The Way to Find You

sun smiles

Gentle wind caressed my skin, a cool feeling that was so soothing. the sun smile so cheerful this morning. feels warm, warms the cold my race. slowly sturdy bike down the road on the edge of the rice field. for a while I drove in silence, enjoying the peaceful touch of nature. My burden is lifted a little, I try to forget little by little this sense of lara. hoping that I can make peace with the shackled past.

"ehemm.." dehem Haris was cycling next to me.

"why ?"

"just diem"

''this is again enjoying the atmosphere of nature that is so peaceful"

"that's right, there's no special feeling"

'' it's for you, every day you look at the cake gini. while I, every day looked at the building, cars, motorbikes, macet. aaah bete" my story at length.

Just seen a smile on the lips of Haris who heard my words. somehow the smile looks charming in my eyes. for a moment I was amazed. indeed Haris face is not a handsome face above average. he looked ordinary but there was a calming aura on that face.

"where are we going ?" ask Haris who continues to paddle with a forward look.

"gue goes with lolah, you also don't really understand here"

" to the lake how ?"

"okay"

we continued to cycle through the rice fields that looked green with rice plants.at the far end there, the mountains towering.really the perfect painting of the creator.

"Ris, I used to have two older sisters. where were ?"

"mas, Anto goes with his wife, because his wife does not want to take care of mother. mbak ida goes with her husband "

" they never helped me with that ?"

"if Mas Anto has not come home for a long time, if mbak ida, sometimes still here"

"how long has my mother been sick ?"

"almost four years".

"the first few months are still the same mas Anto, but when his wife does not want to be here again, I'm automatically managing myself''

"and that's the reason you're still alone ?"

"yes, I don't want to if I have a wife but I don't accept mother" he explained with a smile .

if I think it's amazing, really loving man. sacrificed happiness for the mother.I smile myself feeling ashamed of myself. let alone to sacrifice to say thank you and love for mama still feels heavy on these lips.

We did not feel the pace was getting far, until we were in a lake with water that was so clear.

"wow is so cold" I said in amazement.

"like?" asked Haris after we parked the bike and walked to a bench under a tree that looked so shady.

"banget, thank you for me" I said sincerely.

"sama, hopefully here you can forget a little about your problems". again the smile he showed. and his eyes were so cool.we sat next to each other on the bench.

"yes, I hope so"

we drift in silence, enjoying the song of birds and the dance of leaves adds to the beauty of the charm of this village. It feels comfortable, it wants to be as comfortable as this my heart,the occasional flash of shadow when I was with Adrian was still like a ghost that was often suddenly present.well, where maybe the memories of four years could be erased just like that in an instant.

"what's up ?" haris' voice made me realize that someone was watching my behavior.

"this yes, it feels like keep the soul mate of people. sick" I said softly while staring at Haris' face.

Suddenly Haris' hand clasped my hand.His gentle gaze was fixed on my eyeball.Honestly I was a little nervous.

"the pain will teach you to be stronger and stronger.just consider this as an exercise for you to live your life in the future.sometimes the sweet thing does not end sweet, sweet,and that doesn't mean the pain will continue to torment.no one knows that this pain will lead you to happiness.And when that time comes you will be grateful for the pain you have ever felt"

sincerely, those words slid from Haris' lips.I was really lucky to meet this childhood friend of mine.I looked into his eyes.

"can you borrow your shoulder?" my many. Haris just nodded slowly with a gentle smile.I leaned his head on his shoulders.enjoyed every second that passed with this calmness.and hopefully this pain will evaporate little by little. so that I am not trapped in the past and can step by step I step into my future.