The Way to Find You

Forgive and Forget

Shut up, I chose to be quiet next to Adrian who drove his car slowly. Sometimes Adrian glances at me, I realize it but I don't want to make a sound. Until in a car park Adrian stopped, here we used to spend time together. Adrian knew I would rather park than mall or restaurant to be with him, and now he's brought me back here again.

Still in my silence, Adrian got out of the car and opened the door for me. My chest rumbles between hate, hurt and the rest of the love I confess is still there. I was like a dazed man following Adrian's steps with a pushy look.

" this place, may you never forget this place Wid" Adrian's voice broke the silence.

I sat in one of the chairs followed by Adrian sitting next to me. In this park Adrian once expressed love for me. Maybe things I will never forget. A few moments of silence came back.

" what do you want to talk about ?" I asked coldly, without wanting to look at that face.he heard a heavy sigh.

" i want to apologize, please don't hate me Wid" the weak voice.

" why?, why can't I hate you ?"

" because I still am and will always love you Wid"

I smiled cynically.

" if you love me. why did the indira you married ?"

" indira is pregnant, but please wait for me until Indira gives birth.I will prove that it is not my son" At first glance I look at Adrian's face, there is hope there.

" why would you marry her if you weren't sure it was your son ?"

Still silent, the lips did not budge.

" have you ever done it with him ?"

That little nod made me feel even more betrayed. During my relationship with me was only limited to the kiss we did. I just wanted to keep what I should have been keeping. I did not expect Adrian actually did with other women.

" but I did it with safety, there's no way she's pregnant".

an explanation that made me want to strangle his neck.

I looked at that face with the eyes of my hatred.

" if it turns out to be your son, should I also wait ? until when?. or if it is not your child, do you think I will come back with you again ?"

" I.." the word stopped.

" what am I?, I'm not that stupid as Dri, one thing is for sure. That child is your child or not, you've betrayed me"

" Wid, I'm sorry "spirited that voice, that face looked down deeply. found this fact that the feeling in the heart felt more painful.

" i'm sorry for the pain you've been giving me, I'm sorry for the hurt you've inflicted, I'm sorry for the betrayal you've done.but please don't look for it and see me again. I want to forget everything.until whenever I'll never come back with you.Thank you for everything you've given me. I'm gone, don't see me again ".

With this chest pain, I stood up. Adrian holding my hand.I don't want to stop here anymore, I have to step away from all the stories of the past. I throw Adrian's hand.

My tears fell, my chest squeezed this heart.

" i'm taking you to the cafe" Adrian's voice suddenly came behind me.

" no, I want to be alone first".

"Weed"

" please" I said without looking at him. My steps away from leaving him, walking without a definite purpose. My tears continued to flood down the edge of the road with limp steps. Suddenly a car stopped beside me.

The car's glass was open, I looked at the face I knew. Brother Ares. I stopped the step .

" get in "the word of Brother Ares without getting out of his car. Without thinking I turned around the car and got into the car after the door was opened from the inside by Ares.

No words, nor do I speak. My tears are still flooding despite the many times I have erased them. Ares' sister drove her car still with her flat face without asking what happened to me. I also don't want to tell a stiff man beside me. I just want to cry. Let these tears flow.