First Love & Best Friends

The Forty Five

Four months later, the month of Ramadan. As usual SMP held an open event together. I was very excited when I welcomed the event, it felt more and more impatient with the event. Soon I gave news to my Junior High friends, especially Nurul, Stefani, Fabian, and Rossi. I am very happy after giving news about Open Together with Junior High friends. Always got a good response from Fabian, because just this moment and his birthday, Fabian replied to my short message. For some reason, my feelings were really excited this time. I can't wait for this moment.

Finally the long-awaited moment came. Exactly on July 11, 2014. It turns out that right this is also me and my friends in Junior High have stepped on a decade and a decade I know Fabian (old people also know Fabian).

I went with Nurul and Maya. While with Stefani only met at the open place together only. Before leaving, I had a message with Fabian who finally came also at the event. Almost yelled out in excitement when Fabian said that he was following along too. Although actually I stroked the chest with Fabian's attitude in SMS which is still like before. Meanwhile, Rossi could not participate because he had already participated in the Open Together event at his workplace.

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Me, Nurul, and Maya arrive at the event venue to open with her. It turned out that there ahead of Maghrib and I immediately occupied the place that had been provided for the open event together. Meeting with my friends made me very happy.

At the crucial moment, it turns out my phone had trouble. I became badmood, because when I opened the message from Stefani I couldn't.

When the Maghrib Adhan arrives, open it together at the beginning. I'm straight to break the fast. I actually knew the condition of the phone after I restarted and activated it again. Because in a silent position and I put it in my jeans pocket. I looked around my friends, not seeing Stefani and Fabian coming.

Unintentionally, my eyes fell on my friend who was picking up the phone and I saw Fabian had not come. “What is Fabian calling again?” guess me in my heart. Shortly after, it turned out Fabian came too. A sense of misbehaviour immediately rolled in my heart, but only for a moment. Because next to Fabian there's a girl. I was surprised to find that, “Fabian already had a girl turned my inner” sad while looking at Fabian from afar.

When Nurul saw that too, he whispered to me. “Still beautiful you Mi, rather than the girl Fabian”

I only smiled wryly to reply to the whispers from Nurul. I pretended to hold back my feelings now, there's no way I said that Jealous in front of Fabian directly. While shortly after, Stefani also came and merged with me and the others.

Realizing that my phone had been switched off, I was surprised to find two missed calls from Fabian and Stefani. When Fabian was about to take food in front of him, I asked Fabian.

“Fabian, you called me earlier?” my many.

Fabian looked up at me while throwing a horse-grinning expression and pointed a V sign at me.

“Sorry didn't know me if you called” said I felt bad for Fabian.

Fabian nodded with a smile and continued eating. While I also apologized to Stefani for not picking up the phone.

“So you called Stef? Sorry yes, I don't know” I said to Stefani.

“Ngak what Mi. Just relax” nods Stefani with a smile too.

Somehow Fabian was excited when he saw Stefani.

“Stefani right you?” fabian immediately approached Stefani who was sitting in front of me.

“Yes, that's why you forgot the same I said Mimi” grunted Stefani to Fabian.

For some reason, Fabian suddenly asks Stefani to change her bb pin. Makes my heart so bad.

Fabian was silent when Stefani told him about her forgetting to Maya. I immediately remembered that High School moment again when Fabian forgot about Stefani. I was so amused when I remembered the incident. But my heart is really wry tonight despite trying to join them. As the conversation continued, I just diced them. While the Fabian chick was also harassed, I felt indifferent. So goiters. After finishing the meal. Me, Maya, and Nurul perform the Maghrib Prayer. Before, Stefani and I were bothering Fabian.

“Please Mas, the food is spent. There are also many fish.”

Fabian looked up to hear us bother him, then just smiled and asked permission to continue eating. Then I started the Maghrib prayer.

I'll start raising money to pay for food. I started playing prank by joking Fabian, actually holding back my feelings tonight.

“Lhoh Fab, who should have paid for the food that yesterday was out my birthday” candaku to him.

Fabian instantly felt and gave me the code to be silent, I laughed seeing Fabian's expression like that. “Fabian still remember it turns out when I said his birthday via SMS it” my inner happy.

“Iya Fab, where to eat?” added Stefani tickled

”Umur is old too, ask to eat-eat” Fabian protest.

Stefani and I laughed when Fabian protested. After eating the food open together tonight, I still joined them. I was surprised when Stefani asked Fabian who turned out to work at the Mall that I had been with them.”Whahuh? So all this time? It's worth it that I feel like he works there every time I go there my inner” has been feeling right.

When all was off guard, I saw Fabian join the rest of the friends. I looked around as I felt it was just me and Fabian who were from the same High School. Because Junior High School friends are mostly High School friends as well.

“Fab, this one from the same SMA is just the two of us doang?” I'm going to slow down on Fabian.

Unknowingly, my question was heard by Maya. Then ask me and Fabian.”You guys used to be one SMA huh?”

After that Fabian also looked around as I said so then nodded.”Yeah, just the two of us. It Open Together SMP what is SMA anyway?” ask Fabian again like a question on his short message before leaving for the Joint Open place.

“Open With SMP Fab” my light while grimacing towards Fabian.

Fabian's expression was just that of a beard when I said that. “Amazing this. From the same High School it was just me and Fabian. Is this God's plan?” my mind was immediately misbehaved and remembered that Fabian still often came to my dreams.

Minutes later, Fabian asked me back. “This is still no show?”

“No Fab, just hanging out” I replied to Fabian.

After that Fabian decided to go home with his girl tonight. When Fabian was about to greet me, I wanted to hold him back but realized that next to Fabian was a girl.

“Mi...” say hello to Fabian while greeting me.

I nodded with a smile to her while returning a handshake as I was about to say goodbye. I saw Fabian was leaving the Open Together venue, I was idly saying. “Fab, beware yes you forgot the same I”

Fabian turned his head and smiled broadly at me. Suddenly misbehavior once found a funny behavior that is still attached to Fabian. After a few minutes Fabian went home with his girl, the photo show began. I feel like this moment will never be forgotten, even though Fabian has broken my heart again. But somehow the feeling of resentment was lost when he saw Fabian's face.

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After the event opened together, we went home. Nurul brought me home first. While Stefani and Maya go straight home by passing a different path.

While on the road, I still feel sad when I imagine Fabian taking the girl. Nurul is trying to cheer me up right now. Although Nurul also did not like the view earlier actually.

“Sabar yes Mi” says Nurul.

“Iya Rul, it's common to actually see Fabian again as gals” reply me. “Common nyesek means” I continued in my heart.

Not felt, before this sleep. I was still in the shadows at that moment. Between happy, sad, heartbroken, and misbehavior. My expression mixed into one. I who had been holding my feelings in front of them all including Fabian, suddenly my tears spilled as much as possible behind the pillow. My heart was very tight when I saw the events of Open Together earlier. “Oke Fab, it turns out I still have feelings of like you earlier I was heartbroken again because you married your girl. I'm sure you're Open Together because I want to talk to you a lot. Not dicuekin kayak just now. You forgot your strange behavior during SMP-SMA and subconsciously made me fall for you. Sick Fab, sick” sad me who is still late in my tears tonight. I fell asleep tonight and momentarily forgot the heartache at the event venue opened together earlier.

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“Yes Allah, I have been heartbroken three times. Oh God, if Fabian is my soul mate, bring me closer. If you are not a match, keep me away from the shadow of Fabian so far until I do not remember Fabian again” my prayer that really resigned to my feelings.

It turned out that after I prayed that way, Fabian's dream was still present in my sleep. I was really sad and didn't know what else to do. I tried to forget it, but still the dream was present. But the more I come here I've forgotten everything about that heartache and Fabian. Totally forgot because I started to focus on finding information about job openings again.

This time, I completely forgot about Fabian and really don't remember. But two weeks later, the exact nuances are still Eid. Nurul came to my house to be just a friend and all straighten out the problem with Gazela who is indeed a residential house with me.

Actually I was lazy to meet Gazela, but for Nurul's sake I heeded Nurul's invitation. Once there, I felt like I wanted to go home because I knew for sure that Gazela would end up asking me about Fabian, I tried to be quiet when Gazela was talking to Nurul. But before long, Gazela asked me about Fabian.”But anyway, why the Fabian again” back in my heart while imagining again that Fabian already has a girl. This afternoon, I really held back my feelings while Gazela was still asking me about Fabian. I was so lazy to respond, my heart hurt. I responded with half a heart and a moody feeling.

When I was going home, I accidentally mocked Gazela. With that action I feel a little relieved, because this speech has been buried for a long time to reply to him.

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A few months later after the incident opened with SMP. Rossi said I got an invitation from a Junior High friend who happened to have a class with me in 8th grade Junior High. After getting the news, I deliberately invited Stefani and Fabian who were also my classmates during the 8th grade Junior High.

But Stefani said by phone, Fabian could not come because he was busy working in a Mall. Stefani told me again by phone when she asked Fabian when, and Fabian replied that he had broken up with his girlfriend yesterday. “Hahh, how fast are they dating?” I shocked my heart while still listening to Stefani's story. Surely Stefani got the chance to find out Fabian broke up with the girl yesterday, Stefani said, telling Fabian that Fabian had my regards. I was very surprised because I didn't feel like I was sending Fabian my regards. Automatically, a misbehaved expression instantly rumbled violently on my chest.

Before long, Stefani told me all about it. I began to be overshadowed by Fabian through dreams. Even in the dream, Fabian and Fean told me of his love for me, I was completely confused by what had happened to me recently through a dream. In the end, the one who still survives to visit my dream is Fabian. Memories after memories of school used to spin sweetly on my mind again, I'm increasingly clueless about all this. “Actually Fabian who the hell is it for me? From the era of his class to the present Fabian still visited my sleep. Though I myself was also forgetting it, but the shadow was getting clearer once” restless me in my heart and really I do not understand my feelings now. While on the other hand, I also realize that my feelings until now have not been spoken directly in front of Fabian.

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Fabian is someone I first met with a quiet attitude, fun to chat even though sometimes have to be patient because he likes not to connect, what is, supple, friendly, generous smile, kind, kind heart, and sometimes nyebelin plus nosy. That's Fabian's specialty according to my assessment of six years and one school with him.

While Wawan, his attitude and nature are almost like Fabian. I consider him a good friend who has long been a friend. A pretty caring figure, a good listener even though he often mocks each other, he is always there for me. That's the special Wawan according to my assessment for a year in class with him at High School and until now I am still familiar with him. Two people I think are the best in my eyes. Right now, I don't want to compare them, but I want to tell you that I'm lucky and proud to know them. Yes, Frist Love and My Best Friend (two thumbs up for Fabian and two thumbs up for Wawan).

But of all the guys I've ever admired, the only ones that have survived until now are Fabian. I don't know what the reason is, I myself until now never found the right reason. Only God knows why I've been given dreams about Fabian, maybe one day I'll find a riddle about all this. Actually, my close friends supported me with Fabian. I don't know exactly why all this happened to me. Including Wawan himself also supported me.

The story of Fabian is indeed very much and certainly will be endless, he said, so special he almost I was made crazy when remembering all the meetings from the beginning of class with him at Junior High until reunited at High School. But on the other hand me and Fabian never communicate, even though he's still like he was when I first knew him. While Wawan, I still communicate well and have never fought until now.

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