is only one, Winda.

Willa listened to my story casually, like listening to me tell me about my work first. There was no expression on his face.

"Are you okay?"

Winda.

"I felt the pain when I first heard the news. Now that sounds like a fairy tale to me."

"That's how Win told you, I never meant to beat you up. I was wrong, yes I know and I'm so sorry."

Then we both remained silent for a moment. I don't know what Winda is thinking right now, it's possible that he regretted his decision to forgive me.

"May I ask for one more thing?"

"What is Win?"

"I want you to confess all your deeds in front of your family. Because I still can't accept they call me making it up."

I remember how Mas Arya and my mother blamed Winda for everything. That was part of my mistake, too.

"I'll do it." I'm nodding.

Then I kissed Winda's forehead, this time he did not avoid even though it still feels strange. I feel like a newlywed who's about to do the first night, clumsy and bashful.

I hugged her again, I really missed her bohay body that I couldn't touch for a long time. And I just realized Winda's body is much thinner.

"I'm sorry Win ... " I looked at Winda and she smiled at me.

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Sinda

Mas Adji suddenly came into my room. I sat down and wiped away the tears that had been flowing without me knowing why. I feel like a dazed person.

"What's wrong, you need something?" gelagapan.

Mas Adji looked at me strangely. He said he wanted to talk to me. Seems like a serious conversation. Then he started talking and I just looked down and listened. Mas Adji apologized to me, actually this is the umpteenth time he apologized to me.

I was still listening to Adji talk, but part of my mind was floating around collecting fragments of events that I had experienced in the last few months, it was heavy. I heard Mas Adji's voice getting heavier and heavier. And I also feel the longer my breath feels tight.

These few months it all felt really hard. Mas Adji who was caught dating another woman, then suddenly he was sick and caused our finances to morat-marit. Financial difficulties that almost made Keisha unable to continue school, after which Keisha had to be operated on, whispered neighbors because I had to sell my things to continue living. Everything has scratched the small wounds in my heart.

Until if there is something painful again can not feel it. The heart is immune to wounds.

My eyes glazed back to remember everything I've been through. I'm really tired. I need a place to lean. Why do I keep getting angry at Mas Adji if it makes me even more tormented? Why would I hold a grudge against him if it turns out that grudge is what makes my life depressed and unsettled? The fact is I need him as my life partner, by my side.

Yes, indeed Mas Adji has a big role in what I am experiencing now. But he has already received his reply, hasn't he? The pain she had been suffering from all this time was enough to torment her, so why would I punish her again?

Oh ... That name, Eva ... The woman who made my household almost run aground. Finally Mas Adji admitted it. A confession I had hoped for but now seems pointless. I don't care anymore.

I stayed with Mas Adji just so I could have proof of his forbidden act with that woman and get divorced from her. Now that Mas Adji has admitted to everything in person and is even willing to divorce me, I don't want that divorce. Our fallout makes me believe he won't make a mistake for the umpteenth time.

"We won't divorce Mas .." I said. My tears flowed a lot of times.

"Are you sure Win? Have you forgiven me?"

Mas Adji doesn't believe my words. I also nodded. Then he grabbed my body and hugged me. We both cried regretting everything.

I forgive you Mas ... I forgive you ... I also need you to accompany Keisha ... We rebuild our home together

After a long time I felt alone, I finally had a backrest. A place to share the burden I am carrying, my husband. The man I used to choose to be my life partner and will forever be with me.

I shed my cry in Mas Adji's arms. I hugged her for so long that I didn't want to let her go. I miss this man, miss my husband.

I asked Mas Adji to tell me how he got in touch with Eva. Instead of me bringing up the leash, I just want to know where my faults and shortcomings lie until Mas Adji gets in touch with another woman. Maybe there's a lesson I can take from there. This heart has accepted everything.

Mas Adji told me everything, I'm sure this time he was honest. I listened to Mas Adji's story quietly. There is no longer any anger and resentment. I don't know, the feeling of sincerity makes me calmer. The story of Eva and Mas Adji sounds like a fairy tale to me.

"Win ... You slept in our room again yeah ...?" Mas Adji was a little shy about saying it. And I don't know why I blushed. This feels really weird.

"Tomorrow, I still want to sleep in this room." I refused not because I didn't want to, but because I was ashamed.

"I slept here, right?"

I really feel very ashamed. My face must be very red by now. It's even worse than the first night. Mas Adji and I have not been in a relationship for a long time and now we have made up. Of course we can guess each other's thoughts.

And suddenly someone knocked on the door and I was saved from the clumsy atmosphere with Mas Adji.

"I'll see who's coming."

"Maybe Ms. RT, she just came looking for you."

"really?"

Mas Adji nodded. I rushed out to open the door to see who was coming.

"Win ... I was here, but Adji said you were at the funeral." RT ma'am immediately went in while talking. He's used to me.

"What's wrong, ma'am?"

"Here, I want to pull out gymnastics uniforms for elderly mothers. You exist, right? Suddenly this was his asking. And everything was handed to me as Bu RT."

I immediately agreed. This is my first major party order.

"Before next week?"

"Can!" back I nodded steadily. Ms. RT looks relieved. Then he gave details of the size and amount even his advance.

After Miss Rt I smiled alone. Is this a good sign for me? After making up with Mas Adji, then came the good news. Hopefully there will be other good things waiting for me.