The Way to Find You

Meet Meila

After my conversation that night, I decided to meet Meila. I realized Meila's love was so great for Ares' sister . Even my love for Ares' sister wasn't as great as her love. It would be very painful if he had to prepare for our marriage.I don't think that I'm so good, any professional reason will not change the state of the heart.I'm sure there are bloodless wounds that cut his heart.

Here I am now, waiting for Meila at a restaurant we agreed to meet. 15 minutes wait, the beautiful woman has not come. Even a glass of orange juice in front of me almost toilet. could it be that he didn't want to see me ?.

But I also don't want on my happy day with Ares's sister there's an unfinished heart problem . and worse if he suddenly resigned as a service provider for our event at a time that has been mepet . better decided now.

All my bad thoughts disappeared as the shadow of the beautiful woman seemed to gracefully step steadily towards my desk.

I smiled welcoming the woman with Curly hair she wore.

" i'm sorry I'm late" he said after greeting me and sitting in front of me.

" it's okay," said I try to smile.when honestly I'm too inferior to face a woman as beautiful as this. My amazement, made of what so that Ares's heart did not melt with a woman as perfect as this.

" what did you ask to see ?" meila asked, I haven't been able to answer, a waiter came to us.

We ordered the food in the menu book.

" mm, gini mbak. sorry, I know first mbak same brother Ares never had a relationship". said I paused, actually confused where should I start.

" Ares the story?". is very relaxed, even as if without burden.when it was clear when I met yesterday there was disappointment in his eyes.

" yes, when we meet at the mall" said I . there is a smile seen on his lips.

" i don't think Ares ever thought about our relationship before".

" it's impossible to be madam, however never to be in her life"

"it's not that sweet in my relationship with Ares, because there's only me there's never us. ah , that's over. it's gone . keep on what's your problem ?" she asked with her two beautiful eyes looking at me.

" sorry, to prepare for my wedding and Ares's sister . do you really not mind ?" my heart was not answered my question. A waiter came back to bring our order.

" thank you " said after the waiter put his food on the table.

" honestly until now my feelings for Ares are still the same" Meila said as she cut the meat and put it in her mouth. I did not respond, putting a spoonful of rice and the side dish into my mouth. My heart was a little bit pinched by his answer, but I tried to be ordinary anyway, I guessed it too.

" but I realized this feeling was only for me. There was never even the slightest gap in Ares' heart to consider my existence. I don't want to force my race to think for myself. The space in Ares' heart is already too crowded without any gaps for just one name ,Widi" Meila ended her speech with a bitter smile on her lips.

I am confused what to respond to. I am here is the wall that Ares built to close all access to his heart.I don't know how solid he built the wall called love.

" you're the reason that cold Ares can smile, you're the only woman's name that comes out of his lips and can make him meet just because you say your name, you're lucky. how foolish is man when love greets him?, the intelligent-brained brother Ares, turns out to be so stupid in love.he loves me in silence for many years. Keeping it so neat I didn't even notice it at all.

" when did you know about me ?" I asked after hearing so long the story.

" grade 2 High School, when all engrossed in her monkey love story. Ares came to bring a story that made us all shocked .he said he fell in love with a first-grader Junior High. I think it's just a story written by him just let the girls who idolized him back down. turned out I was wrong, after a long separation.it turns out that one name has not been erased from his heart. when it was clear at that time, Ares said, you already have a girlfriend, then I offered to make her fall in love with me. But 6 months passed,let alone love just like it may never perch in his heart, so I choose to retreat".

The long story that actually makes me gape, surprised. that crazy love Ares?. I can only be dumbfounded, found the story of two love against direction. maybe the pain of me staying married Adrian is not like their love just in silence .

" i will forever not be able to be meaningful to Ares, so please keep using the services of my WO, at least I have taken part in a special moment in his life".

As sincere is it?, if I ? , do not be part of the sacred moment.come on the wedding day will never. I just realized ,that the love I have is so small and fragile, do I deserve to be with someone who loves you that much ?.

" As long as you don't feel burdened. Ares and I have no problem using the services of mbak".

" i'm sorry if you have to know something you shouldn't know. I do love Ares, but I won't bother you. I have enough of this love myself".

" i believe in good people. Hopefully one day I will find a person who is much better than Ares.who loves more than love for Ares."

" thanks for the prayer" Meila replied with a sincere smile on her lips .

Lunch on the interspersion of a quite dramatic curhatan.this may be, the reality of the word "love should not have". I've loved, I've been hurt, but I've never been like Meila and Ares' sister. I don't have the sincerity they have. I still hate when love betrays, if I can be as sincere as they are. There's no reason for me to hate Adrian.

I need to learn from them, about a sense called sincerity. Until the ego no longer controls the heart, sometimes we must be stupid because love does not need intelligence but sincerity.