First Love & Best Friends
Forty Two
Still in the mood of a Semester holiday. In this semester break, I deliberately took the Short Semester Lecture with the aim to improve grades. The lectures are held for two days a week. I happened to be taking two live courses. Although the price per sks is expensive. But I just follow it for the sake of improving the grades.
Busy with Short Semester Lectures and revision of the Work Practice Report ahead of this 6th semester. I have now completely forgotten about Fabian
On the sidelines I followed the Short Semester, making me not forget to have quality time with Stefani and Nurul. It was just the three of us, either spending time wherever it was important to gather with them.
This Friday, February 15, 2013. Me, Stefani, and Nurul do have a quality time plan again as I ambush my new broken phone. And just today was Fabian's birthday. Somehow, there was a desire to say birthday to Fabian through mobile number (because I still keep the number). After typing a short message containing birthday greeting, but Fabian never reply. I let it go for a moment, because I was also sending messages to Stefani, Nurul, and Okta.
For a long time I forgot to say birthday message via Fabian mobile number in SMS. Today I really dissolve with my love with Stefani and Nurul, and have a nice SMSan with Okta. I felt free from the burden in my mind all this time. It's so exciting today, to forget about the incident of saying birthday to Fabian and really don't care about Fabian who will reply to my message or not. I never forced him one bit.
In the afternoon, it did not feel like the three of us were spending free time in the Mall that used to make my hangout and them. Now I and my two friends who are stopping in line for ablution because they want to perform the Ashar prayer. I am still in line ablution, suddenly want to check the phone I put in my jeans pocket. After checking the phone, there was 1 message received. I opened the message and read it without seeing who sent the SMS.
Amin, thank you ^^
Remember my birthday
That's his SMS message. I was thinking for a moment”I was SMS how the same Okta. How come the reply is like this?”. I thought for a long time and wondered in my heart. Because I was still confused by the SMS I originally thought from Okta.
Unintentionally, I read the sender of the SMS. “Fabian..” shock. After being completely aware that this morning I was saying my birthday to her, I almost cried out in excitement and was definitely tucked away with an overwhelming feeling of misbehavior this afternoon. Yes, it turns out that the one who sent Fabian a message to say thank you was not from Okta. To the point that Stefani and Nurul turned their heads towards me. While cursing with excitement, I replied to a message from Fabian again. Finally Fabian and I had time to send a message, even if only for a moment.
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After that, I felt like I was in love with her again. “Iya, right Stefani said. If Fabian doesn't know about my feelings that have been heartbroken because of my inner” when I realize that.
But the more I get here, the less I can bear to erase Fabian's message. Fabian's message I deleted because it was forced to order his entry on my old cell phone full. After I've erased everything. I cried, because I felt this was just the sweetest memory of her. And from then on, my feelings turned sour again. The strange taste appeared again in the heart, it was like falling in love with Fabian again. Yes, the feeling that I had thrown away was turned back to the feeling of love again. Certainly darling.
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In the seconds spent this semester vacation time, the next vacation before starting to go to college again. Me and my two best friends spent time at Luna's house, because they wanted to spend time on this day as well. It felt really good today and ended up visiting Gazela's house because there was something. It's really lazy to go there, but for Stefani and Nurul's sake I followed him.
After the problem that has not been resolved at this time, finally say goodbye even though with a feeling of resentment in Nurul's heart. Suddenly Gazela told the Mama while laughing about me graduating late because there was one thing I had to improve her grades. And even worse when Gazela says”Ma, Mimi likes Fabian. That's the same SMP SMA”
I was so shocked, I suddenly felt my heart ache once Gazela said that in front of her Mama. This afternoon, I wanted to cry and get close to her because of that painful thing. “Crazy! Gazela's mouth is thin, open my disgrace and hold him. Just look at it later. In this second I also regretted thinking of him as a close friend and did not want to confide with Gazela about anything” my oath in my heart with a very painful feeling. Right now also my eyes are glazed and automatically Fabian's face remembers again completely. “Rese loe, so temen! It could be a stab from behind” umpatku again.
Since that incident, I've been getting more confused with a girl named Gazela. People I know well from the SD era until now. And ever since that incident, I never ventured with him again. Deeply sorry.
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