First Love & Best Friends
Twelve
On Monday afternoon, I was ready to go to school with MOS attributes which I thought was very strange. It's strange, just a shadow has departed during the day, in the 5 strands with yellow ribbon, wear black and white socks and wear a belt with a braid of 5 colors. When I got back to school, I met a new friend named Tyas. The guy looks cute when he meets him, but I think he's good. After getting acquainted with Tyas, I immediately entered the school gate because Tyas himself was waiting for someone outside.
Arriving at school, I immediately put up a nametag of cardboard paper, a conical hat with red chili and long beans, a newspaper vest, a sling bag of black and white plastic bags, and, and necklaces with ornaments (red money, terasi, brown coins, and so on).
MOS is held for two days and enters the day. Running a MOS is exhausting, especially during the day.
Two days passed after the implementation of MOS, officially I became a High School boy. On my Rabbi's day I went to school in the morning as usual during the class. In the morning I was waiting for the bus with my neighbor. I looked at Fabian passing by, he was on the bike, because I had not worn glasses so it was not clear when he stopped in front of the material store near the minimarket opposite my housing. Stopped for a long time while looking at me. I was silent at the time not knowing what Fabian meant. Some later, he immediately gasped and passed. Realizing Fabian had passed, I realized that he had just offered me. “Sorry Fab, I don't. Minus eye effect has not worn glasses so do not see my inner deh” full of regret.
Arriving at school, it turns out the school atmosphere is still quiet while looking for classes that I will live in for a year in class 10 B. Yup, I was in 10th grade B. One class with Gazela and Pandu. Luna is in class 10 C, while Puji is in class 10 D (one class with Fabian).
The beginning of class, as usual, needs to adapt to the new class atmosphere. Introductions with new friends, homeroom, organization formation in the classroom and so on.
Sitting in the back made me uncomfortable with my eyesight, it felt even more tormented. I finally swapped seats with Gazela who was sitting in front of Viani. Just been in a couple of weeks, I don't know what I think. Like miss the atmosphere of SMP first. Yup, the atmosphere that always impressed me.
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That afternoon, I was leaving class. Feeling like I'm hitting someone, but somehow my heart is beating fast. After looking up I hit Fabian. Nyess! Banget. Realizing that, I immediately walked towards the Luna class that was next to me. Arriving in front of the SMA gate to wait for angkot passing with Luna, Gazela and Puji. Seeing Fabian in the middle of a motorbike with a Guide. Suddenly I want to make Pandu.
“Wah, that's your bike later deflated lhoh Fab dikikin the same Pandu” ledekku fad.
They both immediately turned their heads and saw the state of Fabian's motorcycle tire on the back. Seeing that, I am ticklish.
“Casting yes Fab?” tanya Pandu immediately panicked.
“No kok” response Fabian while shaking his head.
After they checked the tires, I saw Fabian smiling at me. But I still feel amused by the recent events.
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A month later, I decided to check my eyes. Because my eyesight is getting worse. I deliberately permission to go to school because I want to check the condition of my two eyes that have disturbed my vision. After checking I turned out to be minus cylindrical 2.
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The next day, on August 17, 2007.....
This morning I left early in the morning, because of a ceremony at the school in order to commemorate Indonesian Independence Day. Ceremonies are not only held in my school, but are held in other schools and even offices.
I got to school early in the morning and looked lonely. It was then that I decided to leave the classroom looking at the left right class that still looked deserted as well. A few minutes later, I saw Fabian come and walk in front of me just as I was standing in front of the class (because the parking lot was in front of my class exactly so Fabian parked his bike in front of my class). I just kept quiet when I saw him passing by, I thought he was still like back in 9th grade Junior High. I was wrong, and suddenly she smiled sweetly. But I was still dumbstruck for whom it was a smile to the point that I turned my head right and left. But I'm here and that smile doesn't stop for me. After realizing Fabian smiled at me, I returned his smile with a timid expression and unconsciously also my chest jumped up and down. I was so misbehaved. My heart was still pounding when I experienced that. My hands felt cold.
After Fabian passed, the feeling was still there to the point that I felt Fabian's smile still dancing in my mind. Then I asked in my heart”Fabian tumben really at this time, changed drastically try. Since the incident with me saying goodbye with a smile. I now give her a smile again. He's got another creature, huh? Not because I said you were arrogant, right?”
I who returned to class was still imagined the events just now, it felt like it wanted to repeat itself.
A month later, a similar incident happened again. At the end of the month, on September 25, 2007, exactly the month of Ramadan. It just so happened that time I went home from school. I who was out of class at that time was going to class 10C to approach Luna. I ran into Fabian who happened to take the bike in the front parking lot of my class. Suddenly the smile landed on me again. Yeah, that sweet smile from Fabian I got again. I immediately returned a smile from Fabian with a blushed expression and my heart immediately beat violently after the incident. My brain wonders what's up with Fabian now huh? Not usually this way, like smiles are not clear like this.
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The beginning of October, the 2nd and 3rd are similar. It happened again and again when I came home from school too. I've been clueless about Fabian's attitude towards me lately. Clearly, the incident made me more misbehaved and always imagined when remembering the smile of Fabian. He used to be a 9th grade Junior High arrogant like me, even look at me like I don't recognize him, now he met me with smiles. Like there was a drastic change in Fabian to me. Even though the girls in High School are also many beautiful. But I don't want to go GR-I first or get it wrong with Fabian's attitude that's so sweet on me.
When I told Rere back, he laughed. Even Rere described Fabian as liking me. But what if Fabian really likes me? Hearing Rere say that, my heart was misbehaved. While dreams about Fabian turned out to be still coming to accompany my sleep. What's wrong with me? Am I starting to like Fabian too? Sometimes I feel weird too. I've been dreaming about it for a year.
On October 8, 2007, the same thing happened again. It was the last day of UTS ahead of the Lebaran holiday and continued again after the Lebaran holiday. This Monday, go home early because the UTS schedule is not too much. When I got home I went home alone without Luna and Gazela. I took the train alone without them.
After getting off the bus, I crossed over to wait for the bus. I was surprised to find Fabian waiting for the bus. Luckily there is a sister class who is waiting for the bus as well. Slightly eliminate the nervousness of seeing it, I tell stories with my upperclassmen until it does not feel the bus that we will come too. I sat inside by the back door. Fabian sat in the back near the exit. When the bus was walking, I just kept quiet while enjoying the ride home. Arriving at my residential home. I was getting ready to stand in the back, right Fabian was sitting there too. As I was about to get off, Fabian's gaze turned to me. Somehow he was watching me from below and when he saw me coming down he smiled as close as possible towards me. I looked back at Fabian timidly as I returned that smile and subconsciously felt the heat on my cheek. Yup, hollering from returning a smile from Fabian. My heart immediately beat incoherently. When I got off, I clapped his feet and said”First is Fab”. I heard Fabian responded”Ya..”
I said that without daring to look at his face again, because I already felt an extraordinary misbehavior. While stepping foot into the housing, I still imagined the incident just now. I can't hide my smile this afternoon. Suddenly I realized something”Astagfirullah! Mi, it's Ramadan. Sin dong earlier when staring at each other's eyes, where to use the charm again”. It felt like a madman when his smiles were unclear considering the incident earlier this afternoon. I can't wait to talk to Rere again.
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But when Puji took turns telling me about Fabian back in class, I felt my heart ache. I feel like I'm burning with jealousy and my heart says”The time is the same Fabian Praise in class?”. But I still rejected everything, because I felt my heart would be fine. “I'm jealous when Puji turns to tell me about Fabian in class? When I was jealous, was someone close to me? That time anyway, Fabian is the guy in class?” my heart was trying to wonder about my feelings and about Fabian acting so to Praise.
On the other hand I saw Fabian as I knew the 9th grade Junior High. When he came back to him, he fell silent. I'm getting clueless about Fabian's attitude changing like this again.
Semester 1 in Class 10 of High School will end. At my school after doing the Semester Final Deuteronomy held a class meeting, so students are up to leave and go home at any time. I left school as usual with the intention of just getting together with close friends. Yup, the activity is very free. Almost a week has been done class meeting at school without doing any activities. But hanging out with my closest friends makes me so happy.
Monday and Tuesday, I still go to school as usual. It turns out that today per child is given a ticket to Retire tomorrow at school. But I didn't come, because I was going to Solo where my Papa's brother is. And it just so happens that tomorrow is Rere's birthday.
After the reception there, the sorenya returned to Semarang again. Until Semarang at night. I felt tired when I laid my body in bed. I sleep.
I feel like time has come in the morning. I was surprised to see Fabian come to the house, before I let him into the house. While sitting down, Fabian suddenly scolded me and said”You didn't come to the school pension yesterday? I was waiting too at school”
“Sorry, sorry. Yesterday I had a family event in Solo. It continues to taste soy sauce, so do not go to school deh Fab” explained me.
Fabian fell silent and only replied to the mangosteen.
I woke up because I realized I had not prayed at dawn. Previously surprised to remember the incident just turned out to be a dream. My heart immediately rippled violently while remembering the events in the dream.
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Now entering the 2nd semester, I am getting closer and closer to Puji. Even though I was still close to Luna. Because with Luna I knew him even more before I knew Puji. And I feel close to Gazela too. Yes, because I was in a class with him made me familiar and we often went home together. Gazela told me a lot about what she was going through. There was a desire to take turns confiding with him, but I was ashamed. My heart actually did not want me to tell Gazela back, because what I experienced was about Junior High. Yes, someone who is always present in my dreams. But my mouth wants to tell me what I'm going through. Because I believe in the Gazela I know from Elementary School until now. But after I told Gazela, her expression turned startled and Gazela turned into laughter. For some reason, my feelings became bitter and like opening up my biggest secret. It feels so weird.
Day by day, I was getting closer to Puji. And the more here Puji told me about his closeness to Fabian in class. When Puji said that, I felt like I was burning with jealousy. Yes, jealous of me. “Which time Praise also likes Fabian? Fabian's time is the same Praise me for being in class? But my feeling is that Fabian didn't do that to Puji. The proof every Fabian smiles at me, Praise still dicuekin” my inner increasingly wondering with the feeling of increasingly raging unbecoming. I don't understand everything that's happening to me right now. Between the feeling of being jealous, there is a feeling of suspicion with the story from Puji, and believing that Fabian did not do it all. I just cover up the feeling of it all in front of Puji by pretending to tease him as well as pretentious to know it.
Tomorrow is a mystery. Yes, everyone does not know tomorrow will experience what kind of event it does not know. Including me who does not know at this time will experience what happens.
As of today, February 19, 2008. Right around the first break, after I had dinner with my friends in class. I offered to throw away the plastic we ate. I got off the bench and left the class to take out the trash. When I left the classroom, I saw Fabian and his friend standing in front of the motorcycle parking lot in front of my class. I don't know what they're doing there. While I'm still confused looking for where the trash is.
Justifying his shoelaces, Fabian who was still next to his friend saw me who was still confused and suddenly smiled at me. When I realized that Fabian was smiling at me, with a shy expression I returned his smile and made Fabian smile again towards me while looking at his shoes and next to him was his friend. Suppose Fabian is mistaken for his fallen friend maybe they, heheee....” my mind is amused while imagining that ridiculous event should it happen.
After that incident, again and again I felt the wrong behavior and my heart was pounding. I don't understand what Fabian meant by smiling back at me why. The incident kept me in my mind, it felt like it wanted to happen again. Realizing that from earlier I wanted to find a trash can, it turned out that the trash can was hiding behind the classroom door. I immediately threw out the trash that I was holding. I still feel a loud thump with the recent incident.
A week later, a similar incident was repeated. This Monday February 25, 2008. It just so happened to be coming home early. When I visited Luna in front of her class, Luna invited me to ask for company to the supermarket not far from our school, although it still uses public transportation. The three of us went home together as usual. Because I didn't see Puji this afternoon. Gazela asked me and Luna to accompany her in front of the school gate to wait for someone to pick her up. Soon Gazela was picked up. After Gazela was picked up, Luna and I immediately boarded the public transport that was in front of us exactly. Luna and I sat by the exit. The transport still stops in front of the school gate and is waiting for other passengers. As I looked back, I saw Fabian behind the transport I'm using now. He was still standing there because of the obstruction of transportation.
Fabian also saw me in the carriage with Luna. Suddenly Fabian smiled, I was stunned to find Fabian smiling at me. Without realizing it, I also followed smiling back to Fabian's sweet smile “This crazy guy. I've been in the transport alone can still make sure smile huh. He knew damn well that it was me” my mind was immediately wrong behavior.
“Lun, Fabian smiled at me”my reaction at Luna.
“Ciee, same smile Fabian” response Luna amused.
“Ih, this Luna deh” replied me with a blushed expression.
Luna still looked amused when I was so misbehaved to find the incident. Soon the transport left the school because there were already several passengers who boarded the transport. When the transport was running, I still had a smile from Fabian. Even when I arrived at the supermarket, the incident still turned sweet in my memory. A short but sweet occurrence in the brain for a long time. I didn't even know what Fabian's smile meant.
Four days later, February 29, 2008. Repeated and right back home from school too. Now I am gathering with the four of them in the front book of the school while hanging out and chatting. I sat next to Puji, as Fabian was walking with his friend, he turned his head and looked at me and smiled again at me. I returned his smile. Again and again my heart immediately beat uncharacteristically as it looked and returned a smile from Fabian again.
The next day, March 1, 2008 was exactly Saturday and it was school-going. As usual, I was hanging out in front of the school with friends. Suddenly Luna and Gazela took me to school. Yup, it's in a computer lab. When I got out of the buk, in front of me was exactly Fabian who was going through the school gate. As close as he could throw that smile at me again. I automatically reply to him. His smile was like a magnet that automatically made me to reply to him. Again and again I feel the heat on the cheeks and the loud thumping of Fabian's smile that is so sweet while making me.”H, Fabian this is what the hell? smile brightly if you meet me”.
After getting a smile from Fabian, I continued my steps to get to the computer laboratory.
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