The Way to Find You

Not to be remembered

I've been home a few days. But there is something I have not realized from yesterday because I was immediately busy working. leaving in the morning and coming home was also nine at night. I didn't even notice the room. And this morning I realized, turns out all the gifts Adrian still stored neatly here.even the picture is still lying on my dresser.

I took a picture of Adrian smiling, I looked at that face, the face that had filled my heart and day for four years. I grinned bitterly to find a betrayal that he did. tenderness, romance, and all the understanding that I used to get was nothing more than a shield to cover up all his decay.

He who received me when I with my stance did not want to give up my precious crown.I thought it was his true love.It turns out because he could easily channel the desire to another woman.

I put the picture frame down, I'm out of the room looking for my sister Lian.

" Lian" I shouted from the stairs.

"what is Wid ?" it is precisely the voice of the father who said, because it is Sunday so the residents of the house are complete.

" Lian where's pa ?" I didn't answer papa's question and asked him a question after I approached him.

" in the backyard like he was wearing a basketball shirt" replied the father who did not take his eyes off the newspaper he was reading.

My steps left papa in the living room.in the kitchen mama and mbak marni look busy with their cooking.

" where are Wid going ?"

" lian ma nyari "

" than the same storm your sister.help cook it here. the time of the virgin can not cook "

" hehehe,,, other times aja deh ma" said I went straight from the kitchen. rather than listening to a lecture from mama. because I was dealing with the kitchen. bodo very much if I am not the type of woman dreams.

There was always only the headband of my mother when I was invited to work on the kitchen business . because I never wanted to be in the kitchen. now I'm in the backyard looking at Lian who is so good at dribbling the ball and putting it in the ring.

" Lian" I cried. Lian who was about to throw the ball undoes her intentions.looked at me with a twitch on her forehead.

" want money ?" bargainku, surely if my brother's money matters matre this must be immediately spirited.

" would you, where ?"

" take 3 boxes in the warehouse and carry them to the room "my word

" ckk, so babu dong me"

" want money ?"

" yes, yes"

" buru wait"

" yes, bring it up"

4 Years of dating, obviously a lot of stuff from him. five teddy tedi of various sizes in my bed all from him. immediately I took and I slap it carelessly on the floor of the room. photos, music boxes, some shoes, bags, and so on,there's also a necklace for our sign ring first.all I put on the floor.

" hhh crazy, this is what the hell is it ?" shouted Lian who was already in my room which is now exactly the ship broke.

" don't have much to say, you enter the goods into the cardboard". said I who is now opening the closet, clothes, jacket, sweater there is a wallet too.all I throw from the closet.

Adrian is not a stingy person, so a lot of my stuff is spent by him.

"this doll is the same necklace as a golden lick, right ?" lian asked while looking at the necklace and ring.

" yes it's white gold, it's in the drawer there are two watches if sold enough to you go watch Virny"

" so this, I mean money"

" yes, this was already given to mbak, but now mbak no need. so mbak love to lo. Lo sell it that can be sold. that can not be sold can you throw it or love who it is. The important thing is not in this house anymore"

" so much hate mbak?, why not just behind it?"

" the thing that has been loved does not need to be behind, it has become ours.he is not nitip, just mbak don't want the item now" . I answered while sitting on the bed after I finished collecting Adrian's gifts.

"mbak, if you want to cry. nangis mbak, Lian knows kok. this is very heavy for mbak" very wise my sister.he can also act mature. Lian sat next to me.

" that's enough Ian's tears, to nangisin people as jerk as him" I said softly while looking straight ahead without seeing Lian's expression.

'' what exactly makes him suddenly miss and marry another girl ?"

" he's pregnant with people's children"

" crazy, so all this time he's been mbak ?" the tone of the question from Lian's mouth was so shocked.

I just nodded. I think this mouth is too lazy to talk.

" mbak, but mbak not yet the same Adrian ?" the question sounded heart-felt but with a probing tone. I grabbed a pillow and I punched my sister in the face.

" emang mbak akanan, ori still yes.enak aja".

" it's just mbak nanya, mbak datingnya has been a long time.yeah aja.." said Lian hanging.

"it's not that crazy, Ian, it's all done".

Lian put the stuff I had stacked on the floor back into the cardboard. I though it feels reluctant, help him pack. lazy actually if you have to remember every memory on these objects. Relationships that I thought would end beautifully but in fact the wounds that I got. humans can only try but the end result of God is the determinant.