First Love & Best Friends
Seventeen
It doesn't feel like it's entering May. On Monday, May 5, 2008. As usual, that smile was never out of my sight. When I returned home from school, I was surprised that Fabian always left a question mark on my brain. I'm not alone, I mean I'm always with Luna, Gazela, and Puji. While Fabian was not alone either, it must have been his friend. Fabian always smiles at me when we cross paths while stealing opportunities. I always reply with a smile towards Fabian. Maybe Fabian did not realize that the smile he always threw for me must have been seen by the closest friends and without him knowing it had made me misbehave.
I am not understanding that strange attitude. Not to mention the dream about him also continues to this day. I don't know exactly why the dream always floated me while sleeping, but before I didn't think too much about Fabian.
The next few days I did not see him again. Because by the time I left class, he was home first. I never saw him smile at me again. It felt like something was missing when I didn't see that smile. In the early months of May, the dream still often came to welcome my sleep.
I feel like all this time I've been dreaming about it there must be some strange incident. Until I was confused myself to interpret the meaning of the dream that I had been getting from Fabian. It felt like I was dreaming of it or Fabian was coming to see my dream.
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In the middle of May, I still dream about it. Well, as usual, it was like a real event.
I'm late for school today, but luckily the school gates are still open. So I can still get in. I did not feel the time to go home from school arrived, I was out of class when Fabian wanted to take his motorcycle in the motorcycle parking lot that happened to be in front of my class. Suddenly he looked to his right and left like he was confused looking for something.
Not long after, one of my friends found something and asked me. “Mi, whose motor key?”
I felt that it was Fabian's key, I immediately took the key from my friend's hand. I was looking for Fabian from class 10 A to class 10 E, but I didn't see him.
I don't know why suddenly I was in the place of Mbah my daughter whose home is in Kendal, Kendal, before I changed clothes first inside and after that I went out and sat on the front porch of my cousin's house. A few minutes later, I saw Fabian come here and still looking for the keys. “Woy, my motor key where the hell?”.
Then one of his friends said that the key was taken by me. Automatic Fabian approached me and said”Mi, which motor key?”
Without commenting on Fabian, I immediately gave the key to him while giving him a nagging so as not to fall asleep again. But instead of thanking me Fabian mocked me. I took turns to scold him.
When I woke up from sleep, I was still feeling sleepy and suddenly remembered something. Yup, remember that I was dreaming about it again. My heart reflex felt like it was beating violently when I remembered the incident. “I mean what try with the dream” muttered me with a half-dead confused feeling. Because every dream my heart and brain always wondered about the purpose of the dream that always greeted me every night.
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Ah, the hell I actually fell in love with him. But if I didn't fall in love with her, I wouldn't have experienced it this way. Yup, experiencing this raging feeling to me. It's weird that I feel all this.
I haven't seen Fabian lately. There was something strange about my heart that was always wondering about that smile. Upon awakening, I quickly dismissed all my feelings. “No way ah, I have a crush on my inner Fabian” quickly immediately brushed off all my feelings that are now being jumped up and down.
A few days later, I dreamed about it again. Yup, because I feel like I'm going through something like reality.
I sat outside for a long time. Not long after, I saw Fabian walk out the school gate with his friend. Tenyata Fabian stopped his steps in front of the school front cart. While waiting for the order, I saw Fabian was taking out his phone and calling someone. Somehow, I felt jealous when Fabian was on the phone with someone on the phone.
For some reason, I suddenly woke up and remembered a recent incident that turned out to be just a dream. That strange feeling was swirling again in my heart. Jealousy and misbehavior immediately raced in my heart.
I feel like when Fabian didn't meet, I dreamed about it more and more. “I miss the same smile, it's weird. Why the hell does it feel like this is so much my inner” with increasingly strange feelings.
The night changed and the dream did not want to go from my sleep. I dream of it more and more. Like tonight I met him in a dream.
I'm the one who came home from school alone this afternoon, without Luna and Gazela. I don't know where they are. As I was walking, I saw Fabian walking with his friend. When Fabian took turns to look at me, a smile immediately landed on me with the position of a friend who was next to him closed. I smiled at Fabian's behavior.
Again I gasped when I realized that the incident was a dream. My heart immediately beat incoherently when I realized that.
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After dreaming it a few times, I don't dream about it anymore and not to mention at school I didn't meet him. There was something strange in my heart. Like not meeting Fabian in the long run.
I took the time to practice dancing, having been given group assignments to dance in Arts lessons for early June. It made me forget a little about Fabian who was never absent from the shadows of my mind.
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