The Way to Find You

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the constant feeling of squeezing my mind made me feel sick of all this. What does this tear mean ?. nothing will change even if I cry blood though.he will not come back with me. one thing I have to do now.forget it.however I have to stop loving him.What is the meaning of my adversity, other than showing my weakness.I have to rise.he has been happy with the other, he has been happy with the other,and I have to move on with my life, with or without him, I have to stand.

I left the room, followed the footsteps. a million of my thoughts strengthened myself. Many times I breathed in holding back the tears that still wanted to spill.if I had never loved him this deep. if I had never expected a good dream with him, if I had easily erased that memory.

the debate, between regret and inner strengthening brought this step uncertain. unconsciously this foot brought a step back here. in the river. hmmm maybe this place is what I still memorize the way. so even this foot just goes along with the subconscious.

scorching quite stinging, also I want what. I finally choose down the river sitting on a fairly shady rock because there is a tree on it. I put my feet in the water, a little cool. but my heart back riled, but my heart again,my thoughts continued to drift. one by one the happy memories with Adrian began to tease me.

"byuuurrr".something went into the water . I was surprised to make my heart beat so fast. My reflexes stood screaming.

"haaaaa, what the fuck"

laughter rang out up there, the lips expanding wide as I directed my gaze at him.

I scowled annoyed. "lo crazy good thing my heart is still healthy" ocehku. hariis still develop a smile on the lips. his footsteps approached me.

"don't make it up"

he said while sitting on the stone, I sat back down.

"yesterday the tinsel is unclear, now daydream. is there a problem ?" ask her without further ado.he who is too sensitive or me who is easy to read by her.

I breathed heavily, straight ahead.should I tell her?. for a moment I thought, but what's wrong with me telling the story. anyway I also need a friend to talk. hariis still silently looked at me,like I know I'm worried.

"if you can't tell a story no longer.all times need a chat.I'm ready to be a listener"

I looked at her for a moment. smiled wryly and words began to slide from my lips.

"actually I'm not here on vacation. rather try to escape from reality".

"how far can you run ?".

"so far".

"and that reality changed ?" I shook my head, I didn't understand her words either.

"the reality we can never leave behind, all we can do is try to accept that reality"

"heavy ris, careful I can't. too many things for me hard to accept all this".

"love ?"

i'm nodding.

for a moment we fell silent, the sound of wind rustling heard.

"how long is dating ?" the sound of her voice broke the silence.

"4 more years and crazy he cut me out a week before he married. ruined my ris".

"i'm sure you're not a weak woman, you can get through this, and as long as you're here, I'm ready to be the friend you've always been"

haris encouraged me. There was a sense of relief in my heart. hariis, the figure I just met back after so long. and she had grown into a man who looked so soothing .

"thanks ris, btw kok lo here again anyway ?",

"coincidentally passing through the cage, see you here".

"what's the cage ?"

"chicken cage, would you like to come?. Instead of you being alone here.

"can deh"

haris got up, I followed behind him, until I walked beside the river.

"by the way2 you have a girlfriend yet ? or even married ?".

he just shakes.

"time ?"

"haven't found a suitable one yet"

"criteria lo height times"

he smiled and said"No, it's just you who will accept me and my mother".

"wow a filial son, turns out".

"should dong".

the conversation continued to flow on our lips.until we were in the chicken coop.more precisely the chicken cattle, because so many laying chickens here.

"just wait here" he ordered

"what do you want to do ?"

"you eat chicken''

"follow ah"

"sure, you know"

"no papa"

rather than me alone in the chicken feed shed, mending harris join in. harris so seriously feed his chickens. It seems he is a hard worker. has only met twice but I can conclude, he is a hard worker,he is a sensitive, loving and responsible man.