The Way to Find You

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Get down from the second floor with long steps, as well as my manyun lips. Welcomed to the curious face of Aunt Dhiya.

" why Wid ?"

" it's okay Tan" I replied briefly. I chose to leave Aunt Dhiya who was measuring her circumference. Not long after Ares' brother followed down.

" what's the matter Res ?" Aunt Dhiya was curious to see her son walking quickly towards me.

" it's okay ma"

Aunt Dhiya shook her head slowly, sister Ares was sitting next to me.

''sorry, I'm not wrong. should not work brother bring here.we choose again yuk dress" persuaded brother Ares soft.

" already males, whatever brother wants which .''I replied flatly.

" please sorry brother.

"i'm sorry" I said coldly without looking at him.

It's too trivial that I'm angry just because of this. I'm not actually angry. There is a sudden sense of doubt that perched in my heart.it seems too soon this decision was made. it is far from understanding each other. The ego still controls each other. Not yet able to accept each other the nature of the couple . it is actually the main problem .

''do not diemin brother dong Wid'' brother Ares voiced.

''Widi wants to own her brother first said me as I moved. Make Ares's brother immediately stand up from his seat.

''where are you going?, kakakak inter'' he said while juxtaposing my steps. I stopped my footsteps and looked at the worried face in front of me.

''Sir please, Widi wants to be alone first''

'' Wid '', don't kayak gini. brother apologized about earlier'' . Ares sis grabbed my hand. I stared at him lovingly. yes love, clearly visible in his eyes. I have no doubt about that.

But marriage is it only about love ?. Obviously at my age of almost 26 years, love is not the only thing that makes me married.

''Please anterin Widi to Livi kak's apartment" said I don't want to talk much anymore. No longer answering, brother Ares took my hand and stepped out of the boutique.

''where are you going?, have not been measured to make wedding clothes Aunty Dhiya voice stopped our steps.

'' tomorrow we come again ma, I'm with Widi there is an event outside''

'' yes Auntie, Widi first yes'' I looked at Aunt Dhiya who was standing a bit away from us.

" yes, be careful"

" yes aunt''

Leaving the boutique, my mind kept wandering .too much to my horror, getting married was not a trial-and-error event that if it did not fit could easily be replaced.Married a relationship of two hearts, two heads, two egos, two egos,two attitudes.it is not easy to take the middle path. While me and Ares are still comfortable in their own selfishness.

I'm not a woman who likes possessiveness.I think it's too restrictive, marriage is enough to bind my heart not my freedom. I know enough limits in making friends.just trust me, no need to be jealous . But with the nature that Ares has shown to date, I don't think I can accept it.

'' How did you come here ?" I said when I realized Ares's brother stopped not in Livi's apartment but Ares's apartment. There was no answer, brother Ares got out of his car after the car was parked neatly. Opened the passenger door, I immediately went out . still no word . Only Ares's brother's hand held my hand, making me obey as he entered the elevator.

" i told you I wanted to "mute myself when I was in the elevator.

" sister doesn't want you to tell me if you're angry" she replied without looking at me but with her hands still holding mine.

My hand was just released after we were in the apartment. I was sitting on the sofa while Ares was heading to his room. for a moment, silent myself, I went to the dining room.

" luck !" call Ares' brother who doesn't find me in his living room.

" what brother" I said as I stepped closer to him.

" sister thinks where you are" said Ares, who had changed his clothes.

" abis grab a drink "I picked up the canned drink in my hand and sat back down on the sofa. like two strangers sitting next to each other without a conversation.

Brother Ares grabbed my hand who had just placed a can of drink on the table .

" you why the hell?, I don't know this is not just you disbelieving because brother did not pay attention to you earlier" softly said it flowed from the lips of Ares' sister. I dropped my head on Ares's shoulder. I needed a backrest, with Ares's sweet attitude I should not hesitate. but behind his sweet attitude I do not like all possessive attitudes that are difficult to change .

"sister, you know.I'm not a person who is used to living under the orders of others.You must know, if I can't be bridled. Brother know my true character how ?".

" do you feel constrained by our relationship ?".

" it's not our relationship that bothers Widi, but the way my sister loves me". I still hold my position leaning on her shoulder. There's no telling, that's what Ares' sister did .

"I know there are many ways people love and accept love.There are some people who are jealous of feeling loved. they are fond of the possessiveness of their partner because they feel loved. but I am not their brother . just believe that I love you, just believe there will be no one else among us. Just show how much you love with your honesty, your concern, your understanding, and your trust in me ".

" i'm sorry you've made you uncomfortable, you're not a perfect partner, but never think of leaving your sister. Give your sister time to learn, learn to understand, and understand about you". said Ares while gently stroking my hair.

I just want to open up, say everything that bothers me. I don't want my silence to be a time bomb that will destroy everything. I don't want to get hurt for love anymore. Moreover, we've come this far. Marriage should happen once in a lifetime.and I'm sure it's everyone's dream.no one is proud of a parting word.

" i want, we become a couple that can be open sak. so that we can better understand each other. This relationship has not been long , we still do not understand let alone understand. Marriage is not just about love. more than that, brother, I never doubt the love between us, but I still doubt about us. Have we really become us ?".

" you're right, we're not yet us . because I'm still with my ego and you're still your way.you're right we have to be open to each other. Stay by my side, teach me to understand you".

" teach me to accept the way you love me".

Our eyes meet, there is relief in my heart.it will be impossible for two heads to be one, which may be merely understanding the contents of each other's heads.