The Way to Find You

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This morning I last saw the sunrise in this village. The cool dew this morning can no longer be felt when I return to the city.The singing of birdsong I can no longer hear. I will miss this calming atmosphere.

I breathed in trying to feel this cool air to the bottom of my lungs. Enjoy every last second here. I closed my eyes feeling this gentle touch of wind. If there was a reason for me to stay here, maybe I would settle down. someday when at the end of the twilight of my life, I would be here.

Spending my old days filled with peace away from the hustle and bustle of the city. With the people I love, we're aging together here. Ah, what a beautiful delusion. But with whom?, wait for God to give an answer. And there will come a time when love comes to me giving happiness is not just the lure of sweet promises that turned out to be only wounds left behind.

Love .there will be many stories about this taste.laughter, joking, happiness, hurt and also disappointment.love may not be everything. But shouldn't everything we do be with love ?.

Hah, have all my thoughts about the taste that has just broken my heart.it is time I rearrange this piece of the heart puzzle.need it back and ready to welcome new love in the heart.

" Wid" the touch of aunty's hand on my shoulder brought my consciousness back.

" uh aunt" I said as I looked at the aunt who showed me a smile on her lips. Aunt sat next to me on the park bench.

" why ?" a question slid from her. Perhaps aunt had already noticed me daydreaming here.

" Widi will miss this place bi "

" yeah, don't go home just stay with aunt here".

I smiled bitterly.

" want the heck bi, but there are job responsibilities that Widi has lived this month".

Aunt stroked my hair gently.

"If so, if there is a time often here. aunty seneng if you are here. aunty so there is a temen"

" yes bi, Widi try ".

" oh yes Wid, this is yesterday aunt met Aji. she nitip this for you. she said can not find you today" . said aunt while giving me a paper bag.

" yes bi, thank you. Aji has also sent a message that there is no work in other villages, he said ", I replied while receiving the package.

"your stuff is done in the box ?"

" it's bi"

" what time does the trip come ?"

I saw a watch that was coiled around my wrist.

" in half an hour, it might be up"

" yes bi "I answered while nodding my head.

Aunty passed by leaving me who was still sitting on the park bench. I opened the display bag Aji gave me a blue knit sweater, and a note tucked there.

widi

Thank you for stopping by in my life even for a moment, but you have given me a beautiful color in my life.

I'm sorry this is all I can give you as a memento. I don't know what item or what color you like.I hope you always remember me.

your friend Aji

I smile, I wear a life-giving sweater to dress the dress I have worn. Thank you Aji, you are something I will never forget.

Finally according to the travel agreement I ordered came. after inserting the suitcase and two boxes either contain what into the trunk, because the aunt prepared. I say goodbye to aunt and uncle.

" Widi pamit bi, thank you very-very good aunt Nerima Widi here ".

" same Wid, the aunt must miss you. often visit" .

" Widi needain bi " said me while hugging bi Ifa.

" you are heart-hearted on the road ". aunty's advice while taking off a hug. I nodded and said.

" yes bi".

I walked over to my uncle who was standing next to my aunt.

" Widi, uncle pamit, thank you for everything".

"same-sama. heart on the way.Greetings to your mother's father".

" yes uncle, will Widi convey".

With a heavy heart I put my foot in the car. I'll come back here again at least that promise is tucked in my heart. We waved each other until I completely left the aunt's yard and disappeared from their sight.

Actually, something is still in my heart. Harris. About the man, no matter where he was. I sent him a message from last night that I really went home this morning, but there was no nose. even if it is just to say one separate word. There was this disappointment, but I'm sure he had a reason, and as you told me, a reason to be heard and to come back to me to forgive or forget.

But still there is this tightness in my heart. I want to see it. just for a moment, to just say thank you. Please stay, hope he doesn't even exist. Ris, I'm leaving. Hopefully someday we'll meet again.