First Love & Best Friends
Thirty
It doesn't feel like November has arrived. On November 3, it was Wawan's birthday. And right today I also got a bad incident in class, which is I was played by Dangdung cs. Yes, Dangdung pretended to shoot me because I was going to be made a bet by his friends. Stupidly again I was so innocent when it happened. After Jiteng said.”Dung, you're the same Mimi now. Choose money 300thousand what is your motor key?”
I was shocked when Jiteng said that. Immediately I meddled with them all out, either unconsciously I said harsh words to them and I knew my heart immediately hurt when I experienced the incident. I cried after the incident as well, as my friend and countryman Luna calmed me down. But my feelings really hurt once and still feel pain that words can't say. When school came home, I was silent as they laughed at me.
“No need to cry Mi” whispered Luna strengthened me.
I, who was still silent without a comment, could only nod weakly. When I got home from school, Gazela and Tyas felt overwhelmed by the events I experienced, then asked Luna and Luna to tell me about the events in the class. After getting that information, Gazela suddenly said this to me. “Mi, Fabian made the same today. You're not jealous, are you?” gazela asked with a smiley expression this afternoon which must have been very happy when telling that story.
Hearing that, I was shocked. It was like falling down a ladder. It's broken my heart. Yes, it hurts so much my heart got the news.”It seems like Gazela was very happy when she conveyed that to me my inner” was upset. But I pretended to respond while holding back my feelings.”No, say jealous. Thank goodness he has a girl”. Seeing my expression so, Gazela seemed to be provoking questions for me again. I just answered as I could, because today really made me lose my mood. It seems that Gazela also felt that there was no sin in telling me about it.
Arriving home, I was still moody and contemplating all. Recalling the painful classroom events and remembering Gazela's story about Fabian being with her classmates. I'm sad, so sad. I felt trapped all along by Fabian's smile and his strange attitude. “If you are now the same as your classmates, continue what the smile and strange behavior that you give to me, even though it unconsciously makes me misbehave and unconsciously makes me like you. Your success made me jealous of this news and success also made me fall like you Fab. Thank you for everything during this my inner” felt a great pain and unknowingly my tears spilled on the cheeks.
In the afternoon I realized something, that had not given Wawan a birthday and realized that Fabian also had one. It hurts me that Fabian has a girl, I can't do anything because I know Fabian is nobody to me. I myself until now also do not dare to say that I like it. “Already, risk secretly like like this it feels” sad I realize it. Aware of this afternoon want to say birthday to Wawan, for a moment or maybe forever I can forget about Fabian.
Wan, met's birthday.
Sorry, just saying it now
I immediately sent a message to Wawan's number. After being sent, without waiting for a long time Wawan replied to my short message.
Thanks Mi, it's okay.
Uh, you actually became the same Dangdung, huh?
Message from Wawan, I immediately received and read while remembering the bitter incident in class.
Hehee... It is not Wan. Ih, it hurts my heart to know that it happened
My reply to Wawan via SMS.
After that, I immediately told in detail and detail to Wawan. To the point of not feeling like I completely forgot about the heartache that Fabian had made with her classmates. As always, there are Wawan's messages that always make me laugh and forget about Fabian tonight. I myself do not know why it can be so comfortable when communicating with Wawan via SMS. I was first familiar with a guy who really made me tickle until I was spinning because of his ridiculousness. Don't forget I told this to Rere. Rere's response told me to be patient
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My closeness to Wawan through SMS that always makes me laugh, for a moment can forget the incident at school when seeing or passing Fabian who was on the road with his girl. Even though actually seeing them makes me claustrophobic in the heart. But I felt Fabian was still strange because from his gaze it was like he didn't recognize me anymore. Because every time I cross paths with Fabian who comes home with his girl, Fabian does not rebuke me let alone give me a smile again. The one who gave me a smile was even Fabian's girl. I feel astonished and think“If I am considered a friend, yes it should not matter dong Fabian gave it all to me. I know, seeing them pass in front of me makes me sick. But I myself am also aware of my actions so far who still do not dare to say my feelings to him”.
These past few days, I don't think I've seen Fabian in school anymore.”Maybe he's gone home with his girl” thought I was positive, even if it was a nyesek when I saw him.
When I got home from school, my three friends and I walked out the gate. Suddenly one of Gazela's classmates, Fabian's classmate, asks him where Fabian's house is. When I heard Gazela's conversation with her classmates, I was shocked. Think for a moment”What's Fabian sick? What's wrong with him?” I am in my heart with anxious feelings.
After Gazela's friend left, Gazela told me right away that Fabian had been in an accident after going back from tutoring. I'm surprised, I feel sorry for Fabian. I wanted to see him, but who is the same?
My friends and I went home as usual, but my heart was not calm. Honestly wanted to see him, but confused as to who was there. The house I don't know. My mind collapsed because suddenly the atmosphere on the bus turned turbid, because the bus I was riding and the bus that drove behind was competing to arrive at the terminal, until I finally forgot. Even Luna who was going down could not because the bus was actually in sync with the bus in front of her. Arriving in front of my house. The three of us went down, Luna who happened to see the bus that left just went up. While Gazela and her friends were quickly sliding into Fabian's house, I saw that one of them had Fabian's girl. Finally, the intention to follow Fabian was really nagged, even though it felt very anxious. I stepped foot home, it was still sad to remember Fabian had an accident and could not come to see him. “Well, may you recover quickly Fab and spit out to school again” my prayers in heart.
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Since I couldn't see him because of the accident, I completely forgot about Fabian who had someone else. “If the way Fabian made up with his classmates made me instantly forget him, fine. Maybe this way also makes me quickly move on from him” I thought with a sad expression.
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