First Love & Best Friends
The Forty Thirty
I don't know what's on my mind right now, given what Gazela meant by exposing my secret about how I felt about Fabian to Gazela's own mother. Since Gazela mentioned the name Fabian again. I automatically thought of Fabian's face again. It was good yesterday that I forgot about Fabian, now I remember him again. My heart ached when I remembered Fabian saying her love for Okta back then. Really sick. But I tried to forget about that.
I was sad when my brain recalled the days of Junior High School and High School. Meanwhile, I never met Fabian again. Yeah, since the beginning of March and I didn't cut down Fabian. But the more I came here, the weird feeling always greeted my heart. Wawan himself supported me more and more as I talked more and more about Fabian, even though he unconsciously made my heart wrong. “The clouds seem to support me once. After all, I love to tease me with my inner Fabian” wonder.
Again and again it was like I was having a real event but it turned out to be a dream
Suddenly I felt like I was in my own campus, exactly sitting in my campus security post. Unknowingly, my gaze turned to someone who was none other than Fabian. I immediately approached Fabian who was sitting on his bike.
“Lhoh Fab, why are you here?” I asked as I approached Fabian.
Fabian turned his head, then smiled at me and responded to me. “Against my girl Mi..”
I was shocked and immediately excited. “Eh, your girl is in college here too huh. What majors is he Fab?”
“My girl is you Mi” replied Fabian briefly full of smiles
I was shocked again when I listened to Fabian say that to me.”What Fab? I'm your girl?” I nodded while pointing at myself.
Fabian nodded quickly and smiled at me again. “Iya Mi, that's why I'm here to pick you up. I want to recognize you to my parents” Fabian explained.
My mind is still wondering with Fabian's explanation to me, without thinking long I immediately piggybacked Fabian.
After Fabian's house, I was immediately invited in and sat down in the living room by Fabian. Fabian went inside to call his parents. But all I saw was his father, because his mother was out.
“Om...” my nod was full of smiles as I greeted him sitting across the sofa I was sitting on and shaking hands with Fabian's father.
Fabian's father seemed to nod and smile kindly at me, then I was told to sit down again.
“Oh, this is what Mimi is called. Fabian used to tell me a lot about you” Fabian's father explained.
I was a little surprised when Fabian's father told me so.”Huh uh? Fabian any story about me?” my question is in my heart.
Then Fabian's dad and I told each other. Fabian's father wondered about my family, about me now, and more. Somehow, when I called Fabian's father called “Om”. Suddenly Fabian's father said”Already, you call me Papa. Like Fabian called me”. Hearing that, Fabian who was suddenly sitting to my left followed a smile towards me.
I woke up because I had not prayed Isya. And it dawned that the recent incident was a dream I was very surprised.”Fabian knows me as well as his parents? What does Fabian mean?” my mind keeps wondering.
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Ever since that dream last night, I've always been made to wonder in my heart about the dreams that still come for me. Because of his thoughts, I could hardly concentrate when the lecture took place. “What happened to me and Fabian? I'm getting clueless with everything. Yes, the meaning of the smile from him, the meaning of his behavior is the same as me, the meaning of dreams is also still residing in my sleep. Why did it all end like this? Whereas before I had never experienced this incident and I felt also when my meeting with Fabian felt very strange my inner” who was unceasingly asking about what happened to me.
Not long ago I experienced a dream event yesterday, this time I experienced an almost real event again because I slept in front of the television.
It was like being in my own college. I just finished my graduation, plan to find Fabian who happens to be one campus with me despite different majors. Suddenly I ran into Fabian's close friends. And one of them, some say”Mi, kasian tuh Fabian. He was confused to find the title of the thesis. Now Fabian in the library”
Hearing an explanation from one of his friends, I responded”Oh, Fabian in the library turned out. Thanks ya”
I nodded to them. After that, I split up and I immediately headed to the library to get to Fabian. Arriving at the library, I saw Fabian still struggling with a bookshelf and some examples of the thesis in front of him.
Immediately I approached Fabian who was sitting alone while sitting across from his chair and said.”Last time I met your friends kept saying you were dizzy looking for the title scription”
It turned out that my voice made Fabian look up straight at me.”Yes Mi. I'm really dizzy looking for the title” Fabian story with a resigned expression
I smiled as Fabian said that, then I responded with the words support.”Patience Fab, later also met the title of the script”.
For some reason, suddenly Fabian held my hand and looked at me with a gentle gaze then said.”Mi, do you want to wait for me to finish college later?”
I was shocked when Fabian said that, while my hand was still held by Fabian. And without a second thought I nodded in agreement to Fabian.”Yes Fab, I want to wait until you finish college” I said full of smiles.
“Thanks yes Mi” Fabian smile widens.
I nodded once again to Fabian for his thanks.
My reflexes awakened from sleep and realized that the events had just turned out to be just dreams. “Astagfirullah! What dream did I just have? Fabian want to be serious with me?” my mind was shocked as I remembered the dream that felt real. I never thought about Fabian. Yup, this dream incident happened while I was busy with my Final Task. I still wonder about what happened in the dream.
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It was only a few months ago that I was heartbroken by Fabian. But it turns out that Fabian's dream still came to me. In the dream, it felt like Fabian was giving me new hope. “Fabian Nyesel has shot Okta without my downfall? No way, Fabian's not the guy. Even in reality Fabian doesn't know what happened to me my inner” wonders anymore. Do not-don't I have been insensitive again the same feeling through his strange behavior. Not to mention hearing that there is a younger classmate who likes me. Looks like Fabian didn't take it, so he came to me through a dream. But I don't know exactly how it is.
I do realize my feelings now, it turns out my feelings are the same Fabian is still there. Again I pray”Yes Allah, if Fabian is my soul mate, bring me closer to him. If you are not a match, keep all my feelings so far until completely lost”.
The dream did not seem to want to disappear from my sleep. Like tonight I feel like I'm experiencing something like reality again.
Tonight while I was in my room, I suddenly got an SMS from Fabian. “Mi, actually in your heart there is already someone yet?”
I was surprised when I read a short message from Fabian, then without a second thought I replied to his short message.”Hmm, not yet Fab. Why?”
It didn't take long, Fabian replied to my short message again. “Will you marry me..”.
A short message I got again from Fabian. When I read the short message, I was very surprised and certainly speechless. “Hahh, Fabian proposed to me?” my mind is very wrong.
When I will reply from him......
I woke up and must have been surprised to realize that the recent incident was a dream. “Eh, what was my dream?” my question is in my heart. “It looks like I had a dream applied to Fabian?” I murmured as I remembered the events in the dream.
I was contemplating something that had happened to me lately even through a dream. “What is the meaning of the dreams that are happening to me now? Fabian's dream was to know me to his parents, Fabian's dream was to make me serious in relationships, and most recently it was a dream I applied to Fabian?” my mind is still questioning about the events I experienced in the end of this episode through dreams.
Even getting here when I tell my close friends it seems like they also do not understand what I am experiencing until now. But on the other hand they also support me with what I am experiencing right now. I felt like I was being given a clue from the events in the dream.
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