First Love & Best Friends

Fifteen

I'm getting clueless with Fabian's attitude toward me. What does a smile mean? I don't know how many times she smiled at me. I don't want GR or wrongly catch with Fabian's attitude. But his behavior lately has been making me clueless. Not to mention the dreams about Fabian also still continue until now. The dream of Fabian feels like experiencing real-world events. It was like knowing him in his old class. Suddenly I started flashback again in the 8B class first when Junior High, how good Fabian to me though sometimes remembered back when first-class with him I made ilfill continue to be the same Fabian. All those moments are neat and sweet in my mind. “Ah, the hell time I actually have a crush on him” my inner self hesitated.

If you don't have a crush on Fabian, I shouldn't be as angry as yesterday when lied to Puji. I was not hurt and broke my heart yesterday. “Why does it feel so weird with my heart?” my mind is getting more and more uncertain.

Tonight, I fell asleep and ready to dream.

But.......

I feel like I'm in 10D, right in Fabian's class. I was in class. Suddenly Fabian introduced me to a familiar figure to me. Bowo, the guy I used to assess in SD and turned me down.

“Mi, know this temenku” explained Fabian while introducing him to me.

When I saw that face again, I just smiled wryly at him while nodding. “Ihh, Fabian what the hell. I want to know someone I don't want to see anymore. I like you, not him” my mind is upset.

I woke up and realized that the recent incident was just a dream. But somehow I felt a tightness when I remembered it. “No matter, people in the past came and destroyed my dream” snorted me as I got out of bed and got ready to go to school.

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On April 2, 2008. This morning I was late for school, because the bus I was waiting for was late. Arriving at school, I could still be allowed to enter the school, because it was not too long late. I gasped when I entered the class.

Time passes, day comes.

I immediately rushed home to prepare for Sports, as I was about to cross at the bus stop. Someone called me by opening his helmet. I stopped the step. It turned out that he was my neighbor who was coming home from school as well, he offered me to go home with him. I agreed. Arriving home, I got ready to take a shower and started changing sports shirts. Once everything was ready, I immediately went to sports.

As usual, I walked out of the housing to take the bus and drove me this afternoon to get to the traffic light near the transport stop that drove me to school.

When I was about to cross, my gaze turned to a man who was familiar to me was riding a motorcycle and almost passed in front of my housing. “Fabian” cried in my heart while observing the motor he was driving.

Suddenly Fabian stopped in front of me while opening his helmet glass. “Hy Mi, where are you going?” asked Fabian kindly and garnished her sweet smile.

I was shocked when Fabian asked me. It feels wrong and almost shouts of excitement. I was suddenly nervous and answered”Nnothing.”

For a moment Fabian immediately slid away leaving me. My heart was blown when Fabian finally remembered namakudan and called me without EH again. “Seriously Fabian remember my name? I don't dream, do I?” my mind still doesn't believe.

After that incident, it felt more and more shadowy and I couldn't save my joy this afternoon. The incident just made me remember something when Fabian wrote my name on the back page of the book. “What do not-don't Fabian still keep a notebook that has my name that” guess I started keGRan.

After I started exercising at school, I couldn't wait to tell Rere. As usual, Rere chuckled in response to an SMS from me about the incident that afternoon.

I still feel like I'm smiling indistinctly when I imagine the incident. “Gratitude deh, finally you understand also my name” my mind is happy.

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The dream came more and more to welcome my sleep. I wondered more and more at heart what the meaning of the dream was. Like tonight, I dream of it again.

I felt like I was with Rere and Fabian when I got home from school, but this was in High School not in Junior High. The three of us went home together.

“We hang out first yuk” take me to Rere and Fabian.

They immediately agreed. “Already, we stop here”

Without realizing it, the three of us had been hanging out for quite a while. Then Fabian pinta.

“Mi, go home yuk..” invite Fabian who is getting bored.

“Later dong Fab, home. Still at home here, doing at home” I said.

Fabian relented and now he is silent. Then Fabian whined to me again to ask to come home as soon as Rere was confiding with me. It was Rere's turn to protest against Fabian

“Before dong Fab, later on go home. Why the hell at home”

Fabian looked silent again, not too long ago he fell silent. Suddenly Fabian was still pushing me home. “Ayo Mi home. It was also afternoon nih”

“Fab, beware ya si Rere again confide in me” my door once again.

Shortly after, the bus we used to ride passed by. Fabian immediately got up and boarded the bus. Before he got on the bus, he said goodbye to me.

“Mi, I go home first ya”

The bus left us both. There was actually a feeling of guilt in my heart, but it turned out that Rere was still continuing his confiding session to me. I'm still listening to Rere's curses through to the end.

I woke up in the middle of the night and realized that the incident had just turned out to be a dream. “What does that mean? why every time I dream Rere there must be my inner Fabian” who turns out to immediately feel a heartbeat.

I was still sleepy, and the sleep continued. In the morning I went to school as usual and took lessons as usual.

After school, Luna and Gazela took me to a comic book rental. This time I went with them. Arriving there, right in front of the comic rental gate I saw a motorcycle that was familiar to me. “Hahh? I think Fabian”'s motorbike guessed me in my heart.

After entering the comic rental place, it's not wrong that I actually met Fabian inside with some of his friends. For some reason, my heart rippled when I found out Fabian was there too. “What might this effect last night out dreamin him. Now meet directly the same person my inner”.

When Fabian was choosing comic books that were on the shelves of comics. He looked over and was shocked to see me with friends. I smiled at him, then asked”You also like comics huh Fab?”

Fabian turned to me and replied with a nod while turning back the comic he was reading. Gazela was also surprised to find Fabian in a comic rental as well. After a long time at the comic rental, will soon leave the comic rental place while wearing shoes that are released outside, suddenly Gazela said”Eh Fab, which is not the case, I'd like to say yes to you” to Fabian who just came out of the rental with Yuda and Setya to wear their own shoes.

Yuda, Fabian's friend immediately berceleletuk”Dicariin same Praise tuh”. Hearing the wit from Fabian's friends, they laughed including me. But somehow I suddenly felt pain in my heart when Fabian's friend said that, lazy to hear the name Praise again in my ear.

Gazela added it to Fabian's fishing. “Praise your liking Fab”

Hearing Fabian say that, I was a little surprised. But in my heart it's upset that Gazela is asking that question, which is sure to make me even more upset. “Nevent to be taken in again why the hell. Make more and more ilfill aja” my mind is irritated.

“Allet alone acquaintance ya Fab, sorry very” Yuda said while adding.

“So the story has been a lie dong?” tanya Gazela pretended to be fishing Fabian again.

“Iya, the story during this lie” replied Fabian quickly.

Hearing the words from Fabian directly, my heart immediately calmed down and relieved. Although I was very upset with Gazela who tried to lure Fabian replied that.

“Not Mi, Praise your lies?” luna said whispering it to me

“Iya Lun, Praise for lying to me. Well, I'm not feeling well myself as Fabian” replied I whispered to Luna too.

Luna smiled understandingly at me. And I myself also feel relieved to know that this is just a lie. After this incident, I still feel bad.

The next night I dreamed about Fabian again, but I wasn't thinking about him before.

I felt like I was in the High School that I now occupy, when I came home from school somehow Luna and Gazela turned out to leave me alone. I feel so bad.

Seeing that I was alone without Luna and Gazela, Fabian approached me.

“Selp aja Mi?” ask Fabian.

“Iya Fab, I was left the same they both” replied I felt badmood.

“Where are you going?” ask Fabian again.

“I have a promise anyway same Temen-temen SMP, want to CL” explained.

“Yaudah, I anter you ya” bargain Fabian full smile.

I looked like I was still thinking, then I agreed to Fabian's offer.

“Iya deh, but I boncengnya aja aja yes. Kan wear skirt” my door.

Fabian immediately did not approve.”Udah, bonceng as usual aja”. For some reason, Fabian's words immediately agreed. Then I was taken with him to his destination.

“Still yes Fab, sorry so ngrepotin kamu” said.

“Sama-sama Mi. Yes, just relax again” Fabian's smile.

I walked into the Mall alone, and they were waiting for me in front of the bookstore. Looks like they're lecturing me for waiting for me a long time ago.

“Sorry yes lama” said I feel guilty for them.

“Hmm, yes already what Mi” nods Tiwi.

“Emang you were here earlier ushered who?” ask Rere.

“I was escorted with dia” cengirku.

Hearing that, they compactly ciee-ciee ria to me. I can only be embarrassed.

Realize, that's when I woke up from my sleep. “Dream him again earlier, what yes means these dreamsmy inner” with a dumbfounded expression and middle set heart rate.

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A few days later, the incident appeared again and on his way home from school. Date, April 12, 2008. I just left class to go home, cross paths with Fabian in front of class 10 C who will pass and take the bike in the parking lot that is located in front of my class.

I'll walk to the left, Fabian to the left. When I took the road to the right, Fabian was the same. “Ihh, Fabian this is nothing?” my mind was confused by Fabian's desire to walk in which direction. As I moved forward, he also stepped forward. We almost collided. Knowing this, Fabian looked at me and smiled at me. I returned a smile from Fabian that always made me misbehave and feel my heart beating fast.

After that incident, I was still curious about her behavior that always made me wonder. “Fabian is yes, always is. Make me more wrong behavior” I said from the heart while walking out the school gate.

Meanwhile, ever since my fight with Puji last Saturday, it somehow made me get along with him again. I don't know why, but my heart is hurting. But I don't care about my own feelings. I always talked to him about Fabian.

A week after the incident I almost hit Fabian. This Friday, April 18, 2008, I was outside the school gate with Puji as usual while hanging out. I saw Fabian running out of the school gate and walking alone.

“Running-ranal fall lhoh” seruku for Fabian while running out the gate.

Fabian turned his head as I said so, he suddenly smiled sweetly at me. Seeing Fabian smile, I reflexed to reply as usual with an unusually tight heartbeat.

Still, Puji's expression was very excited when he saw Fabian smiling at me.

“Ciee, wear her uniform together OSIS” Cheers Praise when seeing the uniform that I was wearing the same as Fabian.

“Biarin dong, the blue checkered uniform tomorrow week is used for field studies again” reply me.

“You also wear the OSIS” shirt, I said while observing Puji wearing the same uniform as me.

Praise seeing the uniform she wears herself while grimacing. After that we decided to go home.

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