The Way to Find You

Want forever

I've been here a month, spent the day .there's relief in the heart. This pain is slowly being treated. Two people who have always been there for me, Haris and Aji. You are the most beautiful thing that God sent to guide this heart. So that I don't get lost in the journey of heart finding a speck of desperation to continue life that once felt dead .

They, with their sincerity, led me out of a slump. Although I know there is a sense of more framing Aji's heart, but he with all his greatness can be a friend without having to force me to accept about a taste that I do not want to start again.

Let the old story, about love, wounds and tears become a story that is quite present in the story. I was ready to rearrange, open up a new story, starting from my friendship and I was desperate for a beautiful love at the end of my journey.

" it looks like in a few days I will be back Ris" I said as I sat with Haris in a small hut near the plantation.

Haris looked at me for a moment, and then those eyes stared ahead.

" are you sure ?"

I nodded then said

" I've been hiding Ris for too long, there's also responsibility that I live in".

Haris took my hand. I stared at the face that always gave me a shady smile.

"as long as you think it's good, I support it. The most important thing is not to run away from the problem again.if later when you get there there is something you have to solve.finish it do not run again." It feels like my chest is listening to Haris' advice. Because in fact Adrian still continues to look for me. until yesterday Livi still tells if Adrian is still looking.

I leaned my head on Haris' shoulder.

"what should I do if I see Adrian ?"

"listen to the reason, let him with all the assumptions of the truth that he has, and you please with your decision. accept the reason and endure or simply forgive and leave."

" Ris "

" hemm"

silent, I'd love to say, I'm comfortable like this. Beside you in your hand rests on your shoulder. Want to stay like this forever.

" why Wid ?"

"no,gue just wants this"

I closed my eyes and enjoyed the heart that felt so peaceful. Calm feeling.

Long enough I'm in this position, leaning on Haris's boat. But I don't want to care about other people.I just want to be with people who can always make me comfortable and calm.

"so you need my shoulder if there is a problem?, feel the trash can I" continued Haris who made me laugh softly.

" wanted anyway, it's hard to be this way".

" really really, if you make a beautiful girl, you want to cry again, sad especially if you are smiling again".

" but if you've got married in the harvest time yes I am am bini lo."

Haris laughed crisply. I also laughed. I lifted my head off his shoulders looking at that happy face. It's hard leaving this guy, he's too special for me.

" want not to be in my wife's grave ?"

"how ?"

" you are my wife".

Maybe the speech was just a joke but honestly there was a vibe that was seeping in my chest.

" ah, no romantic you ngelamannya "my timpalku hide the feelings that are suddenly present.

" hahaha".

" why ?"

" fear of baper ".

" if the guenya wants what?". I tease Haris who looks relaxed. But there's always something I don't understand in his eyes.

Haris did not say, he ruffled my hair and grabbed my arm.

" ah, come home yuk".

" yee,lo who started as well" I sneered in the steps of following her.

There will always be a story in every place we poke and we stop by. I re-carve the story in this village.my childhood here with a beautiful story wrapped neatly in memory. now 15 years after my departure, I'm back with a new story with the same person but it's been a lot different. He's Haris my childhood best friend I met. And now I'm my best friend again.