First Love & Best Friends
Thirty Six
Sunday, 25 April 2010. Where the school held a simple Promnight event held on the page of our High School. At this simple Promnight event, girls wear black and guys wear white. Again my heart was made to waver when I saw Fabian coming in wearing a regular white shirt, he looked really cool.
I used to blend in with my three friends Luna, Tyas, and Gazela while waiting for the event to start. While me and other friends are filled with feelings of anxiety because tomorrow has been the announcement of graduation. The show went well and tonight it turned out to be a video screening. I was astonished because the video contained when I was taken all out by Dangdung cs. “Gosh! They're so terrible muterin this crazy video, make me ashamed my inner” feels so bad.
Not to mention when Jeprex took the mic when he went up to the stage and said that Dangdung told me to come up to me who was sitting in the back row. I ran straight away with my stomach still hurting. “Oath! Wanna put where my face is if they're not content to bully me this far. Mana in front of my old friends” grumbled while avoiding those who continue to chase me in the condition of my stomach pain due to the second day of menstruation. I saw Fabian and Wawan follow amused to see this crazy incident. When I felt like they had moved away, I hid behind Fabian while breathing.
Really embarrassing tonight, I don't want to remember this Promnight incident. I want to change tomorrow, tomorrow, and tomorrow until I don't see them again.
The next day, on April 26, 2010. Where today is the announcement of concurrent High School graduation in Indonesia. The feeling of heaving in my heart. Strained for sure, I who had been standing by at school was not yet out the results of his announcement. Soon my three friends and I headed to the cafe to see the results of the graduation announcement. Once there, the four of us immediately entered their respective IDs and Passwords. The three of them looked excited after being declared not to repeat the alias PASS. But my turn when opening ID and Password to open the results of the announcement, it has not been declared pass. I was shocked, sad, limp, and speech was mixed in my heart. It was completely destroyed this afternoon when I found out the results of the announcement did not match my three friends. I was crying because I was so sad to know something bad happened to me. I feel like I failed this time, even though the three of them have tried to comfort me. But my heart was completely broken. I immediately told my closest friends including Wawan who was familiar with me since he was in class 12 IS 4.
They found out my results immediately supported me to be more active in learning. Wawan initially could not believe what was happening to me. Until the night Wawan asked my ID and Password to check the results of my announcement. After knowing I was declared not graduated aka repeat. Wawan is supporting me more and more. Even Wawan willing not to reply to my message because I can not fail again when repeating it later. “Subhanallah Wawan is very good with me. When I fell like this, he still wanted to support me. Sorry yes Wan, I used to have almost a crush on you who I deserved more as a friend than I was a taxi like Fabian” my inner pride on Wawan.
Actually, I also want to tell Fabian. But the truth is I don't have Fabian's contact. “Where was Fabian's reaction when I was declared not to pass this time?” I felt in my heart with sadness. At times like this, it feels like Fabian's support as well, but indeed I myself do not have his contact so I can only be quiet. And by the time of graduation, I never understood Fabian's news again. “Maybe Fabian is preparing to continue his studies out of town.Entah next Fabian continues where” guessed me from the heart.
I'm getting more focused and busy preparing material for my failure this time around. I'm optimistic that I will be declared PASS this time. A month later, the retest started, I repeated two subjects. I'm focused on what I'm getting right now. Not even a little considering Fabian, because I predict he's far out of town. Maybe this way I can quickly forget it.
Shortly after the announcement arrived, I was finally declared a graduate from the school. All my closest friends feel proud of what I have achieved now including Wawan. And thanks to Wawan also I am very grateful to him for the support he has given me all this time.
After exhausting to meet the National Exam material for repeating, I was busy again by studying again to face the D-III Independent Examination at Diponegoro University. Months later, after I've done the entrance test. It is still awaiting its announcement again. I was very excited when it was stated at Diponegoro University even though it was through the D-III route. It felt like a dream when it was stated at the University that I had wanted from childhood. I feel so proud this time. Remember the saying”Failure is the key to success”. Finally in September 2010 I officially became a student at the University of this country. My closest friends were also happy when I found out I entered Diponegoro University. Yes, it's a favorite university that contains geniuses. Wawan is also proud of what I have achieved now.
But the joy of Wawan when I got accepted at the state University, did not make him proud of himself. Wawan is entering a private university. Knowing this, I took turns to support him and said that entering any university is not a problem. As long as we are able. Meanwhile, behind my success in entering a public university in Semarang. Apparently Rere had to move again to his homeland, Palembang. I was so sad, even to the point of crying when Rere said goodbye to me about to move in Palembang. Rossi was accepted at STIFAR, Tyas was accepted at Private University, Stefani and Nurul were accepted at Unnes, Gazela was accepted at Polines, and Luna was accepted at Undip as well as me.
Now is the time to become a New Student Candidate. Activities for the sake of activities such as the New Student Admission Ceremony, OSEK Activities are held during Ramadan. I was very excited when I found a faculty with Luna. Yup, it's nice to meet Luna from Junior High until this lecture. Luna is majoring in Japanese Literature s1.
“Loe again, Loe again. Ahh, boss Gue” protested Luna knowing me one campus with Luna again.
Luna replied in a clucking manner, I laughed even more at Luna's expression like that. The beginning of being a student does need extra adaptation, because campus friends are not only from within the city. There are even those from outside the city to outside Java.
Being a freshman with new friends as well, made me get to know a friend named Indri. Even so, I still remain with Luna on various occasions. Well, maybe at this college too I can completely forget about Fabian. This was the beginning where I had to adapt to the others.
Actually when Lebaran arrived, I sent something on Fabian's Facebook wall to say Lebaran Day. But it has not been responded by the account owner.
This afternoon when I returned from college, I met Ussi a friend from Junior High to High School. Ussi continued his studies just like Gazela and revealed that they were a major.
While telling stories, Ussi suddenly told me about Fabian. Ussi tells the story of Fabian studying at a private university, somehow Ussi forgot his name.
“Out of town does he study?” ask Ussi.
“No idea about Mi, it looks like she's still in Semarang. But where is it I forgot” explained Ussi.
I was surprised when Ussi said that Fabian was still in Semarang. “Serious Fabian not going out of town? Fabian is still in Semarang?” my mind jumped because it was tucked away with pleasure.
“Oh, I guess so out of town she” my response.
“It seems that he is not Mi, Fabian is still in Semarang” explained Ussi again
I'm just a beard. Suddenly a curiosity about Fabian appeared. “Where are the lectures now?” my question is in my heart.
