First Love & Best Friends
Twenty Three
Not felt now has stepped on Semester 2 in class 11 High School. I'm happy, because in these 11th grade seconds it will most likely split up or be randomized to the class again in 12th grade later. Another reason because at the end of the class increase held a picnic to Bali. Agenda for the students of Class 2 High School.
Early 2009, in January. Still on the same theme in previous years, it turns out that the arrival of Fabian in the dream still continues today. I myself do not understand what makes me dream of it again in my sleep. Though thought he was not too, but somehow the dream never disappeared from my sleep exactly. The effect of the incident after meeting Fabian through a dream, when meeting at school a sense of wrong behavior twitched again in the heart. Especially if you meet him and immediately smile sweetly at me. The feeling of misbehavior is becoming.
Like last Saturday, on January 17, 2009. I went home as usual on the bus with Luna and Gazela. But it turns out I saw Fabian this afternoon will also take the bus when he returned home with Anto who was also a junior in Junior High. The bus we were waiting for turned out to be a long time coming, saturation began to break in this afternoon.
When the long-awaited bus finally came too. But when we were about to board the bus, it was already full. I also saw Fabian with Anto also could not get into the bus, even they were seen holding iron on the bus.
I prank Anto who is indeed he is my neighbor as well.”Ih, your hanging is like monkey”.
But Anto did not respond, even looking Fabian. And Fabian immediately threw a smile at me. As usual, I reflexively returned a smile from Fabian with question marks again in my mind.
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In the early 11th grade of High School this 2nd semester also somehow, I long hated the treatment Praise me. That patience can no longer be contained. Finally I decided to move a different seat with Puji. Because I can't stand my own attitude. Knowing this, the classmates felt kepo and asked about what happened to me and Praise.
I just told that to some of my girl friends in class. After telling me, I don't know what makes me feel relieved. Their expressions were only beards, some even gave me advice on what was going on between me and Praise.
One day, on Saturday afternoon. My class got a turn in at the computer lab. Just as I was about to leave the classroom for the computer lab, Puji suddenly gave me a letter. I frowned when I found out that. “Find once the hell he's this, so males deh. Why try to give all letters to me” my mind still feels upset plus annoyed with the attitude of Praise.
“Letter read yes Mi” pinta Praise please.
When Puji asked me to read the letter, my expression immediately melengos and unfriendly. I nodded with a half-hearted feeling while receiving a letter from Puji. I read the letter while in the Computer Laboratory. The contents of the letter apologized to me, Luna, Tyas, and Gazela about the events of a year ago that had lied to me. It felt so lazy to accept an apology from Puji. In the letter, Puji did not apologize to Fabian at all. In my opinion, Puji made the biggest mistake to Fabian when he confessed many things about the lie and claimed to be close and familiar with Fabian.
After reading the letter from Puji, I still felt lazy with him let alone remembering his already outrageous attitudes. My classmates found out when I was given a letter from Puji. I allowed them to read the letter without regard to the gestures Praise saw me showing the letter of her gift. After they received the letter Praise gave me, they were like supporting me to forgive the act of praise.
When I got home from school, I showed the letter to the three of them to read it. After reading, it appeared that Tyas' expression instantly felt ilfill.
“Keep, you're sorry she Mi was?” ask Gazela to me.
I shook my head briefly at Gazela with a badmood expression. Having that expression, Gazela was just a beard. While Luna herself also knows what happened to me and Praise. Luna can only strengthen me when I get into that problem.
When I got home, I read the letter again. That ilfill sense came up again and my mind immediately flashback on the painful events after events. “Already, I'm lazy to have to remember that again” as I throw the letter in the trash.
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In the midst of my conflict with Puji, I still feel I have a sweet smile from Fabian. That sinless sweet smile always reminded me of my cruel deeds involving Fabian. From Fabian's smiley face, I could feel shady when I saw him. My feelings grew even more painful when I remembered the incident and it was bad to think that I had first accused him, perhaps the effect of the story that was told Praise that seemed to convince me. It felt like my lips wanted to say Sorry to the guy who always gave me that sweet, sincere smile. But I have not dared to apologize to Fabian. What I was afraid of when I said my apologies and told the truth was that Fabian would definitely not want to rebuke me again. I know, telling the truth is painful. But the thing I've been afraid of all this time is losing her. I don't know why this feeling is getting deeper on him. I shouldn't have done what Praise did to me. The regret was dancing in my mind.
Date, 20 January 2009. This afternoon after school as usual, I went home with Luna and Gazela. It turned out that Fabian also took the bus again with my neighbor who was also still a junior. On this bus too, I was standing in the back right with Fabian and Anto. I who was holding iron in the middle of the bus window suddenly felt that there was a naughty hand that opened my bag and took the books and other stationery. Yup, who else if it wasn't Anto who did that.
“Ih, you are naughty yes take the same book my ruler” my protest.
It looks Anto just chuckled after doing the ignorant action. When I asked to put the book and the ruler in my pocket again, he immediately refused. Finally I asked Fabian to put the book and the ruler in my bag again.
“Fab, please dong enter in atasku” my door while handing over the book and ruler to put in my bag.
Benevolently, Fabian took the book and ruler from me to put in my bag. When I got into the sewage with Anto, Fabian just smiled. After Fabian put it all in my bag, I thanked him. It felt increasingly wrong to see Fabian respond with a nod and a smile at me.
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