The Way to Find You

sunset

Cool, the wind no longer delivers heat, but a cool feeling that feels so comfortable. I'm still here by the beach sitting on a stretch of sand, enjoying the waves, staring at the breadth of the sea without edges. I breathed deeply, unraveling all the lara in my heart. I should be able to set this heart, I won't let my heart fall apart. I'll collect the debris back my heart rearranges. There will be happiness waiting for me at the end of it. My job now is just to walk until I finally find the end of my path.

Still with the same man, the man who these endings are always there for me. Accompanying my solitude, filling my emptiness. Being my solace, there is always peace that he offers in every look, his smile and his speech.

I rested my head on the shoulder of Haris who was sitting beside me. My eyes are straight ahead. Still in silence we enjoyed this afternoon by the beach.

" Ris, can't I be selfish ?" I nodded after a long moment of silence.

" everyone has the right to be selfish Wid" he said, not seeing the look on the face because I was still leaning on his shoulder without looking at his face.

I no longer speak, I just want to enjoy this moment when I lean my head on my comfortable shoulders. This is what my selfishness means, thinking of myself without caring about the person beside me. Is he comfortable with what I do?, is he a backrest ?. For now I want to be like this.

" what selfishness do you want to do?" after a long time we were silent. Haris opened his voice.

"Like this, this kind of selfishness is what I want to do. I just want to feel my comfort without me having to care about you. You like it or not like this, but I just want this. here on your shoulders"

At first glance I glimpsed his face there was a faint smile drawn there.

Without any more words, Harris pulled my shoulders tightening the back of my head. I looked up a little bit at his face. There was only a sweet smile on her lips, and I returned to leaning back my eyes. The more peaceful I felt, once Haris pulled out my hair that covered my face as the wind blew it away.

The sun continues to crawl to the western horizon.become a beautiful scenery and full of charm. The beautiful Sunset was in the arms of a man who made me feel so calm.A tinge of orange light was left by the sun who had returned to his contest.

I occasionally glanced at the flat face beside me, but there was still no expression, and I felt unable to stop smiling. Today I am happy. Everything feels so beautiful today. If I could stop time, I would stop here. With all the happiness in my chest, forget all my past stories.

" thank you Ris, today I am happy" I said as we stepped into the parking lot.

"No need to thank you, I don't give you anything either"

I stopped my steps, slightly pulling Haris' hand so that her eyes would look at me.

In the dim light, I saw the look in his eyes.

" today you give me the happiness of Ris"

There was a look I couldn't understand from his eyes.so deep he looked at me. Slowly the hand slipped my hair that covered part of the face because it was blown by the wind.

" thank you if I can bring happiness to you, at least there's a meaning to my presence here" the voice said. Haris returned my embrace, some warmed up to the bottom of this sanubari.

The day darkened, we immediately left the beach.In the middle of the journey, Haris stopped to eat at a lesehan. I thought it was because my stomach was hungry. Today I was like a teenager who was just the first date.gugub, there was also embarrassment when I looked at Haris' face. I wish I could say this is love, but I wouldn't be that quick to dare say this feeling of love. However, this wound has not healed completely.