First Love & Best Friends
Forty
The month of Ramadan arrived, on the holiday to the 5th semester I was busy with Field Work Practice activities and making a Work Practice report. When Work Practice began, I left home at 05:30 a.m. Arriving at Work Practice at 06:30. The quiet atmosphere was still felt when I realized my Work Practice place was not crowded with the presence of employees, my three classmates, friends from S1, and other Internship friends.
By 07.30, the atmosphere turned crowded because it was on the go and will follow the Morning Apples before the move. Yup, that activity has been done since Practical Work in a Regional Library. For a long time I felt comfortable and pleasant while doing the Work Practice here. Because the staff here are very friendly. Work Practice activities are completed at 12:00 pm. I've been doing this for almost 2 weeks.
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Initially, I did have contacts from other majors named Moon. She asked me to introduce my boy friends. Coincidentally I was also sending messages with friends during Junior High, but I myself did not recognize it in detail. But I've always thought Reno was my best friend just like I thought of the Moon too
After they became acquainted, they eventually became lovers. It turned out that the relationship did not last long, they broke up because of the missing communication. Long story short, I was shocked when Reno expressed her love for me. Fabian's shadow came to my mind. There was a bad feeling because I thought of him as an ordinary friend and I was also liking Fabian. Finally, with a heavy heart, I refused. Because Fabian's shadow gets clearer when I like someone. I was confused myself, why it was like this at last.
Ever since that incident, Fabian's shadow has been dancing on my mind. Memories during Junior High School to High School popping up again. Yeah, those sweet memories I went through with Fabian. Although I think it's simple myself, but my heart says that it's very special.
On the other hand, I still don't feel good about Reno. But I realized that love grows from the deepest heart not by force. I realized it was just Fabian, not anyone else.
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One day, I who was leaving for Work Practice sent a message to him again as usual. But the message didn't come in, so I was worried. Then I decided to misscall it and subconsciously use my other number. Relieved that Fabian's number was finally active as well.
This morning as usual, I did my work in the local library. Yup, this activity is still in the preservation room. Where the room is filled with repairing damaged books, and besides that there is a back of the book number aka other meanings is the call number. The days in the room were very pleasant, because the employees in this room were very friendly and also funny. And interns are fun too.
Late in the afternoon, I was half relaxed checking my phone that I put in my alma mater suit pocket. A sense of misbehavior immediately floundered when seeing a message from Fabian. Although the reply from him was short, but I am very happy. It seems that it cannot be expressed in words. I ended up SMSing with Fabian. When I invited him to follow Buka Together with Junior High friends. Fabian responded to my SMS well. I'm very happy. It felt like it wanted to happen again, again, and again. So sweet.
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Today, my friend and I S1 kids got a schedule to go around using the Mobile Library car. And on Tuesday, I got a schedule to follow the library car around. Our destination is in Gunung Pati area of Sumurrejo village. Arriving there, the Mobile Library car stopped at Sumurrejo SD. Elementary school children enthusiastically raided the Mobile Library car to borrow and return the books they borrowed. After finishing visiting SD Sumurrejo proceed to Kelurahan. I smiled at the cool scenery and the enthusiastic citizens of the group wanted to borrow and return the books they had borrowed in the Mobile Library's car. While off guard, I sent a message to Fabian about the Open With Junior High Event. It felt so wrong when Fabian responded to my short message continues, the spirit of this afternoon back on. I will not forget this moment.
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Arriving at the event venue opened together, it was still very quiet. I look forward to the arrival of friends who don't take long. I'm happy that Okta's coming with the Clouds. Then there's Stefani and Gazela with his cousin.
When the Maghrib arrived, the Open Together Event was immediately implemented. We all immediately devoured the food that was already available in front of each other's tables. Very disappointed it turns out Fabian did not come at the Open With SMP event.
On the sidelines enjoy food open together. Gazela is pumping me because there is no Fabian in the middle of the Open Together event this time. Even Stefani and Okta follow me. Knowing this, I could only smile wryly in front of all of them. I felt sorry for Gazela's behavior that in fact could not keep my secret about Fabian. Gazela was satisfied when I was teased. While I myself can only feel the goiter in the heart.
After the joint opening ceremony was over, Stefani took me around in a neighborhood not far from where the Joint Open was. Waiting for my papa to pick me up. When I was picked up, I parted with Stefani in front of the parking lot where Buka Bersama was.
Arriving home, I was already impatient to ask Fabian about his absence at the Joint Open Event. After sending a message to him, shortly afterwards Fabian replied to my SMS saying that it was after work sleeping until Adzan Magrib. Really disappointed, but I'm trying to understand Fabian's reasoning. Maybe it was Fabian kecapan after work, that's it. Actually the feeling of goiter is still there.
I feel like the more I get here my feelings for Fabian are getting stronger and deeper, and I don't understand the feelings that really bother me right now. I think I've fallen in love again. Yes, just as you Fabian is not the same other people on facebook who originally said his love to me or with Wawan who was already familiar with me once, although Wawan can make me comfortable too. But my heart feels confident choosing Fabian.
I also don't understand my feelings. I don't care about Fabian cueing me either by never replying to my SMS messages again, but Fabian is still the best in my eyes. I still imagine how good a Fabian is to me and without realizing it makes me misbehave because of it. It felt like my heart was asking me to fall in love with Fabian. Although some people told me to move on from Fabian. Still my heart rebelled, my heart seemed sure to like Fabian. Because I believe Fabian's a good man. Yeah, Fabian's very nice. That's the reason I used to like him unconsciously until now.
I know, actually I didn't ask for any of this myself. But my heart was always moved to like it. Because I also don't care about Fabian currently working as anything.
On the other hand, I am busy doing Work Practice activities on vacation because before the Lebaran holiday. And this activity continued 2 weeks later. Officers also entered work as usual.
